This Weds. I have class. Due to academic restriction I can only take 2 classes...>.>;;;; that's my own fault though. I went through hell and back Friday morning with Steve trying to get my scheduale fixed. After I went through getting my appeal approved, and then signing up for classes, I go to get my new scheduale fixed only to tell me I owe 105$ for registration. That was on Thursday. So on Friday, 9:30 in the morning, I get up and I go with Steve to school again, check in hand to pay off my registeration so I can register and get my scheduale since Friday was the last day to do it. I go to pay when they tell me it's not 105$ it's 1,105$ -.- the idiot woman told me the wrong price. SO I had to pay half or all. My mom not having enough for all, gives me half. But OH, I had to leave school in one town, and cut across it to go to another town so I could go to my mom's job, get ANOTHER check go BACK to school, all the while making Steve speed because it was 11 in the morning now we had got to my school at 10 and it took almost 20 minutes to get back to school. It was 11:30 by now. So I go back to pay, new check in and hand and THEN (because this is how fucking sadistic my school is) they tell me my whole sceduale had been canceled. I was no longer enrolled. I'm staring at this woman who told me this and I'm like ready to pull back and break the plexiglass between us so I can attack her and beat her with my shoe but Steve was like holding my shoulder because he saw the murdering look I was giving this woman. I go off, saying why couldn't you people tell me this the FIRST time I was here? HOW can my shit be cancled if for the past FOUR DAYS I've been running all over getting appeals approved, getting my classes dropped and added for the whole thing to be gone! GIMME ME BACK MY CHECK I'm about to go get this shit fixed. But the woman tells me to relax and says she'll give me something that will reenstate my scheduale and then takes my check, pays off my bill and then gives me my paper. I go to get my scheduale fixed, and now I'm done. Time leaving: ! 12:10PM.

I was pretty much pissed off the whole time, but I was so grateful to Steve who took me across 3 towns, and stood with me to get my scheduale fixed AND even took me to Dunkin Donuts to I could get some coffee and a bagel. *sigh* I owe him a present. I love Steve ^.^ I love Emanuel who called me later that day asking if I needed a ride to school that afternoon. ^.^ He's the one that took me the 1st two times. *sigh* So yeah now everything is fixed. -.-

It snowed today too. A lot of snow. i was home sleeping by then...so I missed the start of the storm. But this is me, caring deeply. >.>
Riiiiiight. *yawn* I slept a lot today...from like...12-5PM and 2 hrs before that from 3-5AM. At 6 this morning, I got a phone call from someone. I was pissed off, thinking I can't get no sleep...so I sat up and picked up my phone and answered. I heard somone go hey. Where you sleeping? In the groggy state I was in, I had no idea who it was, so I was like, No I'm always wide awake at 6 in the morning. Then he goes, sorry I forgot how early it was there. Then I'm like who is this? It was Hye Sung. He called me from Korea. I guess I should explain a little, without using full detail. KP oppa is depressed. His halmunni recently passed away and he also suffered another blow before hand when BC broke it off with im a few weeks earlier. When Hye Sung called, someone who's voice I had not heard in almost 2 yrs since he left for Korea, I thought something bad had happened. He called to let me know that KP was diagonsed as having clinical depression. Due to recent events, Hye Sung had to take him to the hospital (not a suicide threat if that's what ur thinking) it was because he had a wound that was infected. So he got some psychological treatment and he was told he was clinically depressed. Hye Sung has not been able to sleep for two days because he's been watching KP. He has to wake him up and make him eat and keep him up..it's so sad because my oppa use to be such a light happy person. Now he's wasting away and depressed and I feel helpless to do anything but worry. *sigh* And I hate having to keep telling my dongsang some which are his as well, all this bad news about him. =( *sigh* I jus hope he gets better.

Wah...depressing blogs...=p

I love my Ghost ^.^

Speaking of my Ghost....

Part 121- Osaka Verses New York

I don't mean to sound so down...I'm not so please don't everyone ask me if I'm okay because I am I'm fine ^.^v no worries. Weee i got Maki hooked on Spoongebob and Zim. MWHAHAHHAHA 2 of my fav shows. Tee hee. Well anyway...I miss my Aoki-chu...OH and Aoki-chu, Gab I got ur guys presents...but I have to mail them....X.x sorry it's all extremly late...^^;;;;; but you know what they say better late then never.

Okay last night I had my 1-shot fic called The Virgin posted up at TonyHyuk and JunTa forum *click* and I got 31 hits, not ONE comment. I was like...yeah thats so stupid cuz ur tellin me 31 people read it not ONE of them has anything to say? Even if it was "You suck"? All I kept thinking when I saw was "I should have posted at NRG's forum" last time I posted there, I got 7 hits within the hour, and a comment. The next day I had a string of comments and over 40 hits. -.-;;; note to self: Post at NRG's forum next time. The ML is dead...boo -.-;;; *sigh* but at least I'm getting good feedback on my long fic Fallen Bweee!! LOL I dunno I liek that fic a lot. I guess that's why I keep going with anything. And of course 36 Moons

Okay, I'm off to write. ^.^ Laterz.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Sorry about the past entries... Um...I think Maki fell off her chair an hit her head that she temperarly forgot how to blog...>.> but she's trying to fix that...also pitas is trying to revive itself from being wack, which is why it's taking forever and a day for them to be fixed so...yeah. Sorry about that...also any entries of 36 Moons that are all funky....again, I forgot to tell Maki to put in the HTML so they wouldn't be all funky and what have you...so yeah sorry about that. *sigh*

Okay, today I went out with Steve. ^.^ He took me to go see Ocean's 11 FINALLY!!! That movie was good. Plus, Brad is hot. MWHAHAHHA I loved all the suites he was wearing, I loved his tattoo on his hand, and I loved the fact that a lot of times in the movie he was eating something. Hehehehe so cuuuute ^.^ His name was Rusty in the movie. Brad is such a good actor. Mwhahahaha. So yeah, the movie was good. I kept commenting to Steve how hot Brad is. LOL yeah he also is gonna get me the Queen of the Damned movie poster....and today I bought this magazine that cost me 8$ X.x called Fangoria. The whole thing of this mag is like about horror movies and whatever...but I bought it because the Queen was on the cover XD That's right, Aaliyah as the Queen of the Damned. Her eye make up is killer. Anyway, I flipped through the mag and I got some pics of the new Lestat (which I'm STILL upset about btw) being played by Stuart Townsend, and he doesn't look half bad...but the fact that his hair is a light brown with blonde high lights and not BLONDE like Lestat still bothers me. Also the fact that Vincent fucking Perez is playing Marius...-.- another non-blonde that's suppost to be blonde. Sorry, I'm a big stickler for tiny details...anyway, the pics of Lestat and the queen are beautiful and I love them...I also love the fact that Aaliyah makes a beautiful queen...but she must make me hate her like I hated Akasha. Weee I can't wait to see this movie. *claps* Comes out in Feb. MWHAHAHHA

Anyway....tomorrow I have to get up all fucking early to go BACK to school to hammer out the last of my scheduale. I went to fix it FOR THE FINAL TIME today....because I got my appeal approved, and they tell me I can't register until I PAY....-.-v I hate my school. So I have to get up all early and do that tomorrow. *SIGH* wut a big pain in the ass...

Anyway, a day ago or so, I got some lyrics from my Maki-chan ^^v She sed they reminded her of me...why? I dunno...LOL well maybe I can figure it out...but I'm being retarted lately..anyway, the verse that she gave me was:

Go on your hands and knees
And praise the new deity
Serve the ego, serve the ego

So yes...this is me...they say words, espically the well chosen ones can say a lot about the person...>.> what does that say about me? Fun thought ^.^v

So...after bitching and moaning and DEMANDING that everyone I know get Angel's Tale I get the video for myself. Okay that video was the most boring 4 minutes and 35 seconds of my life. But hey, Haido looked good in it so weeee. You spend the 1st 3 minutes of the video getting a nice profile shot of Haido sittin on a building then a forward shot, then he climbs some stairs, then it's back on the building, profile shot, the end. >.> Haido's lucky he looks dope in that video.

Part 120- Bomb Wires

I wrote A LOT of this in advance when my blog was dead for a hot minute so I can afford to put this up almost everyday. *sigh*
So yeah....that's it for today...*yawn* Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

So bored. *sigh* well okay...hm...my unni came over. I was so happy to see her because usually I don't get the chance too. I showed her JTL's new album but because she couldn't stay long, she couldn't hear it...next time though ^.^v Anyway...I got pics...hm...but I can't exactly post them up yet...ah I will in my next blog or rather try too.

Part 119 Retaliation and Death

X.x my school didnt call me to tell me my appeal was approved so I'm gonna go there 2morrow and complain and whine and cry if need be...X.x I HAVE to get in. There's no way in hell I can explain to my mom that I got kicked dropped out because of some stupid policy. -.- I HATE my school....gaw it sucks. I'll be in so much trouble if I get kicked out.

*sigh* anyway...yeah I have nothing else to blog about.. I still have no life. *sob*

One Luv~*

OKAY....so I sorta got my compy fixed...>.> I got Windows Me installed yesterday thankies to BC who I looove. She came over yesterday and did it for me. I thought that would help me greatly. Instead, I got my compy sorta fixed. I'm STILL missing 2 different files from whatever that my retarted compy ate which means that I STILL can't view pics AND I still can't go into any password boxes and ish to type. So I'm still living through my Maki-chan (whom I also looove) who is still doing all this for me. IE posting my blog, uploading 36 Moons and all that good ish. Rather then reset my whole compy, I rather hold out until a few more weeks and just wait till I get majorly upgraded which means CABLE!!!!! FINALLY!! *does 1Tym dance*

Speaking of 1Tym, I got their 3rd album and JTL's. I loved both, but I miss H.O.T as a group more then ever now. I love Make it Last from 1Tym's new album and it's just a funny album in general, Mwhahahaha. Jin Hwannniiiie!! yeah...fun...and finally a chap of 36 Moons sorry this is soooo late...I hope someone is still reading this!! >.<

Part 118- The Faceless New Uprise

Whatelse....oh yeah, I went out with Emanuel today. He took me to my school which is FUCKING ME btw....I have to get my whole schedual changed and only take 2 classes which I plan on doing 4 days out of 5 day week. The rest of the time, I will be at Emanuel's house either sleeping or eating. MWhahahaha then hopefully by next semester I'll do better....it's math that's totally fucking me...so I have to do better this time. I had to put an appeal in for the dean to allow me to take math again....>.> I hate my school. Me and Emanuel are still planning our classes around each other, so that way, I can jus go to his house ever day, and we can chill. People still think we go together. Mwhahah since we plan on seeing each other more often, he decided to give me a key to his house ^___^ awww feel the love. Hehehehehe

So...yeah basically, I have my Maki-chan to do everything for me. I love her so much. ^_^ she's also gonna do my layout. Awwww which I got a preview of DAMN that thing is beautiful ^_______^ *SIGH* so yeah...within time though ^.^v when she finishes it. Heheheh okay....so...thas pretty much it. I'll hopefully blog again soon. I MISS BLOGGING!!! Plus pitas was being retarted a few days ago, so I couldn't blog even if I wanted to...-.-v It's suppost to be fixed now. So hopefully it'll remain fixed.

AH I almost forgot, I saw Snatch. That movie was funny! LOL Who took the jam out of your donut? LOL Man that's a great movie. Tee hee. ^_^v Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

I know I haven't blogged in like forever -.-;;; Maki is posting this up for me *glompies Maki* So let me explain....

See my Windows 98 decided to delete it's own file (don't ask -.-;;) and so it made it next to impossible for me to get on. I can now get online but I cant get into any place that requires me to type in passwords in those little boxes AND I can't view pics....-.- so anything I need to see and get has to be either AIMed to me or emailed to me. But luckliy I have mah Maki chan *glompies again*

I wasn't on the past few days either because of my dad who once again decided to get mad at me and not let me on, saying "I have no life outside my compy" well...>.> not like I can GO anywhere....-.-b so sorry for anyone that hasn't been able to contact me. Also, my new fic Fallen has been slow to be sent out because of the strict punishment I have now thanks to my dad and also, 36 Moons will be on a slight pause until I figure out how Imma do this. I won't be online on the weekends anymore....-.-v until my dad goes away anyway. Blah

And also, because of my stupid punishment I missed my 1yr anniversery of Angel Egg. On Dec. 27th I started this blog ^^ weee man it seems like such a long time ago that I started rambling LOL Happy New Year to everyone and I hope everyone had a good holiday

OH and also this is for my own benifit because I may have to reset my compy and I'l loose everything if I cant save it so thats why I'm reposting yhese pics you're not missing much I posted all these already but it would just be a 100 times easier if they were in the same place. http://user.chollian.net/~dovelet/chukjun18.jpg http://jboard2.superboard.com/users1/A09910/download/A002/S_10.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_08.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_13.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_14.jpg http://m3.easyspace.com/lllllll/best/bestw.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/hyde/251.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_hyde_pictures/hydecave.jpg http://www.e-larc-en-ciel.net/Gallery/doiha01.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/clicked_hyde02.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm12.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_yukkie_pictures/yukkiedashing.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/yuk6.jpg http://www.geocities.com/tetsurokuku/magazine/gallery51/rr990614.jpg http://images.imageevent.com/vampireflipflops/lunasea/websize/sugizo4.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/279.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna26.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna15.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugizo008.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/238.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm40.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/05sugi.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/47sugi.jpg http://members.tripod.lycos.co.kr/lovelunacy/su2.jpg http://www.jpopmall.com/j-music/photo/j-rock/luna/nov/lastlu2.jpg

I know alot of pics but those are all the ones I didn't have a chance to print out -.-;;; and my printer is out of black ink. Which again totally fucks me =p

I got Larc's Heart album, ^.^ it was one of my Xmas gifts I still got others coming to me. Bweeeee I'm also waiting for my J CD and my SMtown 3 that Aoki is gettin me, JTL and 1Tym's 3rd and thas it...for now. I HAVE TO GET LUNA SEA's. I went to NY the other day and I hesiated getting it....I regret it now =P Plus I didnt get Jae Jin's album UGH...-.- I'm just dumb sometimes. Oh man my knee is killing me so much >.< I dunno how if I haven't done jack shit since I went on holiday. >.< ow. Well okay....until my compy is fixed... *AGAIN* I dunno how frequently I'll be able to blog... but hopefully I'll figure it out. Hehehehhee Laterz.

One Luv~*

I know I haven't blogged in like forever -.-;;; Maki is posting this up for me *glompies Maki* So let me explain....

See my Windows 98 decided to delete it's own file (don't ask -.-;;) and so it made it next to impossible for me to get on. I can now get online but I cant get into any place that requires me to type in passwords in those little boxes AND I can't view pics....-.- so anything I need to see and get has to be either AIMed to me or emailed to me. But luckliy I have mah Maki chan *glompies again*

I wasn't on the past few days either because of my dad who once again decided to get mad at me and not let me on, saying "I have no life outside my compy" well...>.> not like I can GO anywhere....-.-b so sorry for anyone that hasn't been able to contact me. Also, my new fic Fallen has been slow to be sent out because of the strict punishment I have now thanks to my dad and also, 36 Moons will be on a slight pause until I figure out how Imma do this. I won't be online on the weekends anymore....-.-v until my dad goes away anyway. Blah

And also, because of my stupid punishment I missed my 1yr anniversery of Angel Egg. On Dec. 27th I started this blog ^^ weee man it seems like such a long time ago that I started rambling LOL Happy New Year to everyone and I hope everyone had a good holiday

OH and also this is for my own benifit because I may have to reset my compy and I'l loose everything if I cant save it so thats why I'm reposting yhese pics you're not missing much I posted all these already but it would just be a 100 times easier if they were in the same place. http://user.chollian.net/~dovelet/chukjun18.jpg http://jboard2.superboard.com/users1/A09910/download/A002/S_10.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_08.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_13.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_14.jpg http://m3.easyspace.com/lllllll/best/bestw.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/hyde/251.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_hyde_pictures/hydecave.jpg http://www.e-larc-en-ciel.net/Gallery/doiha01.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/clicked_hyde02.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm12.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_yukkie_pictures/yukkiedashing.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/yuk6.jpg http://www.geocities.com/tetsurokuku/magazine/gallery51/rr990614.jpg http://images.imageevent.com/vampireflipflops/lunasea/websize/sugizo4.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/279.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna26.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna15.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugizo008.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/238.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm40.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/05sugi.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/47sugi.jpg http://members.tripod.lycos.co.kr/lovelunacy/su2.jpg http://www.jpopmall.com/j-music/photo/j-rock/luna/nov/lastlu2.jpg

I know alot of pics but those are all the ones I didn't have a chance to print out -.-;;; and my printer is out of black ink. Which again totally fucks me =p

I got Larc's Heart album, ^.^ it was one of my Xmas gifts I still got others coming to me. Bweeeee I'm also waiting for my J CD and my SMtown 3 that Aoki is gettin me, JTL and 1Tym's 3rd and thas it...for now. I HAVE TO GET LUNA SEA's. I went to NY the other day and I hesiated getting it....I regret it now =P Plus I didnt get Jae Jin's album UGH...-.- I'm just dumb sometimes. Oh man my knee is killing me so much >.< I dunno how if I haven't done jack shit since I went on holiday. >.< ow. Well okay....until my compy is fixed... *AGAIN* I dunno how frequently I'll be able to blog... but hopefully I'll figure it out. Hehehehhee Laterz.

One Luv~*

That song is like ten minutes long....I only listen to it if I really wanna kill a lot of time. OKAY so before I go off on the topic that I have named this blog today, I'll post part 117 of 36 Moons because something is wrong with my disk annnnnnd not saving part 117 like I want it to....so it'll be here. Sorry everyone, just skip over the part in between the --- lines okay? Okay...here we go.

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Part 117- Holidays

Within time, Tai and Gabriel left for Tokyo. Akio went to California, Jun, Mikkie, Aoki and Aya all disappeared into the city along with Takuro and Yuki and I was left to baby-sit Toki all by myself. Sure everyone was just a cell phone call away...but I really felt as if everyone had something to do and I was just playing nurse maid to Toki as he went through his illness. I did have small plans with Tsubasa.. though as I sat by Toki's bed side, I wasn't too sure if I should go. First off, he was sick. And he wasn't just sick, Toki was on the verge of falling into something more serious then a cold. I wasn't sure if it was just my imagination, or if it was just Toki's way of dealing with a sickness, but...he just seemed worse off then better. Second, he hated Tsubasa. For him to know I was leaving his side just to go see my ningyo would piss him off. At the last minute, as Toki slept, I called Tsu and told him I couldn't make it.
"You disappoint me Jia."
"I'm sorry. But....I couldn't very just go under these circumstances."
"I understand. You have your priorities checked."
"But what would you do now?"
"I'm not sure."
I checked my watch. Toki would be out for a while...
"Tsu, come here instead."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, Toki's out like a light. He won't know anything."
"All right, but it's all your idea."
"I know."
We hung up.
Within a half hour, Tsubasa appeared at my door. His hair had grown out a little since the last time I saw him, and he left it down now so it was almost to his shoulders. He parted it to the side so a good portion of black hair fell near his pretty eyes. He even wore a hint of make up again. Still in black...a black button down, black dress pants, a black knee length coat and black leather gloves. He pulled them off his slender hands as he shoved them in his pocket and he gently shrugged off his coat. It slid it off his delicate frame as I held it before laying it down on the couch. He turned to me, his slender body turning almost sensually as his hip was accented by his pale hand that held it for a moment and he said,
"So, what are we going to do?"
I had very little of anything else on my mind but one thing....

And I think we all know what that is.

But I remembered that just in the other room, Toki is sound asleep. My eyes regretfully wandered up as I said,
"I'm not sure. I don't cook, so we'll order something to eat."
I swear I heard him laugh. I looked at him as he gracefully sat down, a smile curved on his face.
"What?" I asked.
"Mr. High and mighty, I own all of Japan and well on my of getting New York, cannot even cook."
I crossed my arms as I saw the delight it caused him to know I was helpless in one thing. One thing outside of Toki. "So? Can you cook?"
"When I have to."
I couldn't imagine Tsu cooking. I changed the subject.
"Well, I don't buy anything here to cook with, so, ordering out is the next best thing."
He was still amused.
After I placed an order, he and I sat down to wait. I placed an ash tray between us as we both had a cigarette.
"Where's Ai'iro and Jiki?"
"Ai'iro has a sister. He went to see her and her kids."
"I didn't know he had a sister."
"For obvious reasons."
I nodded in understanding.
"And Jiki went to see his cousins. The last of his family. It's all they have left. His mother doesn't approve of his work since she found out what the Yami do, so...she denies him."
"I know that feeling."
"And you Jia. What of your holidays that were reduced to being here on the couch with me?"
"My mother died when I was in my early teens. Only I didn't know it until I was in my twenties."
"Oh."
"I never knew my father."
Which wasn't an exact lie. Sure I knew who he was, but be damned if I actually knew the man to call him my father. I then exhaled as I said,
"You?"
"Father died, mother died. As far as I know, I don't have any other family around."
I nodded. I then leaned back as I said,
"These are the most boring times in the world. I rather have something to do then sit here in my living room."
He laughed.

Our food arrived later. He and I ate for a moment before I remembered Toki. I went to check on him to see he was still asleep, his fever was still up, but he was sleeping soundly. I pulled the covers over him better as I left him sleeping and closed the door behind me. I returned to the table as I sat down and Tsu said,
"Sleeping?"
I nodded. I took a sip of my drink as he said,
"Jia, what's going on with you two?"
I looked at him for a moment. His dark hair fell near his eyes. I felt almost as if I owed it to him. But at the same time I feel I didn't have to nor did I want too. But I looked at Tsu and felt I owed him something of an explanation, even if it was a half assed one.
"Toki lives here."
"I see."
"We're close. Everyone knows that."
He nodded. He expected nothing else. I was grateful.
"But it's because of him you do nothing that will displease him."
I was a little shocked he said that. But I couldn't believe how true it was. I wouldn't again sleep with Tsu, though the temptation and invitation were always there, because if I did, Toki would get mad. A lot of things I would give no second mind to all came to a halt when it came to Toki's yes or no. A fight with him could break me, and if I easily gained my will, Toki might loose another fingertip. His finger only now was healing, the stitching still keeping the skin closed...his hand forever deformed. Anyway I looked back at Tsu as I said,
"Ne, ningyo, you know too much."
He smiled, that pretty pink mouth in a rather enticing smile. He crossed his legs as he said,
"Always the observant yakuza."
He gave a small toast to me as we sat there and ate.

The actual holiday night, I spent with Tsubasa on the balcony. We watched the snow fall together as I, very cliche and over dramatically turned to him and grasped his face in my hand as I said,
"You have to be the prettiest thing I've ever seen."
He smiled as he started to laugh and said,
"How very melodramatic Jia. Under the dripping moonlight as snow falls around us."
I laughed as I stroked his cheek, watching the slight hint of pink appear as the cold reached him. I then sighed, turning back to the city to watch a light blanket of white snow cover it. Such a beautiful scene. And yes, I did eventually take Tsu in my arm and lock my mouth to his. So yielding...so soft. As we parted, his dark eyes looked up at mine as he said,
"I'm ringing."
I laughed as I said,
"There's a reaction I never got."
He smiled as he said,
"No, I hear my cell phone ringing in my pocket."
I laughed as I stepped back and he went into his phone. He answered it as he looked at me, then the floor as his amused smile faded. He then nodded and then said good bye. He looked up at me as he said,
"They tried to kill Ai'iro."
"Who's they?"
"I don't know. Someone did. At his sister's house. Shit...she's got kids."
He went inside as he started going to the door when I stopped him.
"Tsu, you're alone, you can't go out there now."
"I have to."
"I'll call someone. Give me some time, I can be organized in five minutes."
He nodded as I picked up my phone and called Aoki. I was upset I had to ruin his time off, but he was needed. Since Aya was with him, the two of them would show up at my door within twenty minutes. I called Jun and Mikkie next. Once I made those phone calls, I went to my bed room as I woke Toki up. He turned to me as he said,
"What? What's goin' on?"
"Nothing, I just wanted to let you know something came up and I'm leaving."
"Wha happen?"
"Nothing that can't be handled without you. Sleep. Call me if you need anything okay?"
"Okay."
"I'll be back as soon as I can."
He nodded as I left, closing the door behind me. I went back to Tsu who was pacing slightly. I told him to relax and then Jun and Mikkie arrived. Knowing Tsu was in a rush to go see Ai'iro and his sister, I told Jun and Mikkie to accompany him. I would follow with Aya and Aoki. My ningyo thanked me as he walked out the door. I would catch up in a moment.

Well...at least my holidays didn't end in a complete bore.

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Okay so...yeah that's done. Right, back to the point at hand. Since JTL came out, they're saying that they dissed JunTa and yadda yadda, truth be told (my theory) Lee Soo Man is the root of all evil. I don't think JunTa stayed on their own free will because (as stated) Lee Soo Man is the root of all evil. I think the whole idea of the whole fact that H.O.T fans are divinding themselves has never been anything new. I've heard horror stories about how in Korea, girls will literally cut you for liking who they like. So what's the point if girls here are like not liking each other. So one like JTL the other likes JunTa, all right whatever...

Theory again, I don't like any Ta fan. Nothing personal..I just don't. I'd fit right at home over in Korea cuz I'd be the 1st bitch to pull a blade on someone. Anyway, boppers are the root too. Boppers are the 1st one to hype shit up and make a big "war" out of everything. Don't believe me? Check the H.5.T (link on the side) and see all the JTL is good, JTL did diss, JTL didn't diss....whatever who cares?

Whatever this is just so annoying. I'm like WTF all these SAME fans were popping all that ying yang before talk about H.O.T Forever and now they divided themselves. Goes to show were real loyality lies.

Again, also another reason why I am the Anti-Bopper.

H.O.T Yakuza 012 -.-b

Okay well...I'd go on it but I can't say much about it that won't be repeated. Imma go write. Laters.

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I'm not posting a chap of 36 Moons tonight because my compy is being evil and not saving it like I want to...so hopefully I'll fix it. -.-b

ANYWAY why JTL is being wack. Well...wack is a strong word. I'm just highly upset that they would put JunTa on full blast and basically (my interpitation of the song) called them sell outs. I was like....-.-b yay...way to support your "one time friends"

But at any rate, I still support JTL...and I'll get their CD anyway cuz you know H.O.T 012.

I just got yelled at...I 4got to wake up my mom at 10 and by the time I realized I had to wake her it was 10:40 and I didn't see a point in waking her since I was beyond late. So I was like....err...but jus just woke up and she's pissed. So I got yelled at. -.-

MY BAD.....-.- my mom gets salty with me for the weirdest reasons. Anyway I'm done for tonight. Laters.

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God.....Edic is such a froot. -.-b Dork.

Anyway after putting it off for as long as I felt like it, I finally deiced to upgrade AOL 6.0 to 7.0. I really don't want to but my parents have this insane idea that it'll be better and it won't cut me off as much. -.-;;; they thought that about 6.0 and I got cut off more then when I was in 5.0. But my parents don't know anything when it comes to compies...of course I don't know much EITHER but they think I'm some great guru and my dad gets mad when I say I don't know. -.-b

OH Yesterday I 4got to say who sang Sweetest Coma Again it was Luna Sea (Duh for those that did know)but pitas is being sorta evil and not letting me edit. So anyway...yeah...I slept till 2! WOooo

Okay..I'm gonna go shower...and let AOL 7.0 download by itself as I go do such. -.-b evil....hopefully this won't tell me Im doing an illegal thing everytime I try to save something on disk...-.- (it's what evil 6.0 kept doing)

LOL Christopher oppa, everything is eviiiiil LOL

I miss mah Aoki-chu =(

OH, later on I will also blog about how JTL (Woo Hyuk, Tony, and Jae Won) are being mad wack. I still support them, but I so gotta agree with my daughter Gijimo, mah yakuza now Aya, on this one. They being wack Gijimo...I agree. I'll explain laterz.

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I seriously think it should be "Come Again" but it's "Coma Again"....um...not asking.

Part 116- Winter Fall
This chap is kinda slow....but it'll pick up again I promise.

Okay so...anyway...I'm sitting...bored. La la la la la...I got a new server because Angelfire was being wack and very man like, being difficult and shit and decided to not share art files anymore. So I'm like fine -.- so I take all my little clique tags go to personalpages...sum shit like that, I go there, and everything is fine...until TODAY. They start being wack. AND for some really weird reason I can't get into the H.5.T forum. I'm like oooookay fine. -.- PLUS my Taya Farbe pics don't work anymore but I saved them all so it's not that big a tradegy. MWhahahah

But yeah...that just vexed me for a minute. Now I have those ugly red and white X boxes on the side of my blog because my new server is also decideding to be wack and very man like. -.-b hopefully it'll come back soon and let it work again. =P

*yawn* I don't know what to blog about...I'm so bored. I finished writing for today! WOOOO

I hate when that happenes because then I have nothing to do. LOL

I'll try to see if any 1shots come to mind.

OH speaking of 1, I completly forgot that 1Tym's 3rd album is out. I also want JTL's which is also out...and I'm still waiting for my SM Town 3...which I know mah Aoki-chu got *muahz* and my mom was like I'll buy u a CD if you want. A CD which means ONE CD...and I don't want one I want 2, as ungrateful as that sounds. But if she don't get me 1Tym's 3rd I'll get it from somewhere else. I'm definatly getting JTL's NOW though. WOO H.O.T 012!!!!!

I made my Christopher oppa get Angel's Tale because I'm so pimping that song. I LOVE this song *as everyone now knows* and yeah...it just kicked...he liked it. ^.^b I was happy he did. I made him get the English verison because I wasn't too sure if the Japanese one would bring across the same feeling. I also gave him the lyrics so he liked. Very Jazzy sounding he said. I agree. Maybe I like it because aside from Haido singing it I can SO HEAR TA doing it. *^.^* I think I would die if Ta did a cover of Angel's Tale he should thouhg...again, I'd die. MWHHAHA and I'll pimp that shit to everyone too. XD

Okay...I'm off. I'm all done blogging. Let's see if I can't get writing done. Well more writing...I need a life.-.-v

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I keep ripping off pics from Auwon's blog...^^;;; Sorry Auwon...just um...well damnit Ren is jus so sexy. He's such a cutie. PLUS he plays the cello. There's nothing sexier then a bishie playing a stringed instrument. And I was like bweeeeeeeee.....I love the fact that Ren can play cello, Sugizo can play violin, my Ta can play piano and there's just a whole...plethera (wow I butchered that word) of classical instruments that sexy guys can play. Bweee.

Okay so about this impending doom crap. In 5 days it's Christmas. I'm REALLY NOT looking forward to it. I start getting the holiday blues because like...stuff around my house, you wouldn't know it's Christmas. Not a single decoration, my parents are like....gonna kill each other -.-v my best friend D is gonna be in Texas BC has her own family, Pookie and Emanuel also have their own families, KP is in Seoul, Sunnie is in NY and he's more then likely gonna be with his mom and Mikey anyway. All my other friends across the world...so...it's just me. It's always just me. And I have nothing to celebrate. It's hardly cold (but I'm not saying it's not cold cuz it is) but not cold enough for snow so...yeah...-.-b holidays suck

I only have my dongsangs presents to look forward to. I don't want much from my parents, just the video game Devil May Cry. I want all this random crap from my friends but that's about it. T.T I should like break down and try to convince my parents to buy me Haido's barb wire necklace that's about 180$ XD I REALLY want that. Much like Aoki-chu wants that...necklace that The Pimp and my Ta have, I want the barbwire necklace. ^.^ I'd wear it too. WOOOO

*claps* Go Auwon for reading 36 Moons even though it's well over 100 chapters long. *claps* She's actually reading it. And she's already almost done with the 1st part. I break it into 3 parts...it was pretty easy...I just kept to it cuz I like the idea of it...and jjang people like it too...^.^ but anyway...yeah...

Okay...gonna go write...I want this necklace >.< laterz.

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Ahhhhh I LOVE that song. Got the words from My Neo Universe (link on the right) I think this song is so for my Ta. I believe every word that Haido is saying is like...exactly what I'm thinking for my Ta ^.^b jjang. Again, I push, go d/l that freakin song!!! I wish I had the link but I got it off Winmx!! Errrrr....I'll ask Helayne again for that one dude's site...the MP3 is there cuz U guys HAVE to get this song. It's so good. If you're not a fan of Haido it don't matter, this song kicks so much ass.

Oh...before I 4get...

Part 115- Saved

Okay so let me tell everyone what my fondness has caused me to do. I was on search for more Luna Sea pics...because I can't get enough of my slut XD and I stumbled across a link for Ebay. I was like...oh...okay well let me go pine for the stuff I can't get T.T so I go to Ebay, thinking all this stuff will be hella expensive and completly out of my reach. But I go there and on bid (when I started) was a magazine Newsmaker for 8.95 I was like eeeeeeeee with Luna Sea on the cover, and L'arc in the pages. I was like AH, so on a total whim and total greed, I went and registered, and started bidding. I have 20 minutes left on the bid and the price is now 11$ even. I'll bid another 1$ at the last minute. I REALLY want that mag. I'm so stupid I barely have enough cash for presents and I'm going out of my way to buy a 1998 out of print copy of Newsmaker because my slut is on the cover.....actually I limited myself. I figured if the price goes over 12$ I won't bid anymore I can't afford it. Usually an H.O.T/Kang Ta bid, I'm bidding as high as 40$ sometimes though I'm struggling to pay it off sometimes... -.-v because I don't know how to say no to Ta.

So anyway, yesterday I got the CF Haido was in for Uni...something. He's wearing some clothes of the company and he talks for 5 seconds before he sings part of Evergreen and he does it nicely. *was proud* I was like YAY Go Haido. I also d/led a perfomance clip of Shout at the Devil which I didn't like too much cuz I didn't see Yukkie =P I'm down to 11 minutes on my ebay bid. Mwhahaha okay so back to my slut.

I DID find 2 more pics of him. I found some wallpaper (which I dont use because I have my Ta wallpaper Aoki-chu hooked it up with) and plus it was pink. BUT I kept the link because

*GASP* Sugizo has an ass!!! *click*
Oh YEAH. I knew he was a curvy bitch for a reason. Look at that ass...kinda a bump, and it's not all big and round like Hee Jun's huk huk huk Aya ur man's got a bubble ass XD (Junk in the trunk baby) but er..anyway, Sugizo has an ass XD OH YEAH!! *claps* That's my slut.

Sugizo and Inoran *click*
Look at that smirk XD I LOVE that smirk MWHAHAH its like he's so full of mischief XD

I got those off random searches I did at Google.com so I dunno where they came from, but creidt to whoever. BWeeee....I really have to go put my new cliques up because yes...I joined more...mwhahahaha

Blah I lost my bid...poop...oh well. It's just Luna Sea...not like it's my Ta or nothing =p so it's all good.

Anyway...yeah...I must go...I'm gonna chill now..mwhahaha I sent my fic out. It's called Fallen ^.^v let's see how this one goes.

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I just have to say how I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Angel's Tale by Hyde. I LOVE both versions. The Japanese version is so dark and, romantic sounding...but the English version (where again I only catch a few words of Haido's fobby English) is like a jazz sound. It reminds me of Ta's work ^.^ I love this song. New fav song!! *claps for Haido* It's his second single as a soloist. He sounds really nice ^_^ I just hope I never have the mispleasure of hearing him do it live. ^^;;;

Okay so anyway I once again need help. Maybe from some Anime buffs out there? Since Anipike shut down, at least for me it did I don't know what happened, I got cut out from all my usual X links. I LOVE X I'm a big big big fan of it. And of CLAMP's work, I love X the best. I love thier art work. And one of my favorite pictures is one dubbed "Twisted Romance" where Kamui is licking Fuuma's palm. I got this picture which is from a winap skin from Out of my mind with a SLASH *click* and I want the real pic -.-

I REALLY love this pic. I wish I could get it so if anyone hasit, or knows where I can get it (without the winap thing I mean) then PLEASE help me out. The closest I ever got was a small little dinky thing Babydoll once found. Wow...I miss my Babydoll. I haven't talked to her in like forever. Anyway, I really want that pic =P

I didn't get around to finishing 36 Moons last night, and I'll have to do it now after I finish up and send out the 1st chap of my new fic. ^.^b I also managed to write up and post up my 1 shot fic at Temptation (Link on the side) called Steal Song I just went to see how many people read it, and I already got 35 hits @.o;;; I was like whoa...cool...^.^b So now after I finish up this new chapter of my new fic, I'll write up 36 Moons and then...um...well I'll be done -.- I have nothing else to do. Boo...

I woke up at 1 again. I can't sleep any later now? WTF? Blah =p anyway...yeah I still love this song. OH OH OH I got new pics of Ta from the H.5.T (link on the side) he's a model for Farbe Magazine and he's look SO SO fuckin beautiful this I got from the H.5.T:

Taya in white from Farbe *click*
WHY...omg...so beautiful...he needs to be here now...

Ta laying down in green and yellow *click*
He's so beautiful....I 4give the ewwy colors he's wearing hehehe

Taya in white looking up *click*
He's soooo cute ^.^ awwww *glomps Ta*

I got this pic from the H.5.T too but I just turned it to the side to make it look better ^.^
Taya on the cover of Farbe *click*
Love hiiiiiim *still holding onto Ta* OMG look at that...he's curvy too!! EEEEE XD

*clears throat* so yeah...anyway....Auwon you didn't know that the names of the H.O.T Yakuza came from 36 Moons? Aww my bad I didn't mean to confuse everyone. But okay, those that don't know what I'm talking about:
Toki: Me
Ghost: Chibi
Aoki: Linna
Gabriel/Gab: Maki
Aya: Gijimo
Tai: SR unni
So yeah....that's us. I don't talk much of DG unni who is Jia but she's Jia. Hehehhe ^.^b okay so yeah...Auwon...did you like it? Or was it bad? LOL I dunno what to think of my work. I like it...it's why I keep writing it. ^.^

Blah I have to redo my X-mas List. Bweee...okay I'm off. Must write and send new fic. Laters.

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I'm on holiday ^_^ How grand it is to wake up today at 1 in the afternoon and realize I have nothing to do ^_^ (which will eventually piss me off cuz I have nothing to do -.-v) Anyway....yeah....okay we're gonna bounce back to the yakuza thing because Aoki-chu has started to really hate on boppers...well more then usual.

What does being a Yakuza mean? Well it's not a clique. Because if it was a clique then everyone could join...and we don't want everyone to join. There will be a clique called the Anti-Bopper sooner or later. Once my Aoki-chu and Gab have vacation time, we'll discuss it. Also Tai will be on vacation soon...I hope I MISS TAI!! *glomp* Anyway, back to the Yakuza...so yeah, you gotta love those people that write up shit like what Aoki-chu posted in her blog. That shit sucks. When I go to the H.5.T I glance around and see some shit like "KangTasluver" or I remember I saw "KangTa is Mine" one time....-.-v always fun. I ignore those people. I have nothing better to do. The anti-bopper more or less look at people like that and shake their heads. Why waste time? Sure we hate them because...um...well they sound sorta stupid...but hey, are we better then boppers?

Um, yeah...

Mostly for the simple reason then we could argue a way to explain why we have a better shot at whoever then them. ^.^b I know I can. Be damned if I met a bopper that could say something better that "No way, Kang Ta is mine! He's so cute!" well duh...but what the hell does that have to do with anything. I don't want a worthy opponet. I want everyone to leave me alone. Respect him for his music, but don't try to stake a claim. Cuz u'll never win. Espically with someone like me. I try to give my fellow Yakuza support. Like my daughter, Aoki-chu, Ghost, Gab....I believe in all them. If they really want to and they believe, shrug everything else off...they can do it. Otherwise I wouldn't believe they were really yakuza huh ^.^b

I remember reading Auwon's blog and she was explaining her whole Gackt thing...and she's like...wait Imma quote her: "in a way, the way i feel about gackt is kind of the way lez feels about kangta" ^_^ only she sed she can't hate other people for liking him since she has the same reasons Well that's cool. I don't hate everyone who likes Ta because oh, they like Ta. Because Ta is more then a pretty face. He's got talent too, and he's definatly worth more then ah squeal because he smiled. He's worth more then people give him credit for. I give him all that credit. Which reminds me how Helayne said if Ta pulled a Haido live (I.E sang just as horrible live X.x) would I forgive him. Okay, let's just push aside the fact that Ta can sing live...very well. But let's pretend, 5th door, 9th gate, all the planets alined and Ta had a bad "Haido show" and he just couldn't sing. I would be mad at him because 1. If he was sick, then he should be in bed. WTF is he doing risking his health like that? What is he Hee Jun? ^^;;; (I love Junie for that though, so dedicated but he should b resting too!!) 2. If he wasn't sick then WTF happened? Did he just get nervous or something? I dunno either way I would be mad at him because he should know better. But I would forgive him cuz duh I love him ^.^ But still...that would upset me. It upsets me when Haido does that too X.x tnhat just hurts my feelings though...okay I wandered off track.

So anyway, case in point, bopper suck. -.-b Yeah...whatelse...oh yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUWON! I think I'm late...am I late? LOL sorry better late then never. Wow she's 20 O.o OLD! LOL Let me stop. I'm almost 20. Anyway, so I have free time...I'm about to write, and get some more of my KFC popcorn chicken in my fridge and see what I can create today. Just one more chap before I send out the new fic. And I really wanna get started on my 1 shot. I think Ghost is home Aoki-chu. But I'm not sure. She hasn't been online in like 4ever. I'll ask Christine. I was invited to a Korean party XD jjang. I really wanna go. I mean COME ON, sexy hot Korean guys all over the place? At a party? I'm so there. Weee I hope I can get BC to go with me. I don't wanna end up alone if Christine wanders off. *bounce* okay, time to go...do something. LOL laters.

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Part 114- Far From Done

So mother lovin tired...but I will talk about the unspeakable horror I subjected myself to. I watched Haido singingNijii, Love Flies, Heaven's Drive 2 TIMES and Shi no Hai LIVE. Okay Nijii was just hurtful. He was like SCREAMING the chrous out...I was like OMG I was literally crindging when I was watching it. A pretty face does not make up for a lousy perfomance. In my second perfomance of Love Flies Haido was STRAINING to sing the chrous to hold it out as long as he's suppost to. I was like >.< OMG...my song. He totally killed it. In Heaven's Drive man....I don't know....it was just terrible.

My mom suggested that maybe he gets stage fright....and I was like....well...I guess...but that was just awful stage fright because he sings so well on the CD's and stuff...and SOMETIMES he can sing. Like when he did Spirit Dreams Inside that was good...not too bad though he was kinda straining there too. Oi....well....at any rate, Haido hurt my feelings today. Nuff said.

Okay...I'm going to bed. My lower back hurts. And I had cramps all day T.T Sorry I left you Aoki-chu my compy was evil...so was my AOL I got booted 5 times. I'm 2 chaps short of starting to send out my new fic AND I have a short fic in process for NRG. Since she extened a personal invite to her forum, I decided to post a short 1 shot HyukTa fic there. I'll let everyone know when it's up. Right now...I'm going to bed. *yawn* Ta is keepin it warm for me. ^.^v

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I also joined more cliques...LOL I need to stop...

I can't help it. *yawn*

I'm still in pain X.x wah....

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Ohhh my God...T.T I have the makings of horrible cramps right now X.x they started earlier and thank God I ate something so I then popped some major pain killers before they got any worse. >.<

Yes I know all of you needed to know that. You all my calm down and relax now. I'll live.

Okay so...*yawn* I woke up today at 6 in the morning. I got ready in my black sweats and my black Shinigami T-shirt, my wool peacoat, my boots that say Death and Silence on them, and I went to go take my final. We had to answer 15 questions without a calculator...I was able to do most of them, then from 16-50 were all calculator problems. I was blessing my lucky stars I got one. So I did it all pretty easily and I PRAY I get a good, or at least decent passing grade. I then left with Luz and we talked a little...thas about it. It was pretty easy. I went home and laid down for a while, watching TV then I got up and started drawing after Maury came on. Maury happens to be one of my fav talks. I think that's the one thing I'll hate about not having school anymore, I won't wake up at 8 or 10 in the morning to watch Maury anymore =P Boo.

So anyway, I drew. I started drawing up a storm mostly because I know I had to get some pics for Maki's layout done. I managed to do one. My Gabriel got all jacked, and I'm not too sure if I'm still feeling Tai *click* but that's for Maki to decide. If she likes it, then she can keep it, if not I'll go back to do another one.

Anyway, now that Gijimo has taken on the flesh of being Aya (I know Aoki-chu is cheering and frankly so is Toki XD) she got her tag up:

And Aya got a crush on Tsu...XD but hey, Aya, you realize that Tsu don't look like he use to right? Tsubasa cut his hair off a while back after he handed over the rights of the Yami to the 36 Moons. So...Tsubasa looks like this *click*. He's still a ningyo though ^.^v Speaking of the Yami, I finally drew another one outside of Tsubasa. Ai'iro *click* Tsubasa's right hand, body guard and close friend. ^.~* I'll get around to drawing Jiki soon too. I just need more time and pain killers X.x owie....

Anyway, last night I didn't get to post the pics of Sugizo, my slut. Well I posted one of him being a sexy slut in red and black lace *drools* CURVES BABY!!! Anyway here's another one of Sugizo leering *click* it's kinda sexy to see him holding his guitar XD knowing what he can do with it. OMG I got Gijimo to listen to him playing Hurt and she agreed. He's good. WOOO *cheers* Also she sed Sugizo was pretty. I don't think he's as pretty as he is sexy XD But he looks really nice here in b&w *click* I like B&W pics of him. I like B&W pics period. And then his:

Web cam pic! LOL I love this pic. I wish it was a web cam pic...he took here...XD he'd never leave XD WOOOOO but he looks so so so cute there. ^_^ eeeeeeee Sugizo and cute are not 2 words I usually put together. But here they are. Mwahahaha. Then we have my slut in that "skanky" (quoting my Gijimo here)outfit, the imfamous thigh highs, garters and short shorts *click* I love this outfit. Though I dunno why he's like that in the pic. Is he wearing sneakers? O.o;;; oh God...anyway, I started to notice just how curvy he is. In the Gravity video, he's so fuckin curvy I couldn't believe I missed it before. (Is taking more pain killers) and he's like...a sexy bitch. Anyway in this pic *click* he's in silver pants. You can see how curvy he is, his thick thighs and tensed arms XD sexy bitch....and finally, a pic of Sugizo with his daughter Luna *click*. At first I thought it was some random chick that I was about to start hatin on cuz I WANNA HOLD SUGIZO WHILE HE'S WEARING JUST A SHEET, but it was his daughter. The arm is all small hehehehe...but it doesn't look right...but..you know...whatever. Sugizo is sexy XD I also found out he was born in 1969 (which means he's 32 for those that don't feel like thinking now) and I was like WOW looking THAT sexy and slutty at 32...WAH! Go him *claps for Sugizo* I give that to any J-rocker who looks that good..*claps for Haido, Yukkie, Tetsu, Gackt, and any other J-rocker over 30 looking that good* Wait...I think Yukkie is over 30...O.o I can't remember. I just know Toshiya is 24! *claps*

OMG no one is online...T.T well at least I have the chance to go join the cliques I wanted to, and then watch the rest of my clips. ^.^ OH I got to see the Thanks God video. -.- I HATE THAT GIRL...what's her face...not Eugene, that hoe who was in the video..*stab* touching MY MAN WITH HER YOUNG ASS...*she's 14!!!!* Anyway I'm not TOO mad because after all...she's 14...she's hardly developed. MWHAHAHHA. I'm so bad....anyway it made me cry. He needs to hold me in the snow. *sigh* Laterz.

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FINALLY I wrote another chapter. Everyone was saying how I left it cliff hanging...-.- well my bad..

Part 113- Sweet Revenge

Yeah man I have more pics of Sugizo I was sharing with my daughter, who I am coruppting now and my slut is just SO SEXY...I can share one now because I don't really have any time since I have to go to bed...(have a final at 8AM)

Sugizo-Heaven *click*
Sexy bitch XD Look at those curves....he's so fuckin curvy...mwhahahaha damn sexy. Damn, damn sexy. ^_^

I'll post tomorrow when I'm on holiday. Wooo *does 1Tym dance*

I'm also past the 1/2 way point in my fic AND there's a new post at the Yakuza blog *click*. Aya will start to post soon. ^.^ (she tried to today but her compy was being evil)

I FINALLY got to talk to mah Aoki-chu *GLOMPS AOKI* I looove yooou. I miss you. I can't wait to talk to her more often. *wishes she could now* well anyway I gotta go. =P must go to bed and have to take my final 2morrow wish me luck everyone!! *muah* ^.~*

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I'm listening to Eve more often now because I have their CD LOL I still want this CD myself...I just borrowed it from BC. *sigh* Anyway...I did nothing today. I slept till 12 surprisingly enough. I have my last final this Monday and I got a calculator so I'm happy ^_^

I haven't posted 36 Moons in a little while, mostly because I don't know what to write. ^^;;; I'm a bit stuck. I HATE THAT. But as soon as I get an idea I'll write it. I really need to be inspired. Speaking of which, Gijimo, the Yakuza are down with having ya in with us if you want *muah* mah daughter is gangsta XD So let ur umma know if you wanna be in ^_^v

On the fic side, I'm FINALLY past at the 1/2 way mark of my new fic. I can hopefully start sending it out by....Weds. the 19th. If I keep my pattern up. Hopefully, I will start up 36 Moons again.

Okay...vanity. I was thinking all day about the clique I joined. And I have to put a pic of myself up somewhere. And I did before....so I have to put one up again. I don't know why sometimes....I'm really not all THAT vain but in a way I am. ^.^v I have a bit of an ego...but not that much...just sometimes. I dunno it was just a random thought that came into my head. I'm weird when I have nothing else to do. LOL

*yawn* I'm gonna try to work on 36 Moons, see if an idea strikes me.

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Stupid angelfire....I hope the images work now.

I hope that some of the people reviewing my page for the clique banners didn't think I didn't put them up before joining.

I DID!! I'm sorry!! Angelfire is wack as hell right now!! Hopefully my new server is okay...>.< *prays*

Kara says I should archive...okay...I soon will. It's okay that I have to wait another week hun ^.~* I know you're busy sawl good.

Gonna go write...oi...

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Anyway....so today...well actualy yesterday I was DYING for some Pizza Hut Ultimate meat Lovers pizza. 6 kinds of toppings, 6 kinds of cheese. So I'm dying for it and I get it ^_^ SO now I have left over pizza which has to be the best for me. So I'm happy.

2day I had math class, but since we were reviewing for a final, I skipped it and went to the cafietria with Changa and Luz instead. We chilled there until I had to leave. Then I went home. Almost an hour later, BC asks me to chill with her like I've been wanting to, so I get up and go. We go to her dorm, which I think is pretty cool but...I dunno if I could handle living with 3 other people mostly because I love my room and I need A LOT of space, both physical and wall. So anyway, we chilled there and I got to see the Shinhwa MV for Hey Come On and Wild Eyes. Both BC and I were saying how Dong Wan is such a centerfold. During the Hey Come On MV I saw him and I was like WHY is he wearing clothes?? LOL And Min Woo is such a pimp. That's why he had all the special effects. Then we watched Hey Come On a live perfomance and BC was like Jin is SUCH a cheerleader LOL *falls off chair* She showed me when we we watching how jerky and sharp and over dramtic he is during the performance. LOL It was classic. Jin IS a cheerleader. He also does the perfect Jazz turns LOL. Ghost ur man is a manwhoring, perfect jazz turns having, cheerleader. LOL I'd worry...or enjoy it. XD I liked Wild Eyes more except that I did not need to see Hye Sung the Slut without a shirt X.x *is tramatized* SPEAKING OF WHICH....X.X *dies again* BC had some old L'arc Video on her compy an we decided to watch it. It was in B&W and it was kinda slow, but then we saw someone from the back sitting on a bed. And I was like wow...someone is really naked sitting on that bed. Then BC was like it's Ken. I'm like ew...AS IF seeing him without his shirt isn't BAD ENOUGH, HE STANDS UP ASS NAKED X.x *is scarred for life* UGH EW GROSS GROSS. Then I got to see a perfomance of Shi no Hai/Love Flies. 1st off, needless to say Tetsu hurt my feelings with that outfit...we're not even gonna talk about it. And HAIDO OMG he just looked SO SLOPPY. His hair wasn't gelled back all the way so just the top of his head was gelled and the ends were...all over the place. His eyebrows weren't done, and when he sang the note in the chrous for Love Flies OH GOD X.x it was AWFUL. *shakes head* he so can not sing live. But yeah...Yukkie looked good *glomps Yukkie* I also saw the video for Pieces which was SO SAD X.x *sob* Tetsu dies! I won't say how cuz I don't wanna ruin the ending, but it SUCKED cuz he DIED! *sob* and I saw the video for Loose Control which was freaky XD I loved Haido's make up.

Anyway, then BC took me home and I cleaned up a little, and then went to pick up my mom. And I just got home. It was raining all day today and yesterday too...it's just a lot of rain...it's bad for me because rain usually makes me tired, but today I'm wide awake. I usually love the rain but not when it soaks through my boots and up to my ankle on my jeans -.-v I looked so ghetto when I went with BC to her dorm, because I was jus in sweatpants since I changed, a windbreaker and a black shirt. I didn't feel like getting dressed again.

Today I had one of those conversations that made me appericate how much I really love BC. When we were leaving her dorm, we started talking about...I dunno something and we started talking about cigarettes. OH WAIT I remember now. She gave me these little tabs of Listorine which dissolve on your tonuge and are way better then mints. And she goes, if you smoke or when you do, these are better. If you smoke menthols, those burn your sinus. I absentmindedly open my bag and say, I do have menthols, Newports. Once before when I smoked in front of BC with my unni, she looked at me kinda disgusted/disappointed. So I kinda crindged inside when I said that because yes I went out and bought a pack of cigarettes today. So THEN much to my surprise BC says, oh ew, I have Marbolro Lights. In my head I go O.o;;;;;; wut with the when?? So, as we walk to her car, we both light up. BC has sorta changed since she started dorming, and it's not for the worse. Now I know, more then ever why we're friends, and why we're so close to each other. Recently, she and KP broke up, and she was distraught and depressed for a few days having her girl moments, but she's okay now. And now, she's smoking. We both smoke and I didn't worry at all. It was weird seeing her smoke...it didn't look bad, it was just OOC. But...I just realized how much more I love her when we talked on the way home. We were talking about some stuff...-kinda a personal matter- and we were like agreeing so much...and sure we most of the time agree when it comes to serious shit, but...I dunno...it was like a good moment for me. I just click so much with her. I just really love her lots. And sure she's mean to me and she's stinky sometimes and she abuses me -.-v and I make fun of her saying shes my abusive man and whatever, but in the end, as always, we're close and I know she won't say it cuz shes not like that but I know she loves me, cuz I love her too ^^

It's a good feeling to know that one day, I'll be 40 years old, and BC will be 39 and still be my friend. ^_^

Anyway, she also let me borrow Eve 4 which I LOVE and still have yet to check of my X-mas List...*nudge nudge HINT HINT* so I'm jamming to that in my car, all getting down and celebrating all by my damnself. LOL ALSO without my asking, she burned me 2 disks full of videos and stuff. She's great. I lub mah BC. I also got my stuff back like my tapes and Memnoch because she just started Armand. I buy books for the both of us. LOL ^_^

That's the WHOLE SONG. Just the same verse repeated again and again. But the beat is so kick ass. *glomps Kim Gun and Park Woong* *sigh* I liked today, though it was rainy. It was still good. You know, what kind of person tells you how much money they spent on your X-mas gift? This girl just did. I'm like....yeah...cuz she's getting me one of the vampire Princess Miyu DVDs and she's like you know how expensive Japanese stuff is? I'm like -.- I know...but it's not like I ASKED her to get me that! GEEZ. WTF...which reminds me I have to revise that X-mas list.

UGH WHY is angelfire being WACK all the sudden!! *sob* It USE to allow art files to be shown NOW they dont! WTF!! I need a new server...

Okay...I also have to go write...later.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Okay so I'm a freak.

I have reached a new level of freakiness.

I wanna tie Ta up XD

Okay, let me explain. I was talking to Maki about the X tarot cards,and I explained how I drew some of my own *cuz I have no life* and I started scanning some of my better ones, and as I did, I realized a lot of them had some kind of bondage. I was like whoa...where did that come from? Does that mean I subconciously wanna be tied up?

O.o;;;;;;;;;;;;

Then I came to an even better conclusion because I am not the one to be tied up.

I wanna tie Ta up XD

But that doesn't mean I wanna don a leather corset and some thigh high boots as I chain Ta to anything. O.o it's nothing THAT serious. I jus wanna tie his wrists with silk. And not tightly. I'm kinna liking that idea...

ANYWAY *cough* Wow I really posted that...^^;;;

I went to a new site...link on the right a X page. I'm still looking for this X pic of Kamui where someone is cupping his face and he's licking their palm. It's so HOT XD But this pic Kamui Angel/Devil *click* is so prety but it came from a diff site...so pretty ^_^

Anyway, tomorrow I have Math...last day...oi...so looking forward to it. But I have to do my math project. Blah...okay I gotta wrap this. I'm on the phone with BC XP LOL brat.

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Why? Because I'm tired damnit.

Part 112- Commit

And I've been meaning to post this up too, but I kept forgetting.

A Letter to my Unborn Child

No spoilers but that fic is related to 36 Moons

so tired...am going to bed...*yawn*

BC screwed up my whole day. I have a English final 2morrow. *snap* piece of cake. Must talk to David...must make move or regret it forever....-.-zzZzZzZzz

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I LOVE this song. Mostly when the chorus...well not the chrous just some parts of the song, when she goes "I want your baby" Dude.....for reals...*looks at Ta* ^_^

Ah...let's see...well I got to campus mad early when I sped...I really have to stop doing that...anyway I got there at 7:30 my class is at 8. I had to take a history final. I started skimming back all the chaps I didn't read when I suddenly started panicking. I realized the words might as well have been in Greek because I didn't understand a word I was reading. I kept trying and I kept panicking more when I read the words, and when I asked myself what I remembered, I didn't remember anything. I rolled down my window and turned off the heater in my car even though it was 39 degrees this morning. I kept trying to make myself recall SOMETHING I just read but to no avail. I finally rolled down my other window and looked at the guy next to me and said, hey you got another cigarette? So yes I smoked. I had a Newport 100 and by then I started to relax and I read over a few paragraphs. I kept forgetting stuff anyway, but I remembered a lot more then before. When I looked up to think, I saw David! ^_^ And he saw me! And he waved to me!! *big ^_^* Does anyone know how good that made me feel? Even though it was just a wave, the fact that he saw me and waved hi to me was enough to calm me down so much I could have gone into a coma.
Then I got out of my car and started walking to my class and then took my history final. I didn't know a lot of the stuff, I guessed on most and I knew like a handful of questions. I had 56 questions!! THAT'S IT. What kind of wacked out HISTORY proff gives out 56 questions? Why not a even 50? Or 60? That pissed me off. Just cuz it was all off. Anyway, after my final, I headed to the building where I have to register and made my scheduale out. I have 2 required classes I have to take Math -.-;;; and English 122. AGAIN...-.- geez. Anyway, I also decided on History of East Asia *JJANG!* Also with my fav proff I had for History my 1st semester, and Psychology. Though what the hell am I doing taking Psychology I don't know. Then I left to go to my advisor to get my paper signed so I could offically register, and I saw Changa! ^_^ he and I walked, I told him how I saw David and David waved hi to me *because I'm a dork like that, that I was STILL swooning on this* and then I offically registered and then went to sit for my math class. I borrowed Changa's calculator and then took a test (which I'm praying I did fairly well in) and then went home. And here I am. My hands have not been warm all day. Anytime they were, it's because I washed them under hot water. But anytime the slightest bit of cold touches them, I freeze again. Stupid circulation. =P my fingers turned purple again -.- evil.

*yawn* so I don't know what to do as I wait for it to be 4:30 because I have to pick up my mom by 5:30 and YES with traffic it will probably take me that long to get there. I think I'll go join more cliques...um...well..at least find any with any kind of appeal. I just found 2 yesterday. I'll go seek more. ^_^ though I really shouldn't. Aoki-chu keeps saying there's too many ^^;;;; my bad....

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I decided last minute to stuff myself full of fresh, steamy, hot, white rice. I love rice. It's like one of my staple foods.*yummy* I don't get fresh rice very often, so when I do, I love it. Plus, it's non fattening. ^_^v so I can eat before I go to bed. ^_^ Jjang

I barely ate all day anyway. I had a piece of panettion which is just a fancy name for Italian fruitcake, and a snapple. That's not counting the 2 cups of coffee I had this morning, and then the snapple I got when I dropped my car off to my mom. I had more liquid then anything today. So to get real food in me is good ^^

Okay so I finally saw the Angel Eyes video. Endi, the innocent one, is mad cute, Jin the man whore, needs to shave an his hair bothers me, Eric, the froot, is a froot (redundant) Sungie, the slut had a good short enough part in the beginning, *SUCH A CLONE*, Junie was TOO CUTE *pinches Junie* that Santa thing was soo so cute. Dong Wan, the centerfold, was okay, he looks weird dressed LOL, Ta my BABY *glomps* ultra sexy as a cop and of course the regular clothes was cute too and his singing was kick ass XD I saw Hwan Hee....but...what happened with Brian? O.o I thought there were 2 in Fly to the Sky. Buuut thas jus me. I could be wrong, that's what I get for not following the group. Min Woo, the pimp, was SO CUTE!! *pinches Minu* I was like AW!! Go Aoki-chu ur man is big pimpin'. And you're right, Junie shimmied alot....thas jus his thing though ^^ And then there were a bunch of annoying girls but no one cares.

MOVING ALONG

I saw some so so so so cute pictures of Hee Jun today in the H.5.T forum (link on the side.) What was really weird is that I had somewhat pictured Hee Jun in my head for my new fic so I could describe him better, and my thoughts looked like this Junie from my thoughts *click*
Swear to God he looks like a china doll. So pretty. But that's what he looks like in my fic. There's a reason for that too. But everyone will see what I mean when they read it. Junie looking like a real bishie *click* he also looks like a doll here *still going with the thoughts I had* but this pic bugs me because he needs to do his roots!! *pet peeve*

*yawn* I have a history final tomorrow. I decided to skim over the last couple of chaps I skipped out on reading today, and read them tomorrow as I wait for David.
So tired...*yawn* I can't wait till school is over!!! GOD...I soo need to be on holiday. *yawn* Okay going to bed *even though it's early for me.* Laters.

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UGH UGH UGH I hate myself soooo much sometimes. -.- today was my last day of English class. And I think...ever since I started digging David, I've been looking for a way to talk to him. Okay, so I have FINALLY accomplished that. And now, after ALL THAT WASTED TIME, I was like OKAY last day of class, Imma talk to him about...other issues. Make a move, see if I have a CHANCE IN HELL. So what do I do?

Nothing -.-;;;;;;;;;;

Yes that's right NOTHING. Absoultly, postivily, jack shit, diddly squat NOTHING -.- I hate myself. *kicks self* HOW can I just let that happen. Well...it's not completly over. Tomorrow I have the off chance of seeing him in the morning and then Thursday I have my final with him. *SIGH* I'm so freaking dumb. On the upside he looked so so so so so so so so cute today because he wore one of those black knitted hats with a rim like a baseball hat rim? Only not as long a rim. They're coming in style nowadays. I myself really want one. Anyway, he wore one of those which means he didn't have his hair done *^^* kawaii. And little strands of blonde spikes stuck out near the front, like on his forehead. He kept trying to tuck it in but it didn't work ^.^ huk huk huk so cuuuuute. He also wore a white shirt and blue jeans and a black peacoat. ^_^

After class and I brooded over my stupidity, I went to pay my tuition so I can register for next semester. I was all late >.>;;;; my tutition was due Nov 16. *nervous laugh* ^^;;; well, at least I paid it. So now tomorrow after my History final, I'll go do my scheduale and then go to math. *sigh* I'm so not gonna do well in my History final. I tried studying...but I found it so incrediably boring. I like Europian History...but not like....1700's stuff. A whole bunch of wars and famines accored. A bunch of take overs and political shit happened and I'm like *yawn*
-.-zZzzzZZz. It's not fun. I like ANCIENT history, like Greeks and Romans, the Fall of the Roman Empire, the Greek scholars, the building of Rome, the Renicanssance (wow I butched that) the great Art Period....not this...political propaganda that took place in France and why they beheaded the Queen Antionette. Who cares? Okay so she was a bitch *waves finger in the air* welcome to ancient diva. -.-b

Anyway, I'm FINALLY downloading the Angel Eyes MV so everyone can leave me alone about it. My slow modem is going to take about 1hr and 4 minutes to download a 5 minute or less video. But it's got Ta in it so it's worth it ^^ huk huk huk. Aoki-chu did you order the CD for me? Gomen, I don't mean to keep bugging about it but you know...it'll get sold out all extra fast if it hasn't already. I didn't wanna bring it up yesterday when you were venting.

My poor Aoki-chu is going through 1st year college stress. It happens to us all. Although I'm one of those people that barely stresses over much. I stress, sure who doesn't, but not like in school stuff. If you stress it adds excess damage to your body and mind. I'm already fucked up both mentally and physically I don't need MORE shit fucking me up. But I'm so looking forward to 2morrow just because I'll have knocked another final away and my holiday time is all the closer.

AUWON yes the picture IS real. I think it's just an angle shot though, it's why JunTa looks like they kissin XD huk huk huk JunTa jjang!!! Speaking of which, I started work on my new fic. ^^ no title, 2 chaps down, no couple revealed yet. But with any luck I'll have it out sometime next week. Also, I wanna type up the short story I wrote yesterday. It's called A Letter to my Unborn Child. It's connected to 36 Moons because it's a letter Jia's father wrote to him before he was even born. It's only about 3 pages long. It's not too bad. But I hope someone reads it. It doesn't say anything about the story so no spoilers within.

So tired. >.<;;;;;;;;

I woke up this morning and I was walking to the bathroom to go brush my teeth so I could take my mom to work and my body felt so heavy and tired that when I left my room and turned to go down the hall to go to the bathroom, I hit the wall with my shoulder and I just used the wall as a support method to walk to the bathroom because I was about to tip over. ^^;;;; I was a little tired yes. WAH I'm also hungry now. I'll eat soon though.

Joolez, you're not the only one who wants to go to Korea so bad. I'd sell my...well my soul is damned so I'm not sure who'd want it...besides it's already an IOU for Ta XD so I can't sell that....hmm...I like all my appendages oh I know, I'd sell my...okay I don't know. I'd just give SOMETHING up if I could go to Korea. =( *wants to see Ta so badly* I would give up my soul in a second if it guranteed me Ta. HA....how many of so called "fans" would do that? XD I'm good damnit. And I'm just hating how I keep stumbling across more of his fans. God I hate them all. Nothing personal...just...you sweat my man. I love how people say, let's share him. -.-;;; look at it this way, say you had a boyfriend you went to school with. And some girl likes him too. Would you be so quick to say "Let's share him" to her? No? then that's how I FEEL damnit. I don't like to share. Besides you don't SHARE SOMEONE. He's not a thing to be shared. Not like some fuckin baseball card or something. GOD WHAT is wrong with teeny boppers? *glomps Cyndii who is also an anti-bopper*

Okay, so...um....I think that's it. I'm gonna go write while this video d/ls. *bounce* Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

*stretch* I'm coming in for the count down. Tomorrow is my last day in English class. Which also means my last chance at David. I'm scared he'll reject me, but I know if I don't say or do anything, I'll regret like I have so many times before. But I'm not really sure what to say, plus I'm scared. On Weds, I have my History final and then math which I'm actually going to because I need as much review as I can get for my final. On Thursday I have my English final. On Friday my last math class, and then Monday my math final. X.x finals suck. =P BLAH.

I was bored earlier today so I finally took the idea I was toying with and while listening to Hurt I started writing. I have 2 chapters done of my new H.O.T fic. ^^ I have yet to give up writing those....LOL I haven't touched 36 Moons YET...I did write a new chap for today but I haven't written the one for 2morrow yet.

Part 111- Do Not Tempt Me

I'm going BROKE. I decided to pay off my long overdue debt to Amy once and for all in one shot. THEN I found this other girl...and...well I already blew 23$ so I have the money to pay both of them off, AND this Friday still go out with BC this Friday. Problem is, I won't have enough money to buy Xmas presents. But like I said, they'll all prolly be late anyway. I think I can have Aoki-chu's and Gab's on time, and BC's and D's. I have to call D and talk to her. So...yeah...other then that, I'm pretty much set.

AOKI-CHU don't forget to order SM Town 3 for meeeee X.x

Anyway, AH I LOVE Vicious Sparks *click*. I went there today and I found MORE pics of my slut. My Slut, is just too sexy.

Sugizo looking down*click*
He's so damn sexy. But if you notice he still can't dress himself X.x that belt is awful. So is that shirt...>.>

Sugizo in 3 pics same shoot *click*
He's just sexy...*licks Sugizo*

Sugizo showing A LOT of skin *click*
DAMN this shouldn't be as sexy as it is to me. But it is. He's got weird funky metal stuff on him but...he's still freakin sexy XD *continues licking Sugizo*

Sugizo in a suite *click*
*DROOL* YEAH BABY XD

And yeah baby...a pic small of enough to post here XD *pokes*

target=_blank>Sugizo lookin to the side *click*

And now for Toshiya. XD YEAH BABY He too is a sexy bitch but not as slutty LOL

Toshiya in full make up *click*
He's still so pretty ^_^ I like his eye make up. I keep forgetting to post up that full body pic of him when he's not wearing make up and those jeans are all torn up XD WOOOOO *touches Toshiya's thighs*

Toshiya in pieces *click*
I looove this pic. I seperated it from other pics of the rest of DEG, but I like just Toshiya's pics. ^^ pretty.

Toshiya in pieces II *click*
Same as before. Just different posses and angles.

And and Auwon and other Gackt fans...
Gackt and his dog *click*
Auwon wishes that she was where Gackt's dog is LOL

Gackt and his dog II *click*
Look at hs doggy. That is such a cuuuute doggy. ^^ I wish I had a cute doggy like that hehehehehe

Sophia *click*
I don't know who this is, but the picture is beautiful ^_^

Okay thats it for pics. Man....what was I gonna say...oh yeah...joined more cliques. I need to stop. I'm getting carried away LOL but I love the cliques. They're pretty hehehehe okay....I'm gonna go write some more. ^_^b

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Part 110- Sell Out

I'm so bored. It's almost 11 now. I'm going crazy having to figure out what I have to get D and BC for Xmas. And for Aoki-chu. And then of course Amy. And then Steve and Emanuel and Pookie...I think everyones presents but BC's and D's will be late...faboo...*sigh* I still have to decided what to get my Aoki-chu. I think I have an idea, but money is ridicually tight now. I already know what to get Maki but that will prolly be late too. DAMNIT. I hate being late =P

Anyway....whatelse....OH YEAH, I have my Health final tomorrow. Incrediably easy. *snap* then I have to buckle down and then read chapters 23-30 in History for my Final on Weds. Then Thursday I have my English final, also a snap. Then Friday, I have to sit at my compy and study math with Christopher oppa. He's gonna give me some quick tutoring. I hope he's not too tired from work that day. *sigh* I HATE finals. I'm not too stressed because Math is the only thing I have to worry about and that's not till the the 17th and then I'm FREE!!! MWHAHAHAH a lot of time to think and blog and sleep and....sleep...^^ I have to try and go out man. I can't be home 24/7/365. *yawn*

Pretty Yuki ^^ from Aucifer ^______^ hehehe I like him. Guitarist. Go fig...of course no guitarist is better then my slut!!! LOL Well Sashi is good...but I still like Sugizo and his slutty ways better. *yawn* let's see what else I can do as I sit up till 12. Later.

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Okay....tell me why last night, I had this really weird dream about Tetsu from Larc. Well it wasn't weird, just pretty cool. Me and BC were in this...car. In a parking lot somewhere. There was a van beside us that had like 2 guys in there. I didn't know who it was. BC was in the driver seat and me in the back seat. I was laying on my tummy, looking at a magazine (don't remember what) when BC goes, hey that guy next to us looks like Yukihiro from L'arc. I look over my shoulder and see this guy that sorta looked like Yukkie sitting in the back of the van window, having a cigarette. I was like oh...*shrugs* yeah he sorta looks like him. I turn back to my magazine. A little while later, the guys in the van next to us start arguing and one of them got out. I noticed one guy, walking, and he tied a bandanna around his head as he went soemwhere. Once he did that, I realized it WAS Yukkie from Larc! I sit up and I'm like BC that was Yukkie!! So we both press to the window next to us to look to see who was left in the van and we see Tetsu sitting at the window. I take out my "calander" (which I had no idea where it came from but it was a Larc calander)and I look at a picture of Tetsu and compare it to the guy sitting at the van. I see it is Tetsu.

Me and BC get out of the car and we approach Tetsu. I can't speak Japanese so I show him his picture and I make a noise that went like "Tsu?" LOL he looked at me and gave me a weird look and it seemed like he was gonna turn me away. But I clasp my hands and say "Onegai?" which is please in Japanese. He smiled and then takes out a brown magic marker and flips open the calander to a date and month and starts signing his name. Then he gives it back to me and BC gets him to sign it. I bow and say thank you (in english because it slipped my mind on how to say it in Japanese) and then I run off towards where Yukihiro walked XD

I don't remember anything else that happened. Other then I was skipping, thinking I met Tetsu! I met Tetsu! I'm gonna go see Yukkie! LOL I'm weird.

Ohh for my Gijimo even though he may be passing over ya now

I caught him today for yooooou. Though you may let him go now. LOL ANyway, I finally did some major work on my FAQ. I didn't finish completly but I did do a lot of work on it X.x I needed too. Man it was way over due. I added 3 new parts to it...hope people go check it out and sign the Guest book! I should have the guest book here too...I always forget. I didn't blog yesterday because I did't do anything. I didn't do anything today either but my dream was cool LOL. I got to see Tetsu ^^ *yawn*

Okay I'm off to write. Speaking of which, I need opinons. Everyone is requesting..well I got 3 requests for TonHyuk, 1 for JunTa and 1 for HyukTa as the couples of my next fic. Any other thoughts? I don't know about TonHyuk...because I'm not a big fan of it...but...I could prolly work them in there somwhere...Oi...>.< anyway later.

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I'm so tired....

I stayed up a little longer to finish up a new chap of 36 Moons

Part 109- Desire: The Price of Flesh

*yawn* BTW AOKI-CHU thanks for leaving me today!! Without saying a word!! It's totally ditch me day today. -.-
Anyway besides that, since Gijimo will not be doing my next layout, because you know...she was just a guest layout ^^ *muahz* I asked Kara to hook it up if she had time. She agreed and she will *glomps Kara* God I'm tired...

I should go to bed. After Eve is done singing...I'll go to bed. ^____^ *yawn* I need to stop yawning....I'm so freakin tired...=.= okay in a minute...man I have to start this new fic...I really do...the epilouge for Finale will be sent tomorrow. I think I over did it on the sugary happiness. X.x Blah...back to angst for me. I think I have a pretty good idea of what to do...this time. Just still choosing couples...

What is THAT GUY doing in politics?? He's a politician...Aya anyone? LOL he's not as pretty but the concept is still there. WOW I wish politicans looked that good here! This dude is from Japan. Cyndii told me his name but I forgot. LOL

Okay...going to bed...tired...

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I was asked 6 times, YES SIX FREAKING TIMES if I had seen/heared the Angel Eyes MV/MP3 yet. So before anyone else asks me again...

NO I DIDN'T WATCH/HEAR THE FUCKING MP3/MV YET

Anyway now that that's out of the way, I was suppost to go see Ocean's 11 today with BC. But we didn't make a set time, we never do. So I figured I'd call her on my way to pick up my mom or if anything she would call me. So I call her cell phone, and the number doesn't work I call her dorm, she's not there and I figured she wasn't home....so...here I am. *sigh* I got stood up.

But on the up side, I hung out with Steve today. I also broke plans and I could have gone seen Ocean's 11 ANYWAY because me and Steve were suppost to hang out. But I broke plans with him so I could chill with BC because as I said before, she was having some problems and needed to talk to me. But she ditched me....so....as I said, here I am. But me and Steve hung out this morning. I took him to class with me and he had me dying the whole way. He's such a trip. He's like Sunnie, just not as perverted. Hehehehe but that was probably the only good part of my day. I'm just upset that I didn't get to go see Ocean's 11 or get to see BC. *sigh*

If I were a work of art, I would be Edvard Munch's The Scream. I express the subconscious troubles and anxieties of the world. I hold my head and let loose the primal terror of my innermost fears, surrounded by a lurid landscape which reflects my feeble grasp on reality. Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

^____^ I like these. I'm The Scream. LOL jjang. But it also shows more of myself cuz it's kinda true. I also joined more cliques. I have problems. I'm going clique happy. But I'm having trouble finding more I like now...mostly because you know...some of them are really stupid, and some are waaaaaay too happy or some require you to be judged like THEIR clique is the shit which I so hate. And then of course there is the "waiting" period. I'm waiting for Hardcore to answer me back and Better then You too. >.> but hey...I wanna be down with Better the You because....yes, my arrogance makes me believe I am better then some people. Not everyone, just some people.

I AM THE ANTI-TEENY BOPPER
People don't grasp this. I don't like...boppers. I was talking with Gijimo yesterday about that. She said she and Janie are boppers. I told her, Gijimo is too hardcore and Janie is too too cute. So I don't mind. Also, I found out that my Gijimo has total Yakuza tendancies. *She gets that from her umma XD* She doesn't like Hee Jun fans except one. Just like me....I only like 1 Ta fan. Mwhahahaha my Gijimo is so cute *pinchy Gijimo* She can totally be a Yakuza. So...guys...what you all think? Aoki-chu? Ghost? Gab? Tai Tai? Let me know. ^_________^ Cuz damnit, my daughter is so gangsta.

So anyway...I am the anti bopper. All Yakuza are. XD
Okay...I'm off to write...I should have done this 1st. ^^;;;; BUT AH AERIS....X.X she's trying to kill me. She sent me these YUMMY Toshiya pics...he's on a bed in one XD and someone was kissin his tummy/chest WAH!! *wishes that was me* and then he's at a sink in the other, washing his face as he looks into the mirror. *DROOL* Sexy bitch. Also, yesterday I was linked the TonHyuk page in Korean. The girl who ran it, she said that she was surprised to know a non-Korean girl was into H.O.T I was like there's tons of us! She was surprised. But nonetheless, she submitted my blog and my FAQ to the page so other fans can come check it out. I dunno....I so have to go fix that now. LOL ^^;;; I haven't touched it in a little while plus, since Virtue.nu is a bastard and killed my account, I have to reupload everything to Angelfire and do it again. ^^v faboo.

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Part 108- By Force

Sorry for the delay on that. I kept getting interuppted yesterday. OKAY so...anyway....I went clique joining happy. As you can see...*points to the right* I like all of those though. ^^ I even joined a Chibi lovers clique! WEEE jjang. LOL I do love SD's and my own personal Chibi, GHOST!! Besides, Kara said she can imagine me going nuts talking to David and me turning into a SD running around. Changa said the same thing LOL. AND YES KARA I adopted a Draco ^^ I just had to. ^_____^

I found out the most interesting thing yesterday.
FACT: The Japanese have the highest smoking rate in the world, but the lowest lung cancer rate. Why? Because of, *get this* TEA! That's kinda jjang. I thought that was cool. I learned that in health the other day. I jus thought I'd share. So maybe thas why J-rockers can smoke like that and be fine. ^_^v jjang.

MORE TA PICS!!!!!! Got these from the K-pop Forum so credit to them but glompies to Aoki-chu who sent me the link ^^.

My baby is wearing FENDI *click*
YES FENDI *claps* Thas why he's my man see. Gucci, Fendi...*sigh* baby can dress himself so well. See for those that don't know what Fendi is...then...that's why he's not YOUR MAN XD and those that do know...so what? You're not special. He's STILL not YOUR man. XD

Ta's evil glare *click*
*melts into a pile of Lemon Goddess goo* *shiver* Don't look at me like that! It gives me hentai ideas XD

Ugh...his lip is chapped *click* but it's still sexy XD *GLOMPS TA* I loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
ooooooooooooooooooveee
yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooou

*yawn* so anyway I'm in dire need of holiday. I can't take no more school. -.- I have Math 2morrow...and I don't feel like going. But I have to because it's gonna be one of the final few days of class left. Next week I have finals all next week and most if not all are back to back. My health final is next Weds I believe...or Monday. English final is Thursday, History final next Weds. My math one isn't until AFTER school is over. I still have to register for next semester which I can't do until I pay tutition which I already told my mother about. Then I have to register for class. Blah. What a pain in the ass.

2morrow I'm going to go see Ocean's Eleven with BC ^___^ because Brad Pitt is jjang XD And we're gonna have a nice long talk before hand. She's got some stuff she's dealing with and she needs to talk to me. Which I so throughly am down for. She sed I might get mad at her...>.> now I'm worried. *yawn*

I realized I can't start my new fic until I have a TITLE for it. A title is my jumping off point. Without a title, I might as well not have a plot. -.-;;; and I'm still a little torn for couples....waah. T.T *loves both HyukTa and JunTa* so I won't do that for a little bit yet. So sorry everyone. But you know I'll do it! Kara? *click* a pedophile??? LOL NOOOOOOOOOOOO *note extreme sarcasm* LOL No I'm playing. Nah....more like...okay u have pedophiliatic tendancies. Just like Sunnie. LOL SUNNIE!! LOL

Speaking of which, for sometime Sunnie has mentioned he has this "friend he goes and do stuff with". Never had a name. He never told me his name. Yesterday I got to talk to him. His name is Woo, short for Min Woo which he hates being called so everyone calls him Woo. He's 21. He's a Business Tech major in Queens College, has 6 tattoos ( 3 on the lower back 1 on the forearm, neck and waist) and his tongue pierced. I basically played 20 questions with him yesterday because I wanted to know about him. He's got a sexy voice. XD And Sunnie abuses him. Sunnie makes fun of him all the time and calls him Woo Woo just to piss him off. LOL. He also calls Woo a fag and Woo takes it because he has no comeback for that! What's he suppost to say, No you are? Well duh. LOL Poor Woo. He takes it in stride though. He's also a bit of a commititment phob and doesn't like girlfriends but one night stands LOL. Woo is a trip. I like him though, nice guy. He also is a big anti-pop american or Korean...he's against it. Sunnie warned him not to say nutthin bad about Ta...LOL and he listened! He hates his name because of Shinhwa...which is so bad...LOL that's why he tells people his name is Woo. And thas it. LOL

*sigh* okay....better get a drink and a quick nosh before it gets too late. ^_________^ *glutton* LOL AND OH...I found out I don't have fan girls, I have Female Enthusists of the Literary Arts. LOL oh of my F.E.L.A's told me that. LOL okay so forget fangirls...LOL

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I didn't get the chance to blog again yesterday because after my "situation" from before, everyone and they momma started IMing me. I was over runned by IM windows and I didn't even get the chance to finish up the chap of 36 Moons that I was working on, let alone start my new fic. Also NRG (who IMed me last night, and I was actually pleased to talk to) requested/suggested a HyukTa ^______^

HYUKTA JJANG

I'm a BIG HyukTa fan. I love JunTa 1st, then HyukTa then TonHyuk. Mostly because Tony bothers me sometimes. But that's another story. Anyway I didn't get a chance to do anything else. Also Mako emailed me 3 times to apologize. She knows I got them. I haven't replied. I do read the email though. I'm easy to hurt, hard to forgive. It's like pulling apart a rose petal and then trying to put it back together again. So...I don't know. We'll leave that alone for now.

OKAY so, today was probably my most successful day with David ever. 1st off, we had an in class essay to write today on biotechonology -.-;;;; whoopie. Anyway, I write mine up and then I waited for my friend Pam. Well...friend is a strong word. Girl I know in class Pam. I asked her like one time if she was like gonna be done soon because I was waiting for her so we could talk afterwards. She said no. I wait like 20 minutes, almost 1/2 hour later, then I was just gonna turn around and tell her I was gonna wait outside for her but before I even open my mouth she's like I'm not finished DAMN! She whispered it. I was like...geez allllll righty. I didn't leave anyway, mostly because I was also waiting for David but using Pam as a cover. When she finishes, she gets up and hands in her paper and then leaves. -.- gee thanks for waiting. Anyway I hand in my own paper and then I get back a previous essay I wrote in class. I got an A!! Wooooo *does 1Tym dance*
Anyway I walk down the hall reading my essay when I pass Changa's class I make a gesture that I'm gonna wait for him. So I stood outside Changa's class as I waited for him. And then David comes out! He walks towards me and then says hi and then he's like what did you get on that essay? I'm like an A! You? He's like I failed T.T I didn't have the worksheet. I was like awww....=( I felt kinda bad that I was sitting there with my A paper and he failed X.x I was like that's so weird cuz I bullshitted. He's like you did? I'm like yeah. Then I ask him where he was going, and he's like right here *points to class I'm standing next too* I'm like oh..(it was his accounting class X.x) then he goes in and goes back out to get a drink. Then Changa's class is dissmissed and we both go walking down the hall an I take his arm out of habit, and I sorta take his hand and then David comes back up the hall! I didn't wanna make it obvious that I was letting go of Changa completly so I shake my hand of his but I'm still holding onto his arm. He gives me this weird look (David) and then goes to his class. UGH....Changa laughed at me. He was like I think dude (because he calls him dude as if he didn't know David's name) likes you, because that look was classic. -.- I also talked to David BEFORE class. His ears stick out. LOL I jus noticed that. His braces still sorta bother me...but he's still cute. I had a whole convo with him before class and then after. ^^ I have until next Thursday to make something happen. -.-;;; *sigh*

Anyway, yeah....MY BABY IS SO FINE. But he smokes *click*. And that use to bother me so much, but it's like....whatever. To each his own. Plus, it's not like I don't smoke every now and then, so...hey if he wants to smoke....he can. To each his own. Plus he's really fuckin sexy so he can do whatever he damn well pleases. When you look this *click* good, then hey, whatever. Do what you want around or to me baby XD *sigh* Look at this face *click* *SIGH* I fell in love all over again. My Stacy unni gave the links to me ^^ So thanks to her *glomps unni* I also thought of a new layout...but I dunno who's gonna hook it up for me. ^^;;; But he's so beautiful I was like....gonna cry last night. So beautiful *SIGH* WHY is he so beautiful? Wah...

Anway, I got the full body pic of Toshiya yesterday XD JJANG. Those jeans are ripped all the way man. Near his thighs XD and he's got black I think...boxer briefs underneath. And he's bare foot XD His second toe is long but...other then that his feet are cute. LOL Aoki-chu knows my deal with feet. Anyway, he's ONLY 24!!! OMG!! A J-rocker UNDER 30!!!! LOL I know so few of them. I jump for joy knowing those under 30. I'll upload the pic laters. Right now Imma go try and write again before I get overwhelmed. Plus I have to eat soon....but I'm the only one having dinner at my desk LOL. I'm such a weirdo. *GLOMPS TOSHIYA* the pics that Aeris gave me, he looks sooooooooo beautiful ^^ I showed them to Aoki-chu and she said that he looks like Aya, if Aya was real. Pretty Aya as Toshiya? I'm down. LOL

Okay, Imma go write. ^_^v laters.

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Am I really that much of a person to hate that people have to bitch at me?

Seriously?

And how come whenever I try to be nice, people wanna fuck me anyway? How is that? Why is that?

It's happened on more then one occassion when I've been nothing but nice to someone, and they turn around and say some shit to me that totally pisses me off and make me wonder:

Now....why am I being nice again?

In high school, it happened with this guy named Irving. I was like so nice to him, I lent him money during lunch, I gave him whatever girl group pictures I had, I was nothing but nice. And all he ever did was bitch at me and treat me like shit, talk about me behind my back, and ignore me unless he needed something. So, I stopped talking to him. For a year. I still don't like him. Even though he apologized and hugged me for my graduation. Whatever, him. Handbasket. Hell.

Even online. This girl Lai. She was nice. She liked my work, she complimented me. We exchanged letters and stuff. I thought, oh cool, possible new friend. Then she goes and pops some whore shit to me. Again why am I bothering? Her. Handbasket. Hell.

And TODAY, I was talking with Mako. Someone who I said was nice to me. We weren't all super close and whatever, but today, she laces some shit with some sarcasm I just didn't appericate. WHY? I don't know. Whatever I said, I didn't mean it with offense and she goes off on this whole "I'm not as nice and innocent as I seem" shit. I'm like hey, to each his own, whatever you may be. I don't know you like that. Then she's like you assume people are biters. (Bringing back some OLD OLD DEAD, BURIED and ROTTED SHIT about NRG like a zillion years ago -.-;;;;) I'm like aiite whatever. She's like in ur FAQ, you say you steal peoples ideas for writing. I'm like, I don't steal ideas, I take similar or same concepts. Because duh if you think about it, what really really original idea is out there that hasn't been done in some shape or form? Then, she's like and make them better right? Because you're so good like that. Sarcasm anyone? I was like aite whatever, how bout you not talk to me no more. BLOCK. Again, Hell. Handbasket.

WHAT THE FUCK amd I doing that make people WHO I'M NICE TO, wanna fuckin beat on me? WHAT? WHAT THE FUCK IS IT? This makes me hate everyone. I don't know what kind of person you are and you may be as sweet as my best friend, but you know what, because of past experiances, I may not wanna get to know you. I've taken risks and gotten to know some people but WHY do I come across those occasional people that just wanna fuckin get at me for NO REASON? If you wanna hate me, I'll give you a list of reasons. Take a ticket, stand in line, wait your turn because 9 out of 10 times, I'll probably hate you too. Don't hate me for NO FUCKIN REASON. Hate me, I'll give you a reason to.

I don't know what this chick's deal was. I've been nice to her, I can't recall a moment that I ever said something bad or negative and if I thought it was, I apoligized for it, or I UNKNOWNINGLY did it. This girl is forever throwing pity parties for herself and I felt bad for her because she downs herself all the time and I like her writing. And now she just turns and snaps at me. Aite, what the fuck ever. It's why I'm not nice to people. It's why I bitch and moan here and it's why I have a list of people hating me a mile long.

But that's okay because my list is 3 times that size.

EVERYONE (except those who I love and have YET to do me wrong) SUCKS.

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Weee I joined a couple of new cliques....

I got a little carried away...>.>

I'll blog again soon. Gotta finish writing.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Okay....what's up with the title? Easy. I looked at this pic agan stole from Auwon's blog and the 1st thing that popped into my head was Prodigy's song Smack my Bitch Up. Why? Don't ask.

AUWON!! WHERE DID YOU GET THAT PIC??? If u have more pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaseeeee hook it up. I LOVE TOSHIYA Ahh sexy bitch XD mwhahaha

Anyway, right so...I woke up this morning in HORRIBLE pain. My waist/hips/pelivs area was sore X.x Ta was too rough XD LOL no seriously, I was just achy and in pain. I'm walking with a slight limp today X.x Owie...

I love my "Minu" shades. Mwhahahaha pink tinted. The ONLY thing I like in pink.
I'm about to go pick up my mom real quick. AND I GOT AN IDEA FOR A NEW FIC! WOOOO MWHAHAHAH. I just hope I'm not repeating myself in ideas X.x This one is SORTA like...um...what was that one...the one with Hee Jun as a crime lord...FUCK....my own fic and I forgot the title -.-v Anyway...the sorta same thing is gonna happen, not the crime stuff...I'm already running a crime fic don't need the Korean version -.-v So...I'll be working on this tonight after 36 Moons.

I read this fic Kara recommended me to. A Harry Potter yaoi fic. I thought it was gonna b bad but I picked up a new fav word. Snogging LOL It's like scamming (making out for those that don't know) and I jus LOVED that word. LOL it's funny. Snogging snogging snogging. LOL Anyway they weren't like 13 year old boys. They were 16 which is MUCH better....and it wasn't all that bad. The story was pretty good the writing was WHOA...and there were some things I didn't know (cuz I didn't read the books) but, all in all it was pretty good and it left me wanting more. Kara wants me to write her a Harry Potter yaoi fic....>.> um...well I have decided to go read the books...again under Kara's influence, so maybe if I learn a little more Kara I will appease you. ^^

WAH!! AOKI-CHU!!! Okay...my mom wants to go on vacation for the summer. She wanted to take me to Diseny World...AGAIN I fuckin hate Diseny World now btw. Anyway, I was like um...>.> looking for any and every reason to avoid going to Diseny World...AGAIN. Then she sees my discontent and is like, you wanna go to Hawaii instead? I'm like YES!!!! The first thing I thought of? My Aoki-chu <3 If my mom really wants to take me to Hawaii, I will be the 1st one running to the airport. I SO wanna go, if anything, just to see my Aoki-chu. There would be no way in hell I could convince my mom to take me to Korea....unless my dad didn't go...which actually might end up happening....but hey Hawaii is just as good. Weeeeeeeeee! I'll try talking my mom into it more. And just for a kick, see if I can convince her to go Korea bound XD MWHAHAHHAHA can you imagine? Me, in Korea over the summer. La la la la....I'm gettin married, I'm gettin married...^__________________________________^

Okay I gotta go pick up my mom. *sigh* Be back laters. *walks away with slight limp* this is so not sexy...-.-

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Part 107- A Price for Staten Island

I just realized how much I hate someone I don't even know. Mah gaijiin has been friends with this self abosorbed drama queen fag (and yes I'll say fag because that's what he's acting like) for a while. She tells me how he's like being a bitch to her and more or less being a straight up asshole to her. I couldn't take the shit anymore. I had to scream at Maki for her to listen to me because he was just being SUCH A CUNT.

Maki is so sweet, she's been listening to him dump about his "drama" and his "life threatening problems" for some time now. Whatever this guy has more problems then a 7th grade girl. I'm like geez...the world obviously revolves around him. Whatever...tonight was the last draw when he was like tellin Maki I dont want you to care about me.

Aite then shit fuck you then. Take all your drama and save it for your mamma cuz no one gives a shit. Fuckin little drama queen man. And Maki has done nothing but listen and give a sympathic ear and be there for him when he nad no one else to go bitch at and then he shits on her for being a friend! WHAT THE FUCK.

I was about to go of on him myself but the little cunt rag wasn't online anymore. GOD FUCKIN BITCH MAN....FUCKING UNGRATEFUL CUNT RAG...-.- I'm just swearing up and down now. I can't help it. I hate people like that. They wanna talk about themselves and then then dump on their friends. It's like he's a bitch on his period with no midol and cramps for days and major PMS EACH AND EVERY SINGLE TIME. He's ALWAYS GOT SOME drama to some dude that don't like him back to his crushes and he's always dumpin on Maki. And then he's gonna be a bitch about shit. See he's a fag. A fuckin little priss ass bitch fag. -.- see man...see...people like him....they seriously need a good bitch slap. They need some REAL fuckin problems so THEN they can have a reason to bitch and moan to someone. Whatever...just...UGH....I hope he stubs his toe man. Hits his shin too. Just...UGH WHATEVER I SO FUCKIN HATE HIM NOW. I don't even know the bitch either. Aiite whatever....I'm calming down. Just...UGH

I hate when people mistreat my dongsangs. This guy always has some excuse, like he was in a bad mood or that's just how he gets. Whatever, not even on my worst days would I NEVER bitch out Maki the way he does. And he's not even anything special like that so WHAT THE FUCK gives him the right to do that? Whatever...just....whatever. Okay...I'm done ranting. Raving...screaming my head off because I hate this fuckin bastard. Later.

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I swear I'm a real glutton for punishment. I decided to do another one of those REALLY long things....*sigh* Before I do....check out my act of Toki's yubitsume...

Mwhahahaha Toki isn't missing that much of his finger, but that's about all I can fake without severing my own. LOL ^^;;; anyway yeah, I also joined a new clique ^^ *points to side* Anyway...let me start this long ass thing. Got it from Auwon's blog *click*

What time is it right now: 7.19 PM
Full Name: Lez
Name you go by in school: Lez
Nicknames: Lez, Lezzie, Taya's baby, Umma, Mrs. Ahn
Nicknames you would like to have: I like my nicknames I got now
If you could change your middle name what would it be: My middle name is okay...sorta...>.>
If you could change your last name what would it be: AHN!!!! No doubt bout it ^.~*
Are you a boy: I wish -.-v
Are you a girl: Yuppers
Are you not sure: i was sure last time i checked...
How old are you: 19
What state do you live in: Jersey
Would you ever have a sex change: Nah
What color is your hair right now: Black/red/blonde/light brown
Is that the natural color: Nope
What is the natural color: Black -.-v
What color are your eyes right now: Natuarally, dark brown
Do you have contacts: yup. Aqua Marine
Are they color contacts: Yup
Do you have glasses: yes
Are you wearing them: Not now
Do you have braces: Nope
What color: see above
Do you have a retainer: see above
Are you allergic to anything: Seafood. I'll die
What grade are you in: soph in college
Have you repeated any grades: Nope
Which ones: see above
Have you skipped any grades: see above
If so which ones: see above
How many schools have you been to in the last year:1
In your whole life: Like 6
What where the names of the middle schools: A wack long name
What where the names of the elementary schools: I forgot them all
What where the names of the high schools: Pway High
Who was your favorite teacher ever: My english teacher my senior year
Who was your least favorite teacher ever: Almost everyone else
If you could trade places with anyone in the world for one day who would you trade with: Hee Jun ^^ jus to be close to Ta
And why: Because I wanna glomp and play kissy face with Ta -.-v
When is your birthday: 05.21
What sign are you: gemini/taurus (born on the cusp)
What is your favorite subject in school: English
Why is this: Cuz I like English and the guy in my class is HOT

-Favorites-
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What is your favorite sport to play: Sports? Like...moving??
What is your favorite sport to watch: Bball and breaking
What is your favorite football team: don't watch football
What is your favorite basketball team: don't watch basketball
What is your favorite hockey team: don't watch hockey
What is your favorite color: black, white, gray, blue and green.
What is your favorite single digit number: 2
What is your favorite double digit number: 27
Who is your favorite person in the world: Kang Ta ^^
What is your favorite kind of food: Korean and Italian
What is your favorite food: bul go gee, pizza, kim bap and white rice
What is your favorite fast food place: Wendy's
What is your favorite normal resturant: *shrug*
What is your favorite store: Express, Bebe, New World Music, Seoul Video, Morning Glory
What is your favorite article of clothing: My blue fitted jeans
What is your favorite kind of tic tac: oranage ones
What is your favorite soda pop: don't drink pop
What is your favorite kind of drink: Peach snapple
What is your favorite kind of movie: Mostly horror or suspense, or those that make you cry and think
What is your favorite movie: Interview with a Vampire
Why is this your favorite movie: Because I love Brad Pitt, I love the characters Anne Rice wrote of, I love the way both Brad and Tom portrayed Lestat and Louis, I love the story, and the tradegy.
Do you like popcorn: Not really
What is your favorite band: H.O.T, L'arc~en~ciel, Luna Sea, Eve
Why: Good music, hot talent, good writing, and hot guys all in one.
What is your second favorite band: Smashing Pumpkins
What is your favorite song: Anything by H.O.T, Honey by L'arc~en~ciel, 4AM, Loveless and Hurt by Luna Sea, Swear, I'll be There and Agape by Eve
Why: Because I love the way they make me feel when I listen to them
What is your favorite CD: Anything by H.O.T, Polaris, and Alone
Why: CUZ!! H.O.T 012!!!!!!!
What is your favorite animal: Bunnies and Puppies ^^
What is your favorite TV show: Spoongebob Square Pants, Invader Zim, and anything with my baby on it
Who is your favorite character on that show: Spoongebob, Zim and Ta ^^
Where is your favorite place in the whole world: In Ta's arms ^^
Who is your favorite teacher: AGAIN??? GEEZ...-.-
What was your favorite grade: None. I don't like school
Who is your favorite actor: Brad Pitt, Kevin Spacey and Ta ^^ He can do anything ^^
Who is your favorite actresses: Dun really have one
When was the best moment of your life: It has yet to happen
Why: Cuz I have to get Ta close to me 1st
What is your favorite kind of veggie: Carrots and potatoes
What is your favorite kind of fruit: tomatoes, peaches
What is your favorite comic: Um...I dunno

-Family-
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Who do you live with: family
What are your parent's names: none of ur concern
Are they: Married? Divorced? Remarried? Seperated? Never married?: Married...for now >.>
If you could choose who would your parent's be: Someone who has free and liberal parents...-.-
Why: Because my mom isn't my mom, she's my warden...
Do you like your parents: I love them but DAMN...
Do you have any siblings: NO!! MWHAHAH ENVY ME
Are they ugly:
Are they older then you:
If so how old:
If so how old:
Do your siblings creep you out as mine do:
Do you like your family: Not as a whole...
Who are your other relatives: Got a bunch of them
Are they cool: Not really...
Why or why not: Cuz they shady
If you could adopt a friend which friend would you adopt: D and BC make em REAL sisters for life...
Do you have any pets: A DOG *wants a puppy bad*
Do you have a dog: I wish -.-
Do you have a cat: no
Do you have a hamster: no but I want one jus cuz Ta had one ^^ huk huk huk
Do you have a rat: no
Do you have any mice: no
What is your dog's name: Dun have a dog T.T
What is your cat's name:
What is the hamster's name:
Rat and mice:
How old is your pet:
Who is your favorite uncle: My uncle that lives in Upstate NY
Who is your favorite aunt: My uncle's wifey dur

-Friends-
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Who is your best friend in the world: SFL crew, and the H.O.T Yakuza. Also my KP and Sunnie oppa deul
Who is your second best friend in the world:
Who is your third best friend in the world:
Who is your fourth best friend in the world:
Who is your 5th best friend in the world:
Which of your friends is the
-Quietest: I dont have quiet friends
-Loudest: ALL OF THEM
-Funniest: Sunnie
-Sweetest: D ^.^ and the H.O.T Yakuza except for Jun who's stinky and abusive >P LOL
-Coolest: All of them, But espically Sunnie and KP cuz Sunnie's a SEXY BITCH LOL And KP is jus sugar!! ^^
-Sexiest: SUNNIE!! LOL
-Dumbest: me -.-v
-Annoying-est: I dont make annoying friends
-Most likely to do drugs: Sunnie, but thas cuz he use to. Wifey made him stop ^^
-Most likely to get married: D
-Cutest: The Yakuza and KP ^^
-Most like you: Aoki-chu XD
-Most important to you: All of them of course
-Meanest: BC -.-v
-Ugliest: I dun make ugly friends.
-Going to become a teacher: Helayne an thas cuz she sorta is ^^
-Going to become president: I haven't the slightest
-Going to work on T.V. as a reporter: Uh..
-Going to be a movie star: *shrugs*
-Going to live on the street begging for dimes: LOL SUNNIE LOL jus cuz he's a lazy sack of shit. LOL *lub u oppa ^^*
-Tallest: KP
-Smallest: BC!! LOL Liddo Shoooooooe
Name all of your friends: Aoki-chu, Ghost, Gab, Jun, D, KP, Sunnie, Helayne and everyone else. U know who u are ^.~*
If you had to date one of your friends which one would you date and why: KP. Jus cuz he's smooshy and fun ^^

-Love-
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Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend: This guy in 4th grade
Was he/she cool: They were back then
Are you still going out with him/her: Pheesh...
Are you dating anyone right now: I'm unwillingly waiting for Ta ^^;;;;
Do you have a crush on anyone: David. But mostly and always Ta ^^
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: *holds up pic of Ta*
Who is your current boyfriend/girlfriend: See above
Why: Cuz he's an angel to everyone else but my own personal God. *worships shrine*
Were you friends first: Um...
Are you married: I WILL BE!!!!!!!
Why: Because as a Goddess I'm only allowed to marry a God XD
Why do you like the person you are dating or have a crush on: Because...he's like....*sigh* I can't explain. If I did I'd b here forever
Would you marry them: Oh God yes. That's one of my life's goals
Where was your first date: Movies
Was it a movie: how'd you know? O.o;;;
What movie: Um...it escapes me at the moment
Did you like that movie: Not really.
Do you even remember: Nope ^^;;;;;
Have you ever been on a date: Duh...didnt I jus answer the questions?
Who was the first person that you ever loved: This guy...who WILL remain nameless.
Do you still love them: Not anymore
Why or why not: Because he broke my heart. He broke my faith in true love
Who is the sexiest person in the world in your opinion: Ahn Chil Hyun ^___________^, Sugizo, Haido, Yukihiro, Matsuda Ryuhei, and Ahn Chil Hyun ^^
Does size matter: No, Its not the size of the boat but the motion in the ocean XD
Do looks matter: Im shallow...so yes.
What is the most important quality in a person that you are going to date: How they treat me
Would you ever go on a blind date: nooooo
Would you move in with someone if you were dating them: Maybe...depends how long we been together
Have you ever kissed someone that you aren't dating: Yup
Have you ever cheated: Yeah he had it coming
Would you ever cheat: I did once
If you could go back out with someone who you went out with before who would it be: I don't wanna pick up my old jewelery again thanks
When was the last time you where hugged: Earlier this afternoon
When was the last time you were kissed: Ugh...so long T.T
Ever kissed someone who was still eating: unfortunatly...

-Have you ever-
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Cheated: on a test sure
Gotten drunk: yeah sorta...
On what: Liquor
Gotten High: nope
On what:
Used drugs: Jus medical stuff
What did you use: Pain killers, aspirin, sleeping pills
Driven a car: yup
What did you drive: 2000 Neon ES
Seen an R rated movie: Duh
Watched porn: YEES!!!!!! WOOOO GAY ASIAN PORNO BABY!! Watching 2 pretty pretty boys fuck each other...XD jjang
Kissed someone: yup once many many moons ago
Played truth or dare: yeah
Lied to a teacher: yup
Gotten caught: doing what?
Shot a gun: Nope
Killed something: no ew
Mooned anyone: nope
Been in a police car: no
When was this:
Been on a rollar coaster: yup
Laughed so hard you pissed your pants: uh no
When was this:
Started to cry in school: yeah stupid ex bf...-.-
When was this: 9th grade. My ex bf ignored me on my Bday
Had the sex: It's THE now? LOL
Broken something that someone else owned and not told them: Not to my knowledge
Been beaten up: yeah
Beaten anyone up: yup
Cried because of a movie: yeah
Which movie: Interview T.T
Gotten grounded: yeah
Why: Cuz I didnt tell them where I was going...not...truthfully anyway
Have you ever stayed up all night: During the summer
Ever peed in someone else's pool: Nope

-Pick one-
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Silver/Gold: silver
Stars/the Moon: Moon
Fire/Water: water
Coke/Pepsi: neither Gum/Tic tacs: gum
Math/Geography: Geography
Art/Science: art
Soccer/baseball: neither
Big/little: Mwhahah depends
Hungry/Thirsty: hungry
News/Post: news
Radio/CD: CD
Tv/movie: movie
Bed/Chair: bed
Kitten/Puppy: puppy
Chocolate/vanilla: vanilla XD
High-heels/platforms: platformed high heels XD I have them
Apples/Oranges: apples
Going to the movies/Going to a party: depends on the mood
Delivery/drive thru: delivery
Mocha/frappicino: mocha
Cookie dough/Cookie dough ice cream: Cookie dough ice cream
Abercrombie/American eagle: neither
Pizza/Hambuger: pizza
Breakfast/lunch: lunch
Black/white: black
Black and white/color: color

-Present-
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What is the last thing you said: Sunnie ur a dork
Who is the last person that you talked to: Sunnie
Are you listening to music: yes
What song: right now...Eve finished so I'm listening to Shutting from the Sky by Larc
Do you like that song: Yup
Do you have homework: Nah
Are you done with it:
How are you sitting right now: leaned back slightly
What are you goals at the moment: To finish my fics, get an idea for a new one and then..um I have long term goals
What time is it right now: 8.11PM What time did you start working on this: I wrote it at the top damnit
How long did it take you: A while
Did you have fun: eh...

Dude that was long....but...I dunno...did it anyway.

I had English today and I sorta talked to David XD OMG but I don't know if that's so good anymore. I noticed he had braces. And not jus regular braces, but CLEAR ONES....I was like O.o;;;; cuz they kinda stick out...and are noticable from the side...I was like...ew thas such a turn off. >.< he's also got gray contacts...which is nice..but those braces...>.< OMG that bothers me...LOL I don't know...it's like....college you know? I don't expect to see braces, even CLEAR ones anymore. ^^;; maybe that's just me...I dunno. It was a turn off though.

Okay...Imma finish writing 36 Moons before I 4get. Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Part 106- War in New York

This is how bored I am.

I think I look like a boy here. And I like it...^^ kinda cool. Faboo! ^_______^ I love the fatc I can look like a boy sometimes...*im so weird...* (_ _);;;;

Okay so back to my rant...I wanna write a short fic. T.T I feel it just I have no idea...T.T *grumble* How can I feel a fic I can't write!!!! AHHHHH I thin I got an idea...maybe this will get everyone in the g-fic ML to reply MWHAHAHAHA.

>)

I'm so evil. LOL But we all know this. *is Elizabeth Bathory after all*

OKAY So I'm here minding my own business when Kara IMs me *GLOMPS* And she's like gonna write a special blog about me. So...um...yeah? She said don't be nervous...but um...I dunno LOL but I love my Kara so it's okay. I believe her. *glomps Kara*

I'm still getting that lied to feeling from my dongsang >.< Don't u just hate that???

Anyway...Imma go...um...try to see if I can write this short fic out...maybe....hopefully ^^v laterz.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

MWhahahahah I just finished my 6 page research paper. XD MWHHAHAHHAHAHA

I had over a month to do this...I'm not sure my paper even makes sense....@.o;;; I was like dude as long as I get over 5 pages of info then I'm good to go. BWeeeeeeeee I can't believe I did that. I use to scold Kara for doing everything last minute and here I am, doing my paper the day before ^^;;;; huk huk huk

*sniffies* My day was so coooool.....T.T I wore my paper thin coat with a short sleeve coat and I was like freezing my ass off as I walked to campus. I hate my History class -.-v I just had to mention that again. Mostly because of the people in it just as much as my proff. -.- WHY...well I guess it's punishment. =P Well yeah...then I had health. I like health...it's not so bad because the people are cool and so is my proff. I got a C on my research project...which really won't hurt too much because I'm gettin a B in that class. =P Guh I hate talking about school.

WAAAAAAAAAH Just till the 14th...just tillthe 14th then I'm on holiday. T.T I've never looked more forward to it then now. It's cold, my holidays are gonna be all sucky because my parents are at each other's throats and they hate each other for a moment....*been married for 20 sum years too* so...yeah. Never get married. I always find more cons then pros to get married. I hope I don't end up wanting to kill Ta one day....*sneeze* ugh....

Anyway....yeah my hands have been frozen for a while now...I can't feel too much with them....and that worries me. OMG...I have to say I saw the most disgusting thing in homosexulaity today...*like the whole thing should be gross to me but it's not anyway* I was going through some books in the library searching for something to photocopy when I come across this article about fisting X.x those that DON'T know what that is....GOOD FOR YOU. Don't know. Anyway, I was like um...>.> and I turned the page only to see A PICTURE OF IT X.x ugh...it was pretty vile...I never saw a picture of it!! I read about it about and whatever but that picture was from neccassary. Ugh ugh ugh...X.x *is scarred for life*

They talk about homosexulality really grossly...like with ewwy guys LOL I'm sorry, give me my romantized version of it anyday. I rather watch pretty boys then manly men go at it. LOL ew...that's so vile...I'm scarred for life. *is shaking* I m really cold. Waaah I should put my shoes on....I have to go pick up my mom in like 15 minutes...I wish I didn't have to. But at least I got my paper done!! WOOO LOL I'm gonna dwell on that all day. I have to wash my hair tonight too. If I don't then it'll b all gross for tomorrow. I didn't wash it last week...I got lazy -.-v it's too long...but I washed it....um....Sat. I'll wash it again tonight. Hehehe.

WAH DUDE YOU CAN FIND ME IN A SEARCH ENGINE!! ^____^ I thought that was so jjang. I didn't know you could find me in a search engine. I read about it in the Tonhyuk JunTa forum, someone said you can just type in "by Kang Ta's Baby" and like....you'll get a listing of my stuff. Low and behold I tried it and it does! It also pulls up my blog. Waahh thas so cool. I didnt know I could do that ^^ Faboo. I feel special now. LOL Though I shouldn't. T.T Okay I'm gonna go put on my boots....I am trying to put my boot on..grr *struggle* stupid boot...*struggle struggle huff* Okay..there on...LOL I know I'm that handicapped I can't even put on botts without a struggle.

Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sorry if they dont work I'm in a rush

I'm about to leave Mwhahahaha XD But yeah...all my hair's pulled back...in a bun...it's really annoying because I have like 50 bobby pins in there to hold up the bun. Huk huk huk...okay I have to go.

*GLOMPS JI HOONIE* I MISSSSEEED YOOOOU!!

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Part 105- Yubitsume

Can I jus say how much I love Helayne? She sent me all these good links to for my reasearch paper so she just basically cut my work in half. All I have to do now is go to the library, pick out some books, photo copy, write down the names of the boks and authors, go home and type up all my info and I'm done. Don't seem like much. I mostly have to write down names of books, and then the actual books I'm gonna use I'll just photo copy, and at the most I need 2 or 3. Then writing a 5 1/2 page paper should be a snap. I've done it before. Woooo *glomps Helayne* ^^

I'm SO MAD!!! I need an idea for my new fic. T.T I'll get one...I have to get one. Geez this is my last major assignment. After this all I have to do is worry about finals. Gaw I can't wait till winter break. I have to study my ass off for my math final. I can do everything ELSE NO SWEAT. I know English and Health NO problem. History I just have to re-read the chapters, and math is my only problem. T.T Christopher oppa!! I need help!! =( I'm so fuckin clueless when it comes to math oi...it's evil...>.<

Eeeee my baby is soo soo soo cuuuuute *^^* *click* ^^ such a good daddy he'll make. Huk huk huk. ^^ And thanks again to my Aoki-chu who sent me a link to d/l this thingy of Ta in something..I dunno a lot of his fans were there. A LOT O.O and he was so so so cute having black hair and all ^.^ *sigh* He was just missing his wings. ^_^

I need something to dooooo.....I don't have enough time to write....damnit. Not that I have any ideas anyway. Oh well. Better go screw around for a while. 2morrow I have History and Health...ugh I'm so tempted to cut History again. But I need to be in the class to know what chapters to read. I better bring my drawing book again. Hopefully I'll be able to draw something. Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Congratulations, you're Elizabeth Bathory!

Hailing from sunny Transylvania, your first blood-related incident was when you stabbed a servant girl in the face with a pair of scissors for underperforming. Some of the red spray landed on your hands, and as you washed it off, you noticed that it left your skin fresh and young looking. From then on you were convinced that the blood of young girls was the secret to eternal youth.

Rather than killing girls outright by stabbing them or slitting their throats, you enjoy torturing them for weeks on end by pricking them with needles or prodding with sharp spikes - all to bathe in their blood. You've killed over six hundred women, all without raising a peep from the authorities.

Which Evil Criminal are You?

XD How cool is that? I got this quiz from Kara's blog *click* so I just had to take it. How faboo is that? I get to be Elizabeth Bathory. Legend says that she killed young women and bathed in their blood to keep herself young. Also that she was a vampire XD She also was the one that had the whole idea of the Iron Maiden that large coffen thing that had spikes coming from inside it so when it closed it impaled you. Dude I'm so evil ^^

*sigh* I'm upset with Joolez *click* too. Harry Potter -.-;; I'm sick to death about it....so no Aoki-chu you're not the only one. I'm sick of it too. I don't wanna see the movie (though for a second I did) anymore and I never have and never will read the books. People hype shit up so much. Besides...Harry Potter...doesn't that name sound like a bums name? It does not make me think of a little boy that Kara has found to make into a lemon....-.- Only Kara man. How you gonna turn a bunch of little boys into yaoi? LOL I have to laugh.

*yawn* I'm freezing cold. Anyway, for the past 2 nights I've been dreaming about David X.x can someone please explain what's up with that? I don't remember the 1st dream to clearly but my second one, I was in my English class, finishing up the last of my research paper and I was about to put it inside a blue folder when David was like asking me for something and he was like do you have another folder? And I have him this...burgandy colored one. Because NO I can't have plain red. I have burgandy in my dream....>.> anyway something else happened before that but I can't remember. I jus thought that was kinda weird. Also my research paper that I had like 2 months to do, is due this Tuesday. ^^;;; I finally decided on my topic which is should same sex marragies be allowed. I'm taking a down the middle version and getting stuff on both those for it, those against it. The net will be my biggest helper so 2night after I finish writing, I'll pull up some articles on the pros and con, find the names of some books and 2morrow I'll get some photo copy pages of some books in my library on it, then go home, write it up which will be hopefully about 5 and 1/2 pages, my works cited page and I'm done ^^ simple huh? Who needs two months? Gimme a whole day ^^b

Anyway....I should go write...I don't really have anything to do....>.> OH yesterday I d/led this cute thing of JunTa from their CF. ^^ kawaii the 1st one was them at their photo shoot and Junie was holding Ta ^.^ then second thing I d/led was Ta and Junie during the filming of the CF and they were being dorks. Junie kept biting Ta's neck and then they undulated together for a while *which was hella sexy btw XD* and then Ta bit Junie's finger *^^* kawaii. LOL OMG AOKI!! YOu got or you can get magazines???? T.T Hook a sister up!!! TAAAAAAAAAAAAA *glomps Ta looks up at him longinly* *sniffies* I finally have...still 2 presents. *sigh* I know what to get Maki and I know what to get Steve. I have not clue one what to get everyone else. Aoki I can get her something...but I have to see where I can get it at...T.T and now I have to get something for Amy. *sigh* oh man...I'm so broke too =p I'm off to write. Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

I forgot to mention last night that I got Evergreen in English. It was so GOOD!! XD And you can actually understand Haido's English. It seems he got less fobby. Mwhahah go Haido ^^ *claps for Haido*

JunTa JJANG!!! Awww pretty. Kisses! Though that does upset me even further now because AGAIN, Hee Junis getting further with him then I am at the moment...>.> but I'm not TOO upset because as it turns out Hee Jun had a girl that he broke up with when H.O.T seperated from SM. I was like EW he had a girl...buuuuuuuut that explains why he's gotten so close to Ta huk huk huk XD I love this pic. It looks very sweet. ^.^ Speaking of my Ta...and apparently Junie's Ta too, I got some new pics of him. Surprisingly I have to give thanks to Nozomi who hooked me up with the links.

Ta sitting on a stool *click*
Looking off to the side, looking all extra fuckin sexy *drool* AND it's a black and white pic tooooo

Ta looking to the side as he holds his shoulder *click*
*SIGH* How much more beautiful can you be??? GEEEEEEEEEEZ

Ta laying down *click*
A color pic. ^__________^ I love this picture for many many reasons. Huk huk huk XD

I've been going pic crazy lately. I can't help it. I just keep stumbling across all these really good pics lately and I just have to share ^^ Ahhhhh OOO OOO and I got some pics of Yukkie from his Ring The Noise thingy ^^

http://www.geocities.com/tetsurokuku/magazine/gallery51/rr990614.jpg
Yukkie looking to the side, sitting in a chair
I hate his pants...but I love him for sitting like that XD ah you perv...stop looking!! LOL

http://www.geocities.com/tigthrope/magazine/gallery60/ycd011001.jpg
Yukkie from Ring The Noise
His hair looks curly ^^ and long LOL I love when he wears that bandanna thingy ^^ it reminds me of Hee Jun's Heng Bok hat hehehehe ^^

Anyway I got something to eat earlier, and it was bread. Yes that's right, bread. Regular bread. Not even toasted because it was a Portugues (wow I butchered that) roll. And it had nothing inside it. It was just a plain roll. Though not my Bangin' Bread (LOL how many people remember that) So...yeah. My dad was like why didn't you make something instead of eating cold plain bread? I'm like I just wanted cold plain bread. And he looked at me as if I was the crazy one >.> I LOVE plain bread thank you =p Oooo yeah it was great ^^

Part 104- I Need You, I Don't Need You

Aoki-chu *click* I was reading both yours and Ghost's *click* blogs earlier and I started thinking about the situtations about the whole us being the yakuza or the yakuza being us thing. Well...here's how it goes, I based Toki off me, because if I was a guy...I'd so be him. Ghost saw it that day I was driving and I screamed at some woman for stealing my face. I jus stared at her and was like WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU LOOKIN AT!? LOL I'm so weird. Ghost adapted to Kristine because over time, she really was Ghost. I adapted more and more of Ghost's qualities to Kristine's so they could be more and more alike as the story developed. Also, if you think about it, Ghost looks like he's pissed/dead half the time though nothing could be wrong. Kristine could be the same way. Aoki was not intended to be like Linna, but again, the more the story goes on, Linna is adapting his qualities. He's quiet, but observant and can always say somethng smart when he needs too. Linna is sorta becoming the same way. Though I did or at least made an attempt to, add more of Linna's traits into Aoki. Jun, is BC. Jun was based completly off BC. Toki's thorn in his side, his rival, his once friend always hater. Me and BC have that love hate relationship where I love her and she acts like she hates me. ^^;;; She doesn't really I know that, but she acts like it. Jun and Toki were once friends, they work together, see each other on a everyday basis and Jun will always, always outdo Toki in everything and anything. BC and I are friends, we talk as much as we can (not as much as we use to cuz she dorms and has stuff to do now) and BC out does me in everything and anything because she's a super over achiver. Also, Jun is...er...was a doctor and BC once wanted to be. Hence, BC and Jun are one in the same. Also Jun is quick to snap when something will effect him...espically whenit comes to Toki. BC does the same in real life situations...but I'm not always makin mischief. ^^;;; la la la la Plus, Jun is only quiet until he needs to be just like BC.

Everyone else like Jia aka DG, Tai aka SR, and Gabriel aka Maki, those people were just added in for different reason. DG is Jia because shes the oldest out of all of us, SR is Tai because she's 2nd oldest, 2nd in command like Tai, and Maki is Gabriel because she's white, and Gab is the gaijiin. ^^ heheheheh but that's us. ^.^ everything better Ghost and Aoki? Hehehehe all righty.

UGH I still don't have an idea for my new fic T.T crappy. I better think of one. Finale is close to ending. OMG...I keep wanting to mention and I forget to, Kara *click* I sooo did not expect you to send me the pw to ur blog *^^* *feels loved* Kara has a password bloggy thing where u need a pw to get in and read extra blogs and check out other pics and stuff. I thought that was so cool that Kara trusted me enough to give me the pw to see *^^* *glompies Kara* I looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuu.

Blah I read this article in the H.5.T (link on the side) about Ta not washing his hands after going potty...X.x goes to show, as beautiful as he is, he's still, a disgusting guy....-.-;;;;; I was like ew...LOL we're going after huggies when I get at him!! LOL I laughed though. It wasn't entirly too disgusting to me because I guess...after being around Hye Sung, I was immune to that. It was gross at first because Hye Sung use to adjust himself oh....every other second when he was driving. I use to be like EW Hye Sung that's SO GROSS!! But being around him enough finally got me over it. He use to lay on my bed in his sweats or basketball shorts with his hand on his nuts for no other reason then comfort....>.>;;;; I got use to it, so I'm not really disgusted by Ta ^^;;;;;;;

Okay....gonna go...uh....cry! I got a ewwwy pimple on my cheek! *sob* it's little though. =P laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Okay before I go off on my random jags, let me post this.
Part 103- Silence can be Murder
Okay so...yeah I also added some new link to side *points* one of them being the offical Eve page. Eve, as some people don't know are Korea's ONLY visual rock band.

From left to right: Kim Gun, Park Woong, Se Heon and Gorilla. I don't like Gorilla so don't expect to hear anything about him. Anyway that pic is from their 3rd album look. I LOVE Park Woong and Kim Gun. I have a residence on Park Woong's leg and a time share on Kim Gun's XD jjang.

Another 3rd jib pic. Eeeee so sexy. Well they have 4 albums out, I only have their 3rd. Wants all 4 hehehe Xmas lists people. LOL I have a thing for most guitarist/bassist and this is no exception. Kim Gun is the guitarist and Park Woong the bassist if I'm not mistake. I'm not a 100% so don't quote me. Anyway, let's start with my oppa Se Heon!

Se Heon *click* he's mad sexy in this pic but as he got along in the albums, I found him less attractive, but he was damn hella sexy in the 1st album.
Se Heon with a guitar*click* He was so hella sexy but now he's just cute ^^ He's also the vocals of the group if Gorilla would shut the hell up and LET HIM. Anyway...yeah these are from the first album ^^

Kim Gun *click* was just a guest member by the 2nd album. So was Park Woong *click* Annnd if I'm not mistake I do believe this is Se Heon laying ass naked with a mic *click* Anyway I'm all out of order. In the 1st jib *click* they were very visual like J-rock ^^v and they were really good at it And as they moved along to the 2nd jib, they were still banging and sexy ^^ And even Gorilla had his breif and shining moment Gorrilla is on the left *click* In the 3rd jib *click* Se Heon oppa has pink hair ^^ huk huk huk. And my sexy babies are standing right next to each other. But Se Heon oppa is pretty ^^ *click*

And as pretty as he may be, Kim Gun *click* and Park Woong *click* are still hella sexy. Then we go to 4th jib *click* YAY! NO TOUCHIES PARK WOONG AND KIM GUN!!! Espically here *click* Blah but even Gorilla *click* can look nice once in a while. He's still an ass though. What kind of stupid name is Gorilla anyway??

Then AHH MY BABY *GLOMPS PARK WOONG* Him showing skin *click* Lookin all sexy XD and then his his upclose *click* And then Kim Gun's pic *click* from the 4th album, and also his upclose *click*

I got all those off the offical site *linked to the side* so if you wanna know more, go there and look ^^ My fav songs by them, Agape and I Swear I have more from the 3rd album but I can't really remember now. Heheheh Sexy sexy XD

FINALLY, FINALLY I found good pics of this actor I've been bitching about forever and a day now. His name is Matsuda Ryuhei. This is him

He was in the movie Gohatto in which he played a pretty samurai that everyone lusted after and one guy actually raped him *click* in the movie. He was still so pretty afterwards *click*

He is hella pretty ^^ this is him in Gohatto

I got a big crush on him when I saw clips of this movie. Plus he's hella pretty *click* XD annnnd cuuute *click*>

He reminds me of someone else. And plus, he's got a really nice profile *click* I think he modeled clothes too and he was in another TV show, but I'm not 100% because I can't read Japanese ^^;;; AND he's a BABY! He's only 18 years old X.x bah Im gettin like Sunnie now, lusting after the youngin's LOL

But at any rate....he's still a doll. I want this movie toooo!!!!!! I got these all from some sight its in Japanese so I couldn't tell u the name but this is the link *click*

*sigh* boys....sexy sexy LOL...man I better get to bed before my dad sees me still up an online. One more thing, Mikey was almost a victim of a hate crime. Some guy threatend to push him off the subway platform just because he knew he was gay. Mikey's okay, he got away in time but he's badly shaken. Sunnie's pissed off and about ready to kill this dude. The guy actually worked with Mikey that's how he knew him. *sigh* I'll fill in details tomorrow but for now I gotta go. Laters.

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This is becoming a new favorite....so don't be surprised if you start seeing it repeated as to what I'm listening to. The guitar meldoy is just so addicting. *claps* Go Sugizo!!! Thas my slut man...XD

Anyway, I did jack shit today. I went to Math which I spent dreaming up new chapters of 36 Moons *bobs head for a second* Okay if you saw the perfomance to Hurt you'd understand why you must head bob or in everyone elses case head bang, but I can't move my head like that because it hurts. EEEE SUGIZO'S PART XD That guitar....*drool* he can make it scream.....XD WOOOO I take that as an omen as to what he could do to me. XD MWHAHAH jjang. Uh, anyway I wander, I spilt coffee on my shirt -.-;;; on my WHITE pajama top...cuz I'm brillant like that. Now I look sloppy even though they jus my jammies. But I hate that. Yeah....what was I gonna say...oh, yeah

Ta playing piano *click* Ahhh...my baby. *swoon* I wonder if that's what he'd look like if I walked over to him in our house and said, "baby what ya workin on now?" I'll let you guys knoe ^.~* Anyway, so...yeah...what was I doing? Uhhh....@.@ OH YEAH...gotta respond to Aoki-chu's blog.
Aiiite listen here Tachimine "Wrath" Aoki aka Ol' One Eye who forgot her freakin syndicate name LOL /.- <-- Aoki LOL anyway, yeah that's your full syndicate name. Anyone else forget their name?? LOL So yeah you ARE hard to shop for. =P Get over it. I'll get you something and you'll like it. No damnit, you'll love it. -.- LOL but Aoki being Aoki, I can jus get you a carton of smokes and you're chillin XD Hm...a straight fic?? X.@ ME???? The Lemon Goddess of the JunTa/TonHyuk/HyukTa realm writing a *gasp* STRAIGHT FIC?????? You mean...boyxgirl? Not...boyxboy? Can I even DO THAT anymore??? @.o GOD...X.x Straight fics nowadays are SO FUCKING WACK....I'm sorry...no wait no I'm not sorry THEY ARE WACK. You really have to scrap and seek and play Mission Impossible to find a good straight fic nowadays...not like...um...AOki-chu you're friends fic...the one with me in it...I think Nari was writing it? Correct if wrong please. Anyway, so like that was good...and....Corner of the Cirle was good...though I didn't read all of it because I really don't like straight fics, but I recognize good writing when I read it. And like....geez thas it...I can't really think of anymore straight fics I liked...Sky Blue was good. I liked that a lot. Very sad. And um...there's one more....Ta loves me...*cough* I mean some random nobody girl and she's like in trouble with some kkang pae an...whatever *insert plot here* and Ta ends up dying in the end...that was sad too. I cried T.T but I read it a zillion years ago so I don't even remember what it was called or the whole story, or who wrote it. But that was such a long time ago, I have not even HEARD of any good, or decent straight fics. And even now more thenso, even g-fics are becoming WACK AS HELL. What's up with all this random couple switching??? @.o I'm not traditional myself but...ew. Some of those couples be like NON EXISTANT. Well unless it's Shinhwa. And then Hye Sung can be with anyone because...well duh, he's the slut. But man I like tradition when it comes to my couples and people are not only fuckin that up, but they also write badly! What's up with everyone and they momma thinking they can write too? Wait..I ranted about this before....but it seems NO ONE IS LISTENING. Or they are and they're agreeing with me and that's all well and good, but how the fuck you know I don't mean you? Like I have very few fav writers....and even though me and her aren't like...all cool and buddy-buddy, NRG got some good writing skills. I like her work a lot, though she's been absent from the writing scene. Auwon too, her fics are good, the plot is sometimes real creative, and I like her style. Of course, Cyndi, Aein unni and Ghost the F4, I love their style, their humor and perverse writing makes me feel like I can't do my part because I'm so not funny...-.- *has warped sense of humor* and...yeah. Christine, even though she doesn't finish fics, I loved Walls of Air her and random HyukTa. Good style and detailed. I love detail ^^ Those are my fav writers. Everyone else either can stand to improve or stop being so God damn lazy and write. Don't complain when other people get lazy if you do it too, or better yet, don't even start writing if you're not gonna finish it.

Like I sed a zillion times before, not that I'm the shit and woo yeah praise me because my work is the greatest, no, but I do know I can write...sometimes...>.> and people like my work. You don't like it, don't read it, doi...but yeah...I just felt the need to rant about that because Aoki-chu was saying how nowadays straight Shinhwa fics all suck. And I soooooo believe her. News flash not everyone and they momma can write...so stop it. ALSO, QUALITY not QUANTITY. What's up with people writing LONG crap ass fics? That also make no sense and have weird couples? *shakes head* it's just....sad. Stop doing that. Okay , I'm done about that.

I hurt myself T.T fingr hurts. I broke another nail. Well actually it's the same nail I just finished breaking it. =P Blah. I hate that. *yawn* yesterday I drew a tarot card for the hell of it because...I dunno I thought that would be cool so I drew The Lovers I drew me and Ta XD I'm corny. But you can't even see my face (i drew my back) and you can tell it's Ta ^.^ I would scan it...but I dunno....anyway that brought me to the thought that maybe I should do the 36 Moons Tarot cards...I love Tarot cards. Not that I believe in what they have to say or the people that can read them, but the pictures are just so cool and what they mean is also faboo. So I dunno...I might end up doing that, but I would have to make a list of the cards I'd draw, and who would be in them...so...I dunno I'm still thinking about it.

Okay....wow long rant. LOL I have to send Finale out before everyone kills me. I left another cliff hanger...X.x crazy fangirls will kill me. LOL Later.

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Everytime I look at Yukihiro from Larc he just gets sexier and sexier. I dunno...he's jus getting all extra hot to me. XD jjang.

Part 102- The Moon that Never Sets

I tol ya I was in the mood to keep writing. LOL Anyway, yeah back to Yukkie. So I was scoping this one site in German nonetheless X.x called hyde Club - Jrock Herbst Version which is where I got the following pics so creidt to them. ^^ Anyway,
http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/yuk6.jpg
Yukkie looking at the camara.
What is it about the stare? Maybe it's the hair? I dunno but he's fuckin sexy.

http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/yuk4.jpg
Yukkie in B&W
I love this pic because it just shows him upclose kinda, and you could see the shape of his face an how his hair goes...I love it ^^ it's pretty to me ^^

Ah yeah...plus I found out he's got a 24 inch waist X.x him and BC have the same size and he's just 3 inches more then Sunnie. X.x;;;;;;;;;; but it's sexy anyway XD

Speaking of sexy....(woo we know where this is headed) I also got more pics of Sugizo from the same site. I'm sorry but this is hella cute

Look at that smile!! He's got a dimple! *pokes Sugizo's cheek* LOL I thought that was cute. I never seen a smile from him other then that pic of him an his daughter.

http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugizo008.jpg
Sugizo's sexy ass in black
I don't like his hands...he looks like he should be holding something. But he's sexy anyway XD

http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugizo001.jpg
Him in black lookin to the side
He matches! YAYYYYY!!!!! *throws confetti in the air*

http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sug.jpg
From the Gravity video XD WAH I love this video.

*poke Sugizo* You sexy slut you XD MWhahahahah he should come whore himself around me XD *grope* Mwhahahah anyway, yeah Imma go check out this site. If I don't Helayne will hurt me. LOL Laterz.

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Aoki-chu pointed this out to me last night, and Kara blogged about it herself, it was about their blogs and how it completed or will complete a year soon. Mine will be a year old December 27th. ^.^ 27 baby! LOL WOO JJANG. Not done on purpose by the way. Hehehehe. Anyway it's hard to know that I put my life out on display for a year now. I've been so blunt sometimes too....and I'm only gonna get more blunt. Huk Huk Huk thankies Christopher oppa. I dun like writing out his whole name....I wonder if I can call him Chris...maybe he doesn't like being called Chris...>.> well anyway gotta ask him next time. *sniffies*

Part 101- Blueprints
I know I was lacking on that for a while now....>.< but since I had 2 fics going at the time I devoted more time to my g-fic. As of now, I'm already running through more ideas....I need to be inspired. -.-;;; Blah I hate not being inspired. LOL I'm a big weirdo. *yawn*

What else was I gonna say....oh yeah I'm BEYOND bored. No one is on...-.- OH MAN let me jus tell the world about my argument yesterday I had with this chick. Okay, as we all know....there's people out there selling really good H.O.T stuff that people are willing to pay for. So, I met one of these people and befriended them and all was good for a long time. Up until recently she started getting MAD SUPER GREEDY and she begin to piss me off. Rather then continue being as close to her as I was, I spaced myself away from her. Didn't wrirte long letters anymore, stopped sending pics, didn't IM her no more it was all about business. I would write to her to send cash and tell her what I was paying for, and that was it. Online, I'd only talk to her to tell her what I needed to pay for, and she'd let me know what she was selling. Also, everything was about her, her, her. Which also pissed me off. Anyway recently, I bought $15 worth of stuff from her being a 10$ laminated poster of Kang Ta from Heng Bok days and 5$ worth of pics of Min Woo from All Your Dreams era. They were for my Aoki-chu because I was gonna send her the Shinhwa 4 Promo poster I have. Anyway it never came. I told her it got lost in the mail and asked her what she intended to do about it because that's my 15$ down the drain, not her's. She offered me, as compensation these little tiny plastic cards. They're worth about a 1$. And unless she planned to send me 15 that wasn't gonna make up for it. And I told her. She kept repeating how it wasn't her fault it got lost in the mail and that none of her customers ever said they wanted a refund. I gave her 3 choices.
1. Subtract 15$ from the 41$ I still owe her making it now 26$
2. Send me 15$ worth of stuff of Min Woo and Kang Ta.
3. Give me back my 15$
She got all pissy about it and almost refused to do anything I said. I would have gone buckwild and everyone knows it. I also would have put her on full blast. EVERYWHERE I possibly could have and then gladly never bought anything from her again. She broke though, taking off 15$ from the 41$ I owed her. I decided to pay this off and never buy anything from her again. Too much of a rip off, and too many problems. I rather buy it from someone who isn't gonna charge me 71$ for some fuckin paper. Anyway, I was pretty pleased with my result. Mwhahaha mostly because it pissed her off. I also don't wanna talk to her as much. I think she knows this.

*yawn* I've been yawning a lot. It's only 9 and I'm like yawning like crazy. Tomorrow is Friday. WOOO and 1 class, and I get to see Pookie, and...probably, yet again, fail to see Rich. I'm starting to get over him before I even see him. LOL that's some shit man. I definatly need to scope a guy out. Don't need a man just want one. Mwhahahaha. I FINALLY got Hurt one of my new fav Luna Sea songs. I also got another song Love Me.

MAN Aoki-chu put me on FULL BLAST about my porn. LOL Yes, I'm getting Porn. Asian Porn. GAY Asian porn. I get the severe satifaction of watching pretty boys fuck each other. XD jjang. LOL Aoki said how can everyone else compete. LOL Don't worry....it's not a competion it's how much you looooooove me. I only have presents picked out for....2 people. -.-;;; Aoki is so hard to shop for. She wants all this expennsive shit that I couldn't possible afford or find. -.-;;; geez Aoki-chu can't you make it any harder to shop for you? Oh PLEASE OH PLEASE!!! MAKE MY SHOPPING EXPERIENCE A ZILLION TIMES HARDER!!! -.-
I still need to know what to get BC and D....*sigh* AND SUNNIE. What do u get a guy that has everything and couldn't possibly need anything? Spoiled brat...=p *sigh* I so need money. I'm saving up as is but it's hard to do so since I'm gonna pay off my debt in one shot and money is hard to come by these days.

I got my invite to Christine's birthday party today and I don't think I'd be able to go which so dissapoints me. I don't have any money right now, since times are tough, and I can't afford a new dress since it's formal or a present for her. I feel so bad because I'd really like to go, and I'd really love to be there for Christine, but I don't think I can. T.T *sigh*

Sucks for me. Okay, I'm gonna go write. I'm still in 36 Moons mood. ^.^v

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I just have to say, I'm so mad at the would be ghettoness of Edic the Froot. Wannabe gangsta...he's making me so mad lately. =P BC thas ur boy. -.-;;; Anyway...yeah

I had English today. It was cold, but not too cold and it was raining like someone was spraying a bottle of water or something. So it wasn't really raining it was misting. Anyway, I got out of English early....and David wasn't in class -.-;;; Anyway, I went and hung out with Pam, her boyfriend Matt and this guy named Denato. We hng out, jus chillen outside, having a smoke as we all talked. me and Pam decided to hang out sometime later. ^^ Then I met up with Changa and this guy Dave. We all chilled for a minute and me and Matt walked to my car. He's a mad chill guy. Then I went home. A lot of traffic...blah.

Anyway...yeah...rain is not kind to me. My hair frizzed. Good thing I tied it back. Anyway today, I got linked to L'Arc~en~Ciel unofficial site And I got a couple of pics to share. One of Yukkie *sigh* Sexy drummer man....

Yukkie is the 2nd sexiest guy from Larc....*sigh* man I'd love to get at him for a minute XD MWHAHAHAH. I also saw this pic of Larc at the market posing with what...? Some box boys? LOL *click here*. I love it. I was laughing when I saw that. LOL

Jjang Junie pics ^^ Mwhahahaha he's so so so so cute *pinchy Junie* tee hee ^^ Ahhh...well anyway....Imma go write....time for some more 36 Moons I know I've been lagging on that =p

Later.

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I love listening to Luna Sea at night. Very nice....I love torturing myself with Until the Day I Die. It's such a sweet song. That and Breathe Well anyway I decided to blog one more time because I FINALLY have this chap done.

Part 100- Victory in Manhattan

Okay must go to bed. Laterz.

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Yesterday I blogged quickly but I THOUGHT pitas ate it because it's wack like that sometimes. But it didn't....so if I repeat myself, sooooorry. Anyway, I'm ALMOST done writing 36 Moons but I got slowed down. I spent a good portion of today talking to Christopher oppa. *^^* Bweee this is him. I got permission to post his pic.

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/christopher_oppa.jpg
Thas my oppa. One of them anyway. Okay so we spent a good portion of my day talking. He's a trip. He's a more romantic version of Sunnie...cuz Sunnie is....>.> Sunnie. *clears throat* anyway he's also fun. ^^ Christopher, not Sunnie in this case. He had me dying a couple of hundred times....though he puts me on hold for like an infinate amounts of time LOL I'M PLAYING OPPA!! *ducks from the chair being tossed at her* Anyway I love that he's very honest (we had a long convo on that) and because of him, I decided that even if it's hurtful, Imma be more honest from now on. Is like if my oppa can do it from a life long lesson, then so can I. I have no reason to lie because, you know...what do I have to gain? So I don't lie. I don't say shit either though sometimes I do here. But that's what my blog is for doi. So...Imma be more honest. *glomps Christopher oppa*

So yesterday, I was talking to Rich and he said I was beautiful. I was never called that before. It's really rare for me to hear anything over a "pretty" (which I now know I am because Christopher oppa said so MWHAHAHAH XD *ego is boosted* XD) but anyway, I was really surprised to hear how hard he's falling for me. (He told me I'm not boosting my ego this time) and I was kinda...like...more nervous to meet him now because what if my "I'm Too cute for you" things kicks in? Or my shallow moment happens? He's a nice guy but....I dunno. *sigh* I'll see when it happens.

Nothing exciting in school History, where I drew all period, Health which I continued drawing, and Math where I spent most of it passing notes to Luz. Mwhahaha so that was my day. It was okay. 2morrow I have English and 2 non exisitant pages for my research paper but at least I have a topic. Should Same Sex Marraiges be allowed? That's my topic. ^_^ Again, thankies to Christopher oppa. ^.^v Anyway, so I'll do it before Dec. Um...hopefully. Anyway, I am still loving my Aoki-chu who sent me the link to the People Connection Forum where she linked me to my beautiful Ta pictures *sigh* I cried when I saw these. He's just too fucking beautiful.

Ta in a snowy cabin place
My favorite picture. He's so fuckin beautiful. I love the way he looks. I just love it.

Ta with sunglasses on
He's just beautiful I can't say anything more.

How beautiful can he be, that looking at him, can touch me to the point of tears? He's just beautiful.

Anyway yesterday I was also gonna say that Shin Hye Sung is a slut. He gets pased around Shinhwa like a party favor. Here's the proof: Hye Sung being Shinhwa's slut. S.S Slutty Sungie. LOL Dun feel bad Janie, Woo is a pimp, Jin is a whore, Sungie is a slut, Eric is just...gay >.> and Dong Wan is....watching? LOL So yeah.....I'm still on that. I meant to repeat myself here. LOL

*sigh* Okay let me go finish 36 Moons and WAAAAAH I completed Finale JJANG!! XD *time for a new idea*

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I love this song. It's so sweet. Anyway, today I had English and after like FOREVER, I finally sat next to David. And guess what? Nothing happened. >.>;;;; I keep getting the same advice too. Just go up to him and talk to him. I think I'm getting over him anyway because I wasn't like....I dunno...just didn't feel the same anymore.

Anyway, AOKI-CHU!!! LOL OMG...thanks so much for the pics on ur blog....I decided that Shin Hye Sung is a big slut. He gets passed around Shinhwa like a party favor. I'm like WOW....Hye Sung is a BIG slut. In case you didn't see it. Go *here* to see what a slut he is. So Janie, I'm sorry sweetie, but your man is a slut. No worries. Jin is a whore, Minu is a pimp, and Eric is just gay. I don't know what Dong Wan is. Ghost? LOL And yes, yes....Aoki-chu is happy with my writing. Mwhahahahaha and Ghost has once again picked it up. *^^* Jjang. (I'm saying that a lot too Aoki-chu)

Anyway, I was talking to Rich today. He was being honost with me. He was saying how he really likes me and that he really wants to meet me. I'm like okay...then he goes, did anyone ever tell you that you're beautiful? I'm like...aww really? he's like yeah I'm serious. I've never been called beautiful. I've been called cute and pretty, adorable, sweet...(mwhahaha XD) but never beautiful. I always found that word...not meant for someone like me. I never considered myself beautiful. But whenhe said, I had to say my heart melted just a little. I've never been told I was beautiful....and it was...so different. I felt really good at that moment. It was just nice. That word didn't fit me too well...I use it for Kang Ta....I use it for my writing...but never for myself. It was weird. But I still have to smile.

Anyway Maki chan sent me this clip of Toshiya from Dir~en~Grey being a BIG DORK! OMG HE LAUGHS!!! X.@ It totally threw me for a loop. Someone like him doesn't look like he laughs....so he was like laughing, and clapping and having a good time at this arcade thing. He REALLY wanted this little penguin thing...which he eventually got. And it was just too funny. His teeth are really jacked though X.x and his laugh is weird. >.> like my sneeze. Which both Maki and Sunnie say is weird. *shrugs* I dunno....BC is my sneeze weird? I wish I knew.

Anyway, I jus finished my health paper, the 1st 2 pages of my research paper are due this Thursday, and I have to do my math homework tomorrow. *sigh*....stupid school. =P Can't wait till I go on winter holiday. =P

Laters.

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UGH My EVIL WICKED MEAN AOL despite how much my mom pays for it and I upgrade this stupid thing, it decided to cop out on me tonight and leave me Instant Messager-less. For some REALLY WEIRD REASON, my AIM doesn't work either. So...here I am....all alone because I can't IM anyone and no one can IM me.....-.-v

Isn't AOL grand? *kicks AOL to China* stupid AOL -.-;;;

Anyway, I took the oppurtunity to finish my writing without havingto stop every 6 seconds...no multi tasking...-.- and I finished up another chap of 36 Moons SO...here we go.

Part 99- Hit a Pause for the Time Being

*sigh* Also I was about to go to this site...um...when I have the proper URL I'll link it, but it gave me 2 important galleries. One of Luna Sea and one of Haido.

Haido's bare chest
It's not as sexy as one would hope it would be. His stomach is nice...but his chest is like...>.> plus his nipple bothers me. It seems too dark for his milky ass. So...yeah...but I love the pose ^^

Haido's face
His face is very very pretty. I love the shape of it, the curve of is cheek, the size of his eyes (even though that ONE ssang kah pool is really annoying me now)his lips. He's just all in all pretty. It's nice to see beauty like that. Plus it looks so clean....*shrugs* I like this pic.

Okay now for some Luna Sea pics...

Sugizo playing guitar
It's a black and white pic. I love the picture because it's Sugizo and he's not doing anything sexual, he's fully dressed too, you can't even see his face and he's hunched over at his guitar. The picture looks like it was taken without him even knowing. That's kinda nice though. It's like seeing him in his natural element.

Sugizo doing his sexy pout thing
My SLUT I LOVE THIS MAN'S POUT!!! That's my slut man. Ta's my angel, Haido's my fallen angel, and Sugizo is my slut. XD Jjang. Anyway I love this pic because of Sugizo's pose and nothing more. XD WOOOOOO Sexy sexy. Gaw...such a sexy slut he is.

Anyway....that's about it for pics. The rest of them were kinda redundant...seen them all before. Anyway...yeah....man it sucks not having anyone to talk to right now. =( *sigh* anyway, I just remembered that in the Hurt Perfomance, tell me why Ryuichi was...gone. My man was on the moon man. He was like spazzing out all over the stage and I'm like whoa...O.o;;;; relax man. Even Haido was never that bad. It was kinda creepy. LOL AND FUNNY!!! LOL. I have NO idea why BC thinks he's cute. I just realized how big his forehead is. >.> buuuuuut I'm not one to talk about big foreheads.

I have English tomorrow. And my meeting with Rich has once again been pushed back. He's so weird. His scheduale is all right after mine...but in different areas. Blah anyway, I don't get to see him till Friday. I'm kinda nervous. Not really but sorta. Tomorrow I see David. Bweeeee. *claps* Sexy ass David. MWeeeeeee but actually I think I'm getting over him. I didn't talk about how it sucked to have a stupid holiday on my English class day...and how I haven't seen him for a week now....wow that really didn't even cross my mind till now. *shrugs* he's still sexy.

T.T Bah evil AOL.....hope I don't make everyone mad. =P Oh wellz. Later.

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It's kinda early for me to be blogging. I did everything I was suppost to do all at record time. I was actually really proud of myself because not ONCE since I woke up this morning did I lay back down. I got up at 5:45AM after sleeping around 2:30-3AM because I was restless. When I finally did sleep, I woke up at 5:45AM and started my day. I got up, took a shower, got dressed and had my cup, my single cup of coffee and then took my mom to work. After dropping her off, I went to school, and was a 1/2 hour early. I relaxed, listened to my favorite morning show on the radio and then at 7:45 put Real in my CD player and put on Love Flies as I walked to History. I stayed awake and was actually thinking about what to write since last time I wrote a nameless short story...that both Ghost and Sunnie wrote all over...-.-;;;;; Sunnie and his tags and his little decelration of love to Mikey and I quote: "I love mah Mikey 96-01 and foreva. Love my not last but my Soul does" -.- how sickinly sweet....and then of course Ghost writing Jun Jin all over it...-.-v but she did write Ghost, Jia, Toki, Aoki and I love you on it too in Japanese so when I checked it, I got out a blank piece of paper and practiced writing that on some paper when I was suppost to be listening to a lecture about the beginning of WWI. Stupid history proff. He gave me a C on my paper and said if my book was boring, then I should have gotten another one. Well I would have if I didn't find the whole fuckin era of WWII incrediably boring. -.-v I'm sorry where there sexy bishies,Kang Ta, K-pop, J-rock and Brad Pitt movies during WWII? No? I don't care then. It's like...yeah let me sound real air-head like, but I've heard SO MUCH about it, I could hold a civilized convo about in a circle of high society in a party, but that doesn't mean I have to care. Because I don't. I learn a lot of things, but that doesn't mean I care about it.

Anyway, I had Health after that. My grades in both class are steady and I'm happy with that. Health was okay, I had fun because I realized I didn't sleep I had a nap...and I'm STILL wired. Huk huk huk...^^;;;; I'm crash soon though. Anyway, then I packed up my bag and went home. I got home, kicked off my boots and changed my bed linen, then my parents bed linen. Then the bathroom towels and THEN I did the dishes and then I came back to my room and drew Akio's full body pic. After that was done, I started rummaging through my old stacks of folders I have and I found a small stack of poems KP oppa wrote for me a long, long time ago. I used them for a lot of drawings and I was just amazed at how sweet and deep he is.

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Akio_FullBody36Moons.jpg
Akio's full body pic. I know he's not too popular, but he is part of the 36 Moons and I do believe that's the 1st pic I ever drew of him. Remember, he wasn't always Ryuunen Akio, he was Ryuunen Teru 1st. And a former cop that had plastic surgery to change the way he looked and named himself after his dead yakuza father. ^^;;; Ah...I'm so weird sometimes. Anyway, let me get some of those poems out. They're really nice. I bet KP forgot he even wrote them.

T.T Oppa so deep....*hugs* I remember this. He wrote it about himself and how he feels about his physical apperance. Here's another one.

Oppa was very depressed when he was younger. As I was....but he was like going through hell at the time...and I really can't blame him for trying to express himself like that. He looked so happy everytime I saw him when he was younger, always with a smile, a joke and his high energy personality. You would swear he had not a care in the world. It was just an act though. He let me know much later that he wasn't really happy, he was so miserable and he even attempted killing himself T.T he didn't even cut himself thank God. But...yeah now as an adult, he doesn't hide behind a laugh and a smile anymore. He cries a lot more...but at least he's okay. *sigh* I miss my oppa! T.T *hugs KP oppa*

Anyway.....yeah...tomorrow I get to meet Rich and see David. I'm nervous about Rich...what if he's a total dork...X.x I'm so use to my pretty boys and shallow toys that like...the idea of him not coming to my standards scares me half to death. But I have to learn. I just hope he doesn't dress like a completle loser...X.x I'm so mean. LOL. Okay I better go write before I get attacked by crazed fans. OH and Auwon...I got a question, in My Dark Angel the 3rd chap, when did Hee Jun ever smoke? I thought only Kang Ta did? @.o;;; did I miss it in the fic? Anyway....yeah...later.

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Okay...so....yeah. I did nothing since the last time I blogged, just wrote like crazy mad. So I'll post. Finally. I know I've been lagging on this for a while too. Sorry sorry...

Part 98- Lineage
I was lagging on it. Also, the last full body I have to do it Akio...so that'll be done soon. I've been falling behind on this. *sigh* I need a calculator....I'm gonna fail math T.T huk...

So...yeah about the Luna Sea perfomances. I d/led Fate, Jesus, Be Gone and Hurt. And also this X-mas show where Sugizo was wearing THE outfit. Meaning the short shorts, the garters, the thigh highs and the vest. The pink hair and when he played guitar, they focused on his playing and I was able to see those thighs XD yummy. Nyam nyam XD. In Be Gone and in Jesus he was wearing the same thing he did in other performances being black pants and coat with a white shirt...I think I confused one of them...no no in Fate and in Be Gone he wore the same thing. In Jesus he wore tight leather pants and a vest. In Hurt he wore leather pants and a skirt lookin thing over it, and a long sleeved black tight kind of belly shirt with suspender like thing criss crossed over it. He looked really sexy. ^.^ Plus, I ended up liking Hurt a lot. The song's melody is haunting. It kinda stays with you. Good song man. Mwhahaha unfortunatly when I went to d/l it today, I couldn't find it. T.T* huk.

Ah....back to the grind tomorrow. I have History and Health. I have to wake at 5:45 AM, get ready for school, take my mom to work, go to class, come home, chill for a few, take my DAD to work because now his car (which was in a car accident) is in the shop and I have to take him to work, then go pick up my mom and then go back home FINALLY. I have to do this for a while until my dad gets his car out of the shop. I hate being a cab driver. =P Sucks for me. *sigh* oh well...it's jus till Dec. 14. Once the semester is up, I don't have to worry about driving anyone anywhere because I won't have school. MWhahahaha

OH I LOVE MY AOKI-CHU!!!

TOKI LOVES AOKI-CHU

She sent me a clip of the SM X-mas thing and Ta's a cop ^^ eee baby can handcuff me ANYDAY!! *cough* anyway, him and Hye Sung are cops, Eric and Jin were in Jammies and hats, and Hee Jun is Santa. Mwhahahaha cute cute. So...I love it. I smiled before I went to bed. And he haunted me. Hehehehe I don't mind having an incubus like Ta coming into my dreams. ^_^ *sigh* anyway yeah...I'm done for tonight. *sigh* I doubt I have anything left in me...but I'm gonna go read some fics....or least look for some. Laters.

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Sorry didn't blog yesterday. I was...I dunno I got caught up in the absoulte nothing of it all. Plus I got in trouble when I woke up at 2PM. My cell phone bill came in and it was 131$...X.@ I got in sooo much trouble. I figured I'd prolly get charged at least a little from all those calls I got from my Aoki-chu, but it turns out I got chraged for calling Emanuel!! X.@ those 1/2 hours calls really add up. So I got in trouble for that. I spent 3 hours in my room before my mom said it was okay for me to come out and she sed it was okay...though now I have a very big chance of havingmy cell phone CUT off. @.@ *sob* it's my own fault though so I'm not really upset about it.

Anyway, I noticed how more often then not, I don't have too many boys wanting to get my attention. But most recently this guy named Rich asked about me through my friend Luz. Here are his stats. He's from Hong Kong, 19, a fob, 5'4, wears glasses, 1st year of college, and is really nice. I saw his pic, he's not my type physically wise, but he's not like....a hunchback either so I decided to meet him Tuesday before I have English, in the stundet center. *sigh* I decided I should try not to be so shallow. I was telling BC last night how I really shouldn't be so shallow because I the rate I'm going, I'll be single until I meet Ta. X.x;;;; So I decided to see this Rich guy...and see how he is. I draw the line at not understanding a word he says though. If he's fobby like Haido's singing then I'm sorry I have a new friend....>.> Anyway, this OTHER guy named Aaron I went to high school with IMs me every now and then out of the blue. He did last night and asked me how my boyfriend was. I'm like...what boyfriend. He's like oh that gives me a chance then. I'm like O.o;;;; chance for what? He's like you know what I mean.....O.O he later disgraded the whole convo and I quickly did too. Aaron was never my type. Sure he was cute, but he wasn't...like my type cute. Plus he's kinda shady, he's also a little fobby, he's quite and he's so damn cliuqe-y which surprises me because I'm not Flipino (wow I butched that word) anyway, he's like pretending to be, to not be interested in me and I'm like...uh...>.> yeah.
Then there's my own desire which is David. *sigh* The semester draws to a close and I've learned that he's into cars, he lives in Edison, his name is David Chung, and that's it. I learn nothing else. I've had 1 convo with him and i was about our papers. I have no idea what to do or whatelse to do and the semester ends Dec 14. *sigh* It's now Nov. 25. I'm running out of time. I decided to do something soon....because I really can't let this slip through my fingers. Like BC sed 9 times out of 10 I will let a boy walk away...because I'm brain dead like that sometimes. *sigh* So...yeah this has got to stop.

I dunno...I have to do something. If Rich is nice, if he's adorable to me, and he's willing to spend time with me and he's chasing me, then you, I have to stop being so shallow and give the guy a chance. BC always tells me I'm shallow and I admit I am. I will always go for the dude that is hot, but a total jerk. And I'll put up with him because I love saying "My man is fine" and I really need to stop. I rather say "My man is a total sweetheart". So...yeah. I dunno total revelation for me. I'm growing up. Huk huk huk ToT;;;;;; this is hard. Anyway, besides that...I have to write. I noticed that FInale is a lot longer then my normal fics. Usually I make 40 chaps in a fic plus an epilouge and a prolouge...but Finale is running over 40 chaps...mostly because I didn't want the ending to be so rushed. I hate when I do that. And it's not bad so far...I like it. I don't love it like I did Picture Perfect but I do like it. It's good. Not too bad. It seems drawn out though...it kinda is..but it's suppost to be. So...yeah. I also have to finish 36 Moons for tonight. *sigh* i better get started. OH OH WAIT...

I d/led 3 perfomances last night of Luna Sea. MWhahahaha Sugizo is a sexy sexy bitch. I'll talk about those laters. I have to go write. ^^ weeeeeee

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OW....X.X I hit my knee against my desk...and if anyone had that happen to them before, they know how your eyes roll up to the back of their head and you just wanna scream from the shock of pain. OW.....*sob*

Anyway, let me post up before I 4get Part 97- A Force to be Reckoned With
I know I haven't posted in a while. I got stuck for a minute on it, and like previous moments, stuff delayed me from even finishing a single chap so when I DID finish a chap, I got stuck on the other. *sigh* but at any rate, I'm all caught up now. So....yeah.

okay I watched Luna Sea doing some...Xmas show...MWHAHAHA I loved it because I got to see Sugizo in those....thigh highs short shorts, and garters lookin all SEXY XD *drool drool* And then I got to see them doing Be Gone which was also jjang because watching Sugizo play guitar has to be the sexiest thing in the world. XD MWhahahaha And yeah...that just made me happy. Tee hee.

I love that song and I love how even in English I can't understand a bloody word Haido is saying....so this is more for my sake then anyone elses. Just like when I needed to learn the words for Good Morning Hide I put them here. Now I can finally understand Haido fobalicious English *^^*

*cuz he's just too fobalicious for me babee*

Anyway, random things!

1. I found out one of my fav, (but retired) yaoi authors Tayla Firedancer has a blog. It's so jjang. I admire her work so when I found this out, I bookmarked it. I'll add this soon to my list...with permission of course.

2. Found a random Larc site. I mostly kept it because the Yukihiro gallery is nice. I'm starting to appericate him more and more. ^^ Yukkie jjang ^^v Case in point:
http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_yukkie_pictures/yukkiedashing.jpg
Sexay XD

3. It was my KP's oppas bday the 20th!! Which I so stupidly forgot to blog about -.-;;;; So sorry oppa. But, yes my ancient oppa is now *tada* 21. He had 2 cakes for his bday. WHy? Because he loves cake. He only eats it on someones bday...so...even if the person is not there, he'll eat a cake in their honor....^^;;; *muahz* I luv you oppa!!

4. I ate all my cranberry sauce from Thanksgiving...X.x all of it. By myself. MWhahahah glutton.

5. Sunnie's idea of Thankgiving consisted of eatting cranberry sauce off Mikey's tummy....>.> now that puts a new twist on Thanksgiving dinner.

Okay randomness stopped. Wahh...I still wanna see The One. I love Jet Li. I dunno why, but he's so sexy to me. 3 random hardly known actors/entertainers that are so sexy to me: Ken Leung, Justin Yau, and Matsuda Ryuhei. Ryuhei is a little more known for his movie Gohatto, and Ken Leung for Rush Hour 1, but that's about it. ^.^ I love, loving unknowns. Like yeah there's a whole....flock behind H.O.T, but pick a random person in my class, they don't know crap. And I love that. Same thing with Haido. And now these 3. MWhahaha I love being different.

It's like being normal sucks a lot. Why do I wanna be a random person? It's why I don't like being considered a "boy band teeny bopper" or a teeny bopper alone. Frankly I think I'm too old to be a teeny bopper anyway =P plus, I also don't like fitting in with the norm. I like not knowing a damn thing in American music, or what whoever's last song was, or who married who...I don't care. Unless it's k-pop/j-rock influenced. I don't like blending in with the crowd fashion wise. ^^ It's always fun to NOT be normal and be considered normal. ^^ It's also why I love yaoi. Mwhahahah but recently Pookie told me that homosexuality is becoming "popular" and in a way I'm like YAY and in the other I'm like...ew why? It's like becoming "trendy" and I'm like X.x oh geez...thats horrible. It shouldn't be a trend it should be something permante. Permante acceptance would be nice. Blah...I hate that. I hate people.

LOL which reminds me. When I was driving with Ghost that day to my class, we were at a light, and I'm lookin out the windo and some girl makes a turn and she's just...STRAIGHT STARING AT ME. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU LOOKIN AT!? The bitch stole my face! And Ghost starts busting out laughing. I'm like what? She's like GOD you really ARE Toki. XD Jjang. It was a Toki action. LOL I did not know. I just hate people staring at me. I'm like WHAT? Can U see my boob? Have I grown a 3rd head? What? I hate that. So I always give people dirty looks or I say something if they stare at me. You know those people that your momma tells you about? You know, "don't curse and fight at those people they could be psychos" well....MWAHAHAH I AM one of those people. MWHAHAHHA XD

Uh...yeah okay I was rambling. LOL nothing new. AIIITE...well Imma go...do something else. LOL laterz.

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So....it's Thanksgiving. I've never been a big fan of the holidays. I actually don't like them. Surprisingly enough my mom decided to make dinner for just the three of us. It's not a lot and the turkey isn't like huge or anything, but it's dinner...and I guess that's pretty nice. Sometimes, (though very few times) I wish I was close to the rest of my family. But we're not and it's that's okay with me. I'm sentitmental sometimes when it comes to the holidays because when I was little, the holidays were always the best times. A lot of my cousins would come over, my aunts and uncles, and we would all play for hours and then have dinner. If it was Christmas, we would all count down the hours then brag to each other about what we got. It was fun when I was little. The older I got, the more spaced out my family got...and it came to the point where I only saw them maybe once a year, and not even for the holidays. Now I just don't see them at all. And that's okay, I've grown not to even like my family. They're are like grown up versions of people in my old high school, shady and all up your ass about your buisness. So sometimes, I'm thankful for the fact that we don't get along.

Anyway, last night, I went out with BC to see Spy Games. *drool* Brad Pitt is fuckin hot. He's just dope as hell. He's like XD OH AND, my baby Ken Leung was in it. Don't know who that is? Good don't know cuz he's part of my harem. He was Sung in Rush Hour 1, the bad guy that was like...kinda psycho...WAH HIM he's so sexy. To me anyway LOL so he was in Spy Games too. Needless to say, back to Brad. Okay, I had a big crush on Brad since like....I think Cool World? His hair looked bad but he was hot. I don't know if it was the baby blue eyes, the mouth or that killer smile but he's hot. But my favorite movie in brad that made me fall in love forever with his acting...

http://www.geocities.com/Hollywood/Trailer/9655/scan/br293.jpg
Interview with a Vampire. He played the heart broken, most "mortal vampire" Louis De Pointe Du Luc. Ahhhh and was he ever brillant at doing so. When I saw the movie, I loved the way Louis was, which caused me to wanna go read the book. Since then I could only see Louis as Brad XD Sorry but Brad is hot and if you read the description of Louis that Lestat gives then it is freakin Brad.

Next fav movie Brad was in. 12 Monkeys. He played a crazy mofo in that XD Then I loved Seven where he tacked down a crazy mofo. Then I saw Legends of Falls where he was Tristion XD *sigh* Beautiful, beautiful. ^^ Then of course FIGHT CLUB! *bounce bounce* He's the only American actor/entertainer that I go eeee for. Most American actors have no effect on me. But Brad is hot. XD I got the above picture from Pink Monkey's Brad Pitt Haven so all credit to them. Anyway I rambled...

Okay so when me and BC got to the movies this OLD MAN started bitching at us because we sat in front of him and his wife. He was like theather full of seats and they gotta sit in front of us. And then he sat in front of us and was like let's see how you like it. We're like WTF....and then his wife she just sat 2 rows in front of us and he was like next time try to be more polite. I'm like chill dude it's the previews you aint missing shit. He pissed me off. And there was this sorta cute Asian guy who sat a seat away from us and he looked over and was like WTF was wrong with him? An I'm like *shrug* I have no idea. It was so stupid of the man. He's wack. Hope he stubs his toe later. Anyway, then we went to Dunkin Donuts. ^^ I got a danish and a Dunkachino ^^ I love those. Hot chocolate with coffee. Bweee. Anyway then I went home.

It seems like everyone is having dreams and I did too. I had a dream I got with David X.x He wasn't like my man, but we got together, like we were talking and we chilled for a while, we ended up sleeping on someone's couch and when I looked down at him, he was wearing his black turtleneck and he was sound asleep *he looked soooo cute* and like...I kissed his neck. It was so sweet. I loved my dream. *sigh* Just wish it could happen. Anyway, one of my new favorite songs now is Love Flies I have no idea why it took me so long to like the freakin song, but I do now. ^^

Anyway, did anyone ever get the feeling you were being lied to? I do...I got that feeling now....*shrugs* maybe it's just me...Aoki-chu knows what I'm talking about. It's just a feeling I have...it's weird. Anyway, I'm gonna...go write because I so did not do anything last night. =P Later.

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I'm so lazy. I woke up today at 6 this morning. And I was just...so overwhelmingly tired. I was like X.-zZzzZz but I was like must go to school, must get up, gotta go to History, no health today, must go to math. And the more I got up and moved around, the more I kept shrinking that list. Then it went something like, gonna cut history, catch a nap in the student center, then go to math. And after I brushed my teeth, I was like I have a math test today...but I didn't do my homework. I can do my homework over the holiday break, and make up my test on Tuesday....gonna go to bed. So I was like mom I'm sick, *walked back to bed, crashed* -.-ZzzZzzZzZZ and that was it.

Anyway yesterday I spent my WHOLE day with Ghost ^_^ I was waiting for it to be 10, wondering if I could cut 10-15 minutes before I leave for class waiting for Ghost. Because she's always late. LOL Just in case. Anyway she actually arrived on time! After a long hug, I got my stuff, she saw my shrine. Mwhahaha, and she worshipped my Jin corner for a minute. Then we left for my English class. She doesn't think David is cute! X.x she's like, I've seen better. LOL, so yeah....after class, we went to the mall to kill sometime before my dad left. I found out how much my corset was X.x 44$ oi...and I was like let me see how much one is at Victoria's Secret....that wasn't any better X.x LOL me and Ghost also talked about how if Ghost would strip down in front of Jin and was wearing nothing but a red thong, Jin would be like O.O ACK *covers eyes* LOL cuz he's so naive and innocent. She tried tellin me Ta was the same way, I was like hell no, he's a closet freak. Wait till I get my hands on him. THEN we got exholiante (sp?) on our hands, which was a bad idea! I was like OH samples! And I Ghost puts her hand out. She's like ooo glitter! She rubs her hands and shes like it feels weird. I get some on my hands, and I'm like it feels like sand. Then when I tell her what it is, she's like UGH we need water!! It wouldn't come off!! We had to go upstairs, with our hands clapped together as we went to the bathroom to wash our hands. MWhahahaha Then we walked around for a while, and then we decided to sit in my car for a while because my feet were starting to hurt. I was wearing my killer boots.

We sat in my car and I poked her at one point, and she's like why'd you poke me? I leaned back and with a serious face I was like Because I love you. And we started laughing because then Ghost was like you don't poke someone you love! I'm like sure you do! LOL After we picked up my mom, we went back to my house. We watched the Larc stuff I have on my compy, and she sed Nijii made no sense, but it was almost like a love song. *^^* Aw We also took web cam pics acting like Ghost and Toki ^.^v

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostxToki_Hydekissface.jpg
Ghost makin that Haido face he did last time. LOL

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostxToki1.jpg
2 yakuza posing.

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostxToki2.jpg
Us still posing, I like this one best.

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GhostxToki_Ignore.jpg
Such a Ghost action....>.> *she loves me thoooough

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/TokixGhost_Grab.jpg
And a very Toki action XD

There's more but we look weird and we were being random LOL Then we watched the Love Flies video on tape. We were gonna watch H.O.T but I have like so much and it's like random on all my tapes it would have taken too long. I let Ghost read one of my Yaoi mangas and I found out they say "Ah", "Mm", and "Tsu" alot in boy's love. LOL She also commented on how the one boy gettin fucked all the time was always naked but the ones fuckin him where always dressed and in jeans X.x ow. LOL My yaoi folder was also fun. Heheh. I wish I could have spent more time with her, but I didn't wanna bore my Ghost. So she left after a while.

Aoki-chu called me later that day. At the same time, some guy that's my friend's friend IMed me and he wanted to know about me. X.x He wanted to get to know me. X.x ack...he asked if I was single and where I was gonna be 2morrow. I was suppost to meet him after math but I couldn't get up this morning as previously stated. So yeah....that was weird and random.

Today, BC wants to go to see Spy Games cuz it's Brad's new movie. Jjang XD and also, Brad is on the cover of Vanity Fair wearing pants....and water. XD fun. LOL I saw wanna lick the insides of Sugizo's thighs. XD What made me say that? The picture I jus saw again. I posted before, but I'll post again just so you can see why.
http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna15.jpg
YEEAH BABY. I was talkin to Gijimo yesterday and she ended up talking to Sunnie yesterday Oi, all my dongsangs are gonna end up talkin to him. LOL Anyway, he YELLED at me to get off MY SN so he could get on. -.-;; Ur a poop Sunnie. Anyway, they spoke, and Gijimo found out how Sunnie calls Mikey his wifey. LOL The she saw Sugizo's hair was nice. Heheh she said he was also evil. XD he's a slut damnit. And Ta is an angel...she said that she's the daughter of Sugizo and Janie is the daughter of Ta. I was like NOOO cuz that would imply I cheated =P Which I didn't. Oi, creepy. I didn't cheat. I luv mah Ta. ^.^

Anyway I'm gonna read a little bit...and I prolly won't do much of anything X.x ugh holidays are tomorrow. Blah..later.

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I noticed the weirdest thing about myself. Every morning when I wake up, I clench my jaw really tightly. So much so then when I eventually do relax it, my face hurts. I end up doing that sometimes just randomly when I'm bored or when I'm not doing anything. I have to keep reminding myself to relax my jaw otherwise it hurts. Besides I know that can prolly cause some damage to myself later on in life.

Part 96- Silence: The True Nature of Death

Wooo I'm almost to 100 with this fic *claps* I'm good damnit. LOL Let me stop. I got my friend Luz hooked on 36 Moons now, she started reading it tonight. I was like Jjang. ^_^ new reader. Hehehehe Hehehe anyway, yeah, for Thanksgiving, I won't be doing anything. Though my friend Steve offered me the invite to his house. I never really celebrated a big Thanksgiving before. My family was never into it. And the last Thanksgiving I ever had I was like 12...so...yeah. I declined at first saying I couldn't impose which I couldn't. To me Thanksgiving has always been a family kind of thing, I would feel so out of place being at someone elses house, with someone elses family...so I said I would think about it. Though I don't really think I should go. *sigh* Anyway,

I get to see my Ghost 2morrow!! WAHHH JJANG!! *dances around* I can't wait. I missed my Ghost soooo much. I wish I had more cash to burn 2morrow since we're going to the mall after I have class. I'm all excited. I miss my Ghost. Hehehe *yawn* man I'm so tired now...being tired sucks. X.x Oh yeah before I forget,

http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna15.jpg
Sugizo in thigh highs XD OH YEAH BABY!!! You gotta love a man with thighs that thick wooooo *drool* Not many people pull off that look. Linna asked if I would make Ta wear that, and I was like NO NEVER. Ta's thighs aren't thick enough. He can just dance around for me in boxers XD Jjang.

http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna26.jpg
Sugizo's smirky/pout thing. I love that look on his face. MWahahahah it's so sexy. BWEEEEEEEE

Man another day without talking to my dongsang. I hope everything is okay with him. =( *misses Ji Hoonie* I also talked to Sunnie, he's on crack I swear he is. I was surprised to know Mikey was in the room when he was talking to me, and usually he isn't able to do that. But he was like no, he got at him in the morning, and earlier that afternoon, so....Mikey was tired. LOL Sunnie is NEVER tired. LOL I luv mah oppa. ^.^ he's on crack though he has me dying most of the time that I talk to him. Ahhh....I don't know what to wear tomorrow. BLAH

Oh yeah...I kept forgetting to mention how the other day I pissed someone off. Truth be told, I had no idea who it was, and I'm not even sorry, regardless of who it was, because the subject in which I jacked her in was of grades. She asked me about GPAs which I never had any clue how to do, nor did I care enough to find out about. This girl (who btw called me unni so I'm assuming I knew her but the SN was different) was doing really good in grades, she was like getting A's and shit and for a second it sounded like she was griping about not getting a A- and not a A, can someone please tell me the difference between and A and A-? Aren't they both fuckin A's? Above avaerage, passing? Yeah...anyway, I was like you sound like you're complaining over some really good grades that I never saw in my life. She's like I'm not complaining. I said it sounded like she did. And she got pissed and bizounced. *shrugs* Why get mad over something so fuckin trival? What was the point in all that I don't know. Personally I don't like grade grubbers. BC and KP were grade grubbers. They both drove me nuts, BC and her, OH *SOB* I'm getting a B in super advanced calculas! *SOB* I'd be like -.-;;; I'm getting a D in Algebra 1. U wanna shut up? And KP with his OH NO *SOB SOB* I'm getting a *GASP* A MINUS in Super, college advanced, made for geniuses, when I'm only a junior in high school, trig!! >.>;;;;;;; can I have a blunt object..? Yeah thanks.. OMG it drove me nuts. I'm like shut up. Just shut up. Both of you. I hate grade grubbers. Unless your'e getting a D or less, shut up. Don't complain. You're passing. Geez man....>.> I just had to get that off my chest.

*sigh* I'm all achy and in pain!! Owie...*burp* excuse me. And anyway....hope my jaw doesn't clench up again. =P laterz.

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Part 95- War: The Price

Ihaven't had the chance at all to finish one chapter in one day. X.@ it took me like 2 days to finish one chapter....and this happened twice X.o damnit. So that's what was taking me so long to finish and post up more of 36 Moons so so so sorry everyone. Here, I got presents. ^^ I was drawing this a few days ago and just finished it recently...sorry bout that (_ _);;; no one lets me do anything anymore *sob* LOL let me stop.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/TokixJia_36Moons.jpg
It's kinda graphic, but not really....just...don't copy and paste unless you like/love Boy's Love...XD We can all see how aggresive Toki is. Woo woo thas me baby XD *waves little Toki flag* LOL dork. Anyway, I forgot to mention that for some unknown amount of time I will not be speaking to Maki. T.T No we haven't fought, it's just that she got in trouble and she's not on her compy for unknown amount of time. which totally sucks for me too because I like talking to her. And I usually talk to her in those times that no one else is on and I'm lonely. T.T I didn't talk to my Ji Hoonie dongsang yesterday...*sigh* And I miss Gijimo....and Janie left me to watch TV...>.> and Aoki-chu called me to talk like twice I think and I couldn't talk either time because of my parents. They were like hauling me in the kitchen talk about "Cook". I'm like O.o *looks behind her* you talkin to me???? *parents nod...Busts out laughing* I can't cook to save my life!! I can barely boil water...and sometimes I fuck that up because I wander away from it and it evaporates....so...I really really hope Ta can cook cuz otherwise, we gonna have take out a lot. That and a lot of instant stuff because woo this Goddess doesn't know how to cook...at all. I can make jello and ramyun...thas about it. And toast...if I don't forget it. I can bake...but only box stuff. I'm so fuckin handicapped! My parents get mad at me saying I can't do anything and I'm irresponsible and I can't do anything and I'm like WELL...who's fault is that?? WHO treats this empress, LIKE an empress? Duh...>.>

Anyway, let's see what else was I gonna say...oh yeah random white women dancing in the Anenomone video. WTF was that all about? It's a slow song yet there are 2 girls in flapper like outfits that pop in and out of the video and I'm like O.o;;;;;;; wtf...that was just weird and freaky and totally out of place. I forgot to mention that last time.

Okay so...right...I got my link to Sawasdee Gackt back the other day. I realized how into Gackt I use to be, cuz he was like the 1st J-rocker I liked a lot, though I wasn't all like AH AH AH everytime I saw him. I was like oooo nice pic *drool* but then I dunno...I got over him. I mean, sure his voice is hella sexy XD nice and deep...*drool* but like...I dunno...not my cup of tea anymore. Maybe because I'm oogling Haido now? I guess...but if you compare, Haido (in my own thoughts) is much prettier, and yes prettier is the word I wanna use here, then Gackt. Gackt use to be pretty but now he's not...he got older...and not a bad thing but I dunno...whatever. So I got this link back and I start cruising through the gallery which is what I linked to if I'm not mistaken, and I'm like yeah, he's still hot, but not as hot as I thought he was. His eyes are pretty though. ^^ Those contacts look so so good on him.

Something in my contact again DAMNIT...>.o well anyway, let me go write some more....later.

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I love Auwon, I love Auwon, I love Auwon *bounce*

Why? Easy, know those little caps down there of Haido's pretty face all scrunched up because he got kissed by those two guys? Well...she sent me the clip! *bounce* I got to see Haido stand there and get attacked by the guy on the right first. He scrunched up his face and he was like "Oh God, why is this guy touuuuccccchiiiiiiing meeeeeeeee?" He all shut his eyes like >.<;;;;;;;;;;;;;; and then the guy on the left attacked him and kissed his temple as the other guy kissed his cheek. I was like EEEEEEE omg, people in the audiance where screaming and going mad. I was just laughing because OMG...Haido's expression was soo so sooo soo cuuuuute. >_________<;;;;;;;; <---Haido LOL

I just got home from class. I had a History test and 15 minutes before the class, I was reading my book to "study" and I sat down at class at read as much as I could. Hopefully I'll at least get a D...I wasn't as clueless as I was the 1st time. And then I had Health. I was suppost to do a crossword puzzle and I did and then I went home. And I was like wooooo I'll call Emanuel.

The dork wasn't home. -.- or he didn't pick up.

So here I am...home, tired, awake at 11:30AM....X.@ ahhh...tired. But awake. I can't wait till 2morrow so I can see my Ghost!! *Glomps Little Ghost* ^.^

Ugh sorry...I realized the other day I linked the wrong pic for Jia's full body pic =P So here it is
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Jia_FullBody36Moons.jpg
I read a really good HydexYukkie fic yesterday. It was really good. I love the author who wrote it. To read, go *here* it doesn't have a title it's just the HydexYukkie fic. ^_^ Damn I'm cold X.x *sigh*

Okay, I'm gonna go write while I have the chance. ^^ No one is online so I can actually work for a bit without interuptions, not that I mind people talking to me, I just write faster without having to multi task ^^v

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Kawaii desu!!!!! LOL Haido's reaction to this:

Haido got kissed by these 2 other guys. LOL sooo cuuuuute. I wish I could be kissing Haido's cheek!!! Got these from Auwon's blog, sorry Auwon, anytime I see a sexy bishie espically Haido, I will jack it. LOL AND DUH, his wife is SO FOOGLY...X.x she hurts my feelings lookin how she look. Me and BC were talking about Haido last night cuz I was listening to Larc, and I was like telling her how the foogly cunt rag screwed up, yet another, fav Larc song. First it was Anenomone and now it's All Year Falling in Love I was like GOD I HATE HER. I was liek GOD she needs to....so I stopped and thought about it because it seems that Haido really loves her...>.> *no comment* or at least he's a really good actor because of the way he talks...or so I heard...anyway it's all alliged until Haido tells me himself, yeah I love my wife and he has to do it convincingly!! Um..anyway back to my point, I thought about it and I was saying, nah I don't wanna say she needs to die because then if what Haido says is true, then he would be sad...so I was like, yeah Haido needs to hate her like I do and BC sed she needs to cheat on him. I'm like yeah...but come on, would YOU cheat on Haido? Who would she cheat on him with? And she's like Ken XD LOL *falls off chair* Cuz it would be a step down for the both of them. LOL Well anyway...yeah hate his wife. -.-;; foogly cunt rag. ANYWAY, that was last night, this morning...er...afternoon when I woke up, I finally got around to watching Chronical 2 that Helayne *glomp* sent to me. It was a collection of videos *YAY* and I got to see the video for Love Flies and I use to not like that song, and I have no idea why I didn't but now I do. ^.^ There was this girl that crawled over Haido when he was laying down on the floor, in a dessert background and I'm like X.@ I wish I was her. Even if I did have to wear the trampy black pleather outfit and bad red wig. Yukihiro looked SO SO CUTE in that video. Tetsu was blonde ^.^ and he walked up behind this girl and took out a cigarette from her hand and put a calla lilly in her fingers instead, and Yukihiro was like....looking for a place to plug in his headphones and he ends up plugging them into his neck...O.o;;; but he looked really cute anyway!! He was like holding his headphones and like bobbing his head back and forth ^.^ Kawaaaaiiii...

Then I saw, Stay Away, Neo Universe and Finale all which I've seen before but never hurt seeing again. In Stay Away Yukihiro pulls his leg up to his head *drool*, and in Finale Haido jus looks good, and in Neo Universe Tetsu was kawaii ^^ I also got to see the video for Anenomone which I didn't know they made a video for. It wasn't too flashy. Haido scared me for a second because his hair looked hella long, but it was just down a little past his shoulders and it looked longer because it was really straight, and it was black, blending in with is suite. Yukihiro wore a white hat and his face almost missing because he looking down and his hat hide his face. Tetsu had black hair, and he was playing his bass to the right of Haido, and it was really annoying because the light from the metal part of the bass kept getting caught by the light and shining into the camara!! X.x

Besides that Ken was sitting down and he was playing the guitar, but there was like...the worlds longest focus on him. X.x I was like STOP IT!!! Then they focused on Tetsu. ^.^ And once again, Haido could NOT stand still. He was like....going to the beat...and the song is kinda slow....so I'm like...I wonder if he realizes what he's doing. LOL He kept like, being a Pantene model, tossing his head back and flinging his hair away from his face and he...couldn't even stand still LOL. His head just got tossed a lot. I was like whoa...calm down Haido. LOL

I also got to see a extra behind the scenes thing that came on the tape, which I already saw as well. It was just cute though ^^ After that tape was over, I watched the perfomance of Spirit Dreams Inside where I realized Haido doees a much better job at singing live...better then Honey anyway. He did much better but he sorta killed it at the end X.x I was like Oh geezus. But it was good anyway. I saw that perfomance already *d/led it* but again it was great to see the interview before hand, because Yukihio has a sexy voice XD I noticed how nasel Ken is X.x and Tetsu is cuuuute hehehe ^^ So that was that. And now for Auwon's pleasure, I also saw Gackt on the same show.

His voice is hella deep and sexy XD *jumps around* *sneeze x2* Excuse me. Anyway, so he was wearing a short sleeved button green and white shirt and white pants *claps for Gackt for matching* and he did Another World and I was upset I couldn't see Ren T.T but yeah...anyway his voice is just deep and sexy. I remember when I had Napster, I d/led like 10 talking tracks of Gackt. Had no freakin clue what he was saying, but it was just sexy hearing it XD his voice is really nice. He took off his glasses to do Another World and there were camara angles of the boy's face EVERYWHERE. Side, left and right, and right in front of his face. Close up, band shot, just on Gackt shot. I was like who....I see Gackt. LOL He's so skinny *is jealous* But all in all i was wrapped in Larc more then anything.

*sigh* anyway, Imma see my Ghost on Tuuuuuuesday ^.^ I'm bringing her to class with me so we can see David LOL Jjang. LOL Ghost is jealous that David has Ghost's Toki-chu strung out. ^^;;;;;; Ah but yes, it's true, David is sexy. Wooooo okay I did nothing but drool at Haido all day. I'm gonna go write and then blog again later if hopefully I have time. ^^v laterz.

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I decided to do one of these...I'm listening to something most of the time when I blog, except now...when I started this. So yeah...^.^ Now everyone gets to know what I'm jamming to when I blog.

Auwon, I've been reading your blog for a while now. LOL hey, I don't want You, all yours and Gackt's O.o;;;and thanks for tossing Ta my way *catches Ta, huggles* WEeeeeee I love Helayne. She sent me 2 tapes which I just got today, one of them is the Larc chronical show thingy...they perform stuff...LOL who cares it's HAIDO. ^_^ And I also got a perfomance of Haido singing Spirit Dreams Inside And there's also a performance of Gackt. *Glompies again* AND she also sent me a 3 way pic of some pretty Asian boys having sex XD Not porno...but might as well. LOL So jjang.

I'm watching Fairly Odd Parents now heheehe. I love this show. So yeah, last night I didn't get anything done. I meant to, but I ended up chatting to like 50 people and getting on the phone with Pookie. I scolded Sunnie yet again for being unromantic. Man I wish I had something to d/l...but my compy is evil and isn't letting me d/l the video that Linna uploaded for me *sob* I wanna see my Ta *sob* Well speaking of which I guess I'll review the Neo Universe video. I kept meaning to review it, but I'll do it now that I have nothing else to do.

Neo Universe

1. Larc walking
It opens up by seeing Larc walking down this hallways. It's kinda cool actually ^^ The wall of the hallway reflect them ^^

2.10 Second mark
The music starts. Larc walks into a room, in all white. A girl on rollerskates is also in white. The people look normal, but the waitress/bartenders look robotic. Kinda creepy cuz they jus smile and make robot sounds, and have cool eyes XD

4. 28 seconds later
You can hear Haido sing. They're in the video because they're like a hologram of a band in the bar scene. They're wearing all red. ^_^ Haido's hair is black, kinda long slicked back, Tetsu is blonde, Yukihiro is just sexy, and Ken is....there....>.>

5. Haido clearly at 46 seconds
Since Larc is the band as a hologram, they fade in and out of the scene a lot. I guess it's a bad hologram. But, Larc is in the room. Haido sitting on a chair, (looking really sexy) as the girl with roller skates skates by him, handing him a drink. Well actually he picks it off the tray as she skates by.

6. 1.19
Tetsu is next. He's siting at the bar, waiting for a drink. The bartender who seems to be a robot and his drink pouring skills are off. Tetsu turns and looks at him, the bartender breaks the glass, Tetsu brings his head down to check him, and then snaps him back up. Ken is immediatly after him. He's sitting down having a smoke (gee what a shock.) There's a big upclose on his lighter and how he flicks it on and lights his cigarette. And then how he exhales.

7. 1.50. Computer effects shown
The whole scene fades out from a window and focuses on the "neo universe" that was created and that Haido is singing about. It's kinda cool cuz you see the place that Larc has their gig is like in this really nice building near the water. It fades back in at the 2.05 mark.

8. Stupid man
A little bit later, some guy drops the remote that turned on the Larc hologram, and it brought in some girl holograms that are now in the band, fading in and out of Larc as they perform =P stupid man -.-;;; plus it made the whole holorgram a green blue kind of color.

9. 2.26 Ken and Tetsu
They're standing there on a platform, the camara is spinning around them as they play their parts. Ken is first. Like iI sed, foogly, but mad talent. Tetsu is next. He's sorta kneeling down/slouching as he plays his bass. Then it does a slow mo thing on the both of them.

10. Yukihiro...FINALLY
At the 2.45 minute mark, you FINALLY see Yukihiro clearly. He's sitting at a chair and flips a coin. It does the whole cool coin flipping sound as the coin goes in slow mo and the girl on roller skates catches it.

11. Haido's eye
Now we sink inot Haido's eye. It's really cool. Again, nice compy graphics. We're back in the "neo universe" and we take a slight tour through the city before it jumps back to Tetsu's playing, then back on the city.

12. 4.11
Larc fades out. The video is over, so the holograms turns off. -.- booo

Good video. I love how they're all coordinated, wearing black and red and Haido wearing a red pleather outfit but with no shirt underneath. X.x sexy. ^_^ also,

http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_hyde_pictures/hydegoldenhair.jpg
Haido with long blonde hair. He reminds me of a vampire here...mostly because of the paleness, and the ghost white hair...X.x Tsubasa? XD jjang he reminds me of Marius from Blood and Gold I finished reading that btw...good book. Actually now that I'm looking at this pic more, it really does look like Tsubasa. Think of his description, the way Jia talks about him and as you're thinking, look at the pic. Pale skin, all black clothes, white blonde hair...see if you see it too. XD Oh and also, let me finish sharing my sexy Toshiya pics. X.X OMG...touch me touch me *reaches for Toshiya*

http://raisondetre_sp03.tripod.co.jp/29082001/live/to08.jpg
Looking down. I love his tummy. XD

http://raisondetre_sp03.tripod.co.jp/29082001/live/to31.jpg
From the other pic of him on the floor, that's him playing instead of just laying down.

http://raisondetre_sp03.tripod.co.jp/29082001/live/to32.jpg
Him arching off the floor XD

http://raisondetre_sp02.tripod.co.jp/29082001/press-con/to09.jpg
Him at the press confernece again. At the mic. LOL You can see his pin clearly. It says Fuck Off. LOL

http://raisondetre_sp02.tripod.co.jp/29082001/press-con/to21.jpg
Press confernece again. He looks incrediably bored btw. He's like omg...this is sooo boring...I wanna go home...LOL but then again, they all do. I don't really like Dir-en-gray too much, just some random songs, but they're pretty good. I still love Larc and Luna Sea best ^_^ Speaking of Luna Sea. I finally got the words to I for You

I love that song ^_^ Jjang. Thankies Linna for giving me the linky. *sigh* Okay I better go write before I get killed by all my readers X.x laterz.

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H.O.T

Anything W&S I.E Posters, pics, stuff...
Keychains
2nd DNA set necklace. Not the whole set, just the necklace.
Candy Mittens
1st H.O.T CD ROM
Age of Peace photo Album
H.O.T Collage Posters (I've been dying for these)
H.O.T 227 Concert Promo Poster

Kang Ta

Any tapes I.E perfomances, comeback, molla camara anything.
Any posters from Yesasia
Pictures
Postcards
Posters
Calander (he has one *sob*)
Stickers
Magazines

K-Pop

NRG's newest CD
Drunken Tiger 1
Drunken Tiger 3
Shinhwa 3
Eve 4
J 1
Eve 4
1Tym Photo Album
Shinhwa Photo Album *not the nakid one X.x

Anime

Cowboy Bebop 2nd DVD Episodes 6-10
Vampire Princess Miyu 1st DVD
Vampire Princess Miyu 2nd DVD
I'm Gonna Be an Angel
Utena the Movie DVD
FY OVA's
Blood: The Movie
Yu Yu Hakusho
Anything Vampire Hunter D (but not the movie I got that)
Ayashi No Ceres
Weiss Kruz
Angel Sanctuary the manga
Anything YAOI XD

J-rock

L'arc~en~ciel's CDs: Tieera, Heavenly, True, Heart
Hyde's solo Evergreen
Tetsu's solo
Yukihiro's solo
Anything Larc I.E pictures, posters whatever
Any Luna Sea CD that has Loveless, Gravity, 4AM, Slave, Sweetest Come Again, or I for You
Anything Luna Sea
Sugizo's Solo
Spirit Dreams Inside, the single

Misc

Meet Joe Black
Fight Club
Snatch
Anything Wooya ^^
Aaliya's last CD
A butterfly knife
Hyde's barbwire necklace
Utada Hikura's Distance
A trip to Korea XD
Kang Ta <3

I'm greedy. Well actually that's just allt he stuff I've been meaning to get and just never got around to it. I just waited till X-mas to see what I could get and then buy the rest of whatever I don't get by myself. ^.^ Be advised, some people will get this list twice, and it will prolly be revised a couple of times either shrinking or just expaning. Also, the lucky people getting presents from me ^^

1. Jun
2. Aoki
3.Gabriel
4. Ghost
5. D
6.Emanuel
7.Steve
This list will also prolly be revised. Prolly expaning. ^^. Okay thats it for now. I didn't get shit accomplished. -.-v wonderful.

And I drew this today out of boredum as I waited for class to start today.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/RandomBishie.jpg

And also I drew Jia
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/RandomBishie.jpg

Boy's Love jjang! *click*

Okay I'm done.

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I don't like not doing what I say I'm gonna do.

And the last thing in the world I need right now is to feel down. -.-;;;;;;;

Part 94- The War

I also drew Jun out earlier today.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Jun_FullBody36Moons.jpg

Anyway my prayer has been answered once again by Aeris ^_^ *glomps Aeris* I asked for the bigger version of that pic of Sugizo holding the cross and I gooooot it.

http://members.tripodasia.com.sg/i4u/fm0799-sugi19-bw.JPG
Now that's religious motovation XD

Also she gave me this:
http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugi02.jpg
You got to love a man who plays guitar...any guitar...XD

http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugizo019.jpg
Sugizo wearing nothing BUT that guitar. In color this time. *sigh* I still need to be that guitar.

And also she gave me a link to raison d'etre where I found out that, Toshiya from Dir-en-grey is a sexy sexy sexy sexy bitch. XD

http://raisondetre_sp03.tripod.co.jp/29082001/live/to10.jpg
Case in point. XD OMG *drool*

http://raisondetre_sp03.tripod.co.jp/29082001/live/to44.jpg
Look at those ABS Oh my jeeeezuz.

And if you think he looks sexy there...check him when he's NOT on stage

http://raisondetre_sp02.tripod.co.jp/29082001/press-con/to06.jpg
Prettiful XD OMG sexy sexy. *licks Toshiya* Add him on the list of people I wanna lick XD

I feel a little better but it'll only last for a little bit. The last thing in the world I wanna do is upset my dongsang Ji Hoonie who I already, unwillingly upset because he was like you're not happy? I replied, I'm never happy.

I am, but it's not like....permenate. I'm happy like it rains. Every now and then. Most of the time I'm mellow, not up not down, but any other time I'm just down. Like now. I get these random swings of unhappiness and they keep me down for sometime. I get picked up again but it's only for a while. I'm not happy. I don't know why....but I'm not.

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Anyway, I got a new oppa, same name as one of the ones I already have though. His name is Christopher. LOL he cracks me up. LOL I think I awwed him half to death though. LOL I did the same thing to Ji Hoonie LOL but he's cool.

Anyway, Ghost told my story!! BLAH, well okay let me tell it was better detail ^_^v okay, well Sunnie and Mikey were in Manahatten the other day. They were walking whatever when they run into the girl that Sunnie fucked before he was with Mikey, that confirmed his thoughts about being gay. Anyway, she had no clue that Sunnie is gay, so she started flirting with him, in front of Mikey, which needless to say made Mikey wanna swing her by the head like a dead cat. Sooooo....she continued flirting, completly disacknowledging Mikey, who was standing right next to Sunnie. So THEN, she asks Sunnie is he was seeing anyone. Mikey wanted to cut her then and there. BUT, Sunnie says he's married. *^^* awww...so the girl was like, oh you're married? When did you get married? What's her name? Mikey was like this: -.- Sunnie lifts his hand with his ring tattoo around his ring finger of Mikey's Korean name and shows it to her. She reads it and said, that's a boys name. Sunnie looks at Mikey, smiles and says "I know" The girl just looked at him weird, and Mikey grabs Sunnie's hand and says, "Yeah he's queer, thanks btw" and drags Sunnie off, mumbling under his breath. Of course Sunnie thought it was SOOO CUTE that Mikey got all heated like that. I'm like damn Sunnie of course it's cute to you. Mikey is the very jealous type....like he hates anyone that looks at Sunnie. LOL even me. LOL but I think he got over me. The only other female besides Sunnie's umma that he likes is Minni unni. So they're cute. LOL Ghost said they're like Tonhyuk. Yeah Ghost, Sunnie doesn't like Tony, he likes Hyukie. I'm like damn they're better then Tonhyuk cuz they're my friends LOL let me stop.

Anyway, what else was I gonna rant about...oh yeah, I got new pics of Sugizo. Well I got one. But he looks DAMN SEXY XD Sugizo's Pucker *muahz* sexy pout. I love his mouth LOL. *^^* I got this banner from Can it Be Sin, link on the right. It's such a pretty banner.

http://www.geocities.com/can_it_be_sin/cibs_ban_words.jpg
I love this picture. Can someone find me the bigger version of it? Man Sugizo holding a cross...XD sexy. It's not sin damnit. LOL Anyway on with my next rant.

I was thinking the other day of why people love Hee Jun. Besides him being cute, the question you can ask is what can't do. He sings, he raps, he does the beat box, he acts, he's a comedian, I'm like DAMN multi talented. He's got a lot of talent plus pics like *this* show how cute he can be. LOL He's just so pinchy. I use to like him before Ta like waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back in the day, but it's kinda amazing I don't like him now...actually I know why I don't, he's too pinchy. I think he looks squishy *^^* like Gijimo would say LOL. Not sexy enough for me, though I do give him mad ups for his talent. I have really random thoughts.

Ghost....tell me you love me.

If anyone reads 36 Moons then we all know where and who that's from XD LOL Ghost won't tell me. Or rather she did once....but she won't tell me again X.x but Aoki-chu and Gabriel dooooo ^___^

Okay done rambling. Blog again later.

I broke my nail *sob* owie....

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T.T

He was like too far for me to "naturally" catch up to him, and I get out of my car really fast to see where he came from, and I turn around...he parked right behind me!!! UGH!!! T.T I was so pissed!! Whhhhhhhhhhy didn't I look up. I could have talked to him again. *sigh*

But there's tomorrow!! WEEEE

Anyway, a couple of people filled out that incrediably long survey. LOL And I love how mostly everyone I know had the same, or simialar answer for question 71 being, when you think of this name, what does it remind you of. LOL

Ghost:71. DANIEL: lez's homewrecker.

Aoki-Chu: 71. DANIEL: That prick guy that died in 36 Moons XD

Maki: 71. DANIEL: bwahahaha the loser that died in 36 Moons XD

Ji Hoonie: 71. DANIEL: the one who died in 36 moons haha

LOL Everyone is funny. LOL MWHAHAHHAH XD

*bounce* I'm all achy and in pain. My stomach was hurting before...I think I got heartburn X.@ Owie....

LOL

The Ugly Barnical
Once Upon a time, there was a ugly barnical. He was so ugly, that everyone died. The End

LOL Patrick just said that on Spoongebob. He was trying to make Spoongebob feel better about how ugly he was. LOL

Hm...so yeah...thas about it. I have to go write. ^^v laterz.

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Okay, out of boredum I went back to the Asian Boys site (link on the right) and I fell in love with the model Justin Yau. XD He's SO PRETTY!!!!!!!

http://www.geocities.com/aunt_sophie/Justin01.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/aunt_sophie/Justin02.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/aunt_sophie/Justin04.jpg

Anyway that's him. XD AND I went on a search to see if I could find anymore pics of him. All I found was the magazine he models for which is called Propaganda. So I went to that site, and found I can order the back issue where Justin is in it XD WOOOO And this is one of the pics from it.

Justin in Propaganda

*SIGH* I got a crush on him. LOL he's too pretty. I can't help it. I'm a sucker for a pretty boy what can I say?

Speaking of pretty boys,

Haido's pretty face
It's like that ballon one from before only he's lookin this way now XD WOOOOO

I would so not mind waking up to *this*
*sigh* Lookey you can tell one of his front teeth is kinda crooked. XD awww....

Anyway after killing my printer, and then reviving it, I killed it again T.T I'm running out of ink X.x man my mom is gonna b pissed. She's gonna know why I've been printing stuff out to....la la la la >.>;;;;;;

Oh, for your enjoyment...umm..o.O;;; I guess...my random yaoi!

http://www.angelfire.com/nj3/kangtasbaby/RandomYaoi1.jpg

I have another one I need to finish before I post up. Anywayz I better go to bed....BLAH I'm being a guy again, I can't go to class tomorrow at 8 lookin cute when I'm dead tired. I'm dressing like Hyukie...fuck it...>.>

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BASICS
1. FIRST NAME: Lez
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?: A hurricane that was coming in '82. Nice thought mom...-.-;;;
3. SCHOOL: MCC
4. MASCOT: A blue colt. Geez my school is wack..
5. YOUR NICKNAME(s): Lez, Lezzie, Unni, Noona, KT's Baby, Mrs. Ahn
6. BIRTHDAY: 5.21
7. SEX: Constantly...er...I mean Fem *I wish I was a boy sometimes....=P
8. AGE: Killer One- Nine
9. GRADE: Sophomore in college
10. GPA: Wut the....who the hell should I know???
11. HEIGHT: 5'3-5'4 without platforms
12. SHOE SIZE:6 or 7 depending on the company
13. HAIR COLOR: Blondish,brownish,redish, blackish...many many dye jobs...
14. EYE COLOR:Aquamarine w/contacts, dark brown w/out
15. SIBLINGS: None. I adopt all mine
16. LAST CD YOU BOUGHT: Hee Jun's Alone
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATER: Uh...damn I 4got...been a while
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: I don't rent.
19. FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: English ^.^
20. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: MATH T.T evviiiiiill
21. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATH?: NO stupid waste of time...*grumble grumble*
22. WHO ARE YOUR BEST FRIENDS?: SFL Yakuza, and the H.O.T Yakuza. Pookie, Emanuel and KP and the crew
23. DO YOU HAVE A G/F OR B/F? : Ahn Chil Hyun ^.^
24. WHAT'S HIS/HER NAME?: See above
25. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Dun really have one...
26. FAVORITE ACTOR: Ahn Chil Hyun, Kevin Spacy, Brad Pitt
27. FAVORITE MOVIE: Interview with a Vampire ^.^, Fight Club
28. FAVORITE TV SHOW: Spoongebob Square Pants, Invador Zim, any show with Ta on it.
29. FAVORITE STORE: Bebe, Express, Morning Glory, New World Music
30. DO YOU DO ANY DRUGS?: Prescription mostly. I'm a pill popper.
31. HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST?: A couple
32. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER?: 5 minutes if I don't wash my hair, 10 if I do
33. WHAT'S YOUR FAV. PLACE TO GO ON VACATION?: I would love to go to Korea or Japan
34. FAVORITE SCARY MOVIE: Se7en XD
35. GUYS WITH OR WITHOUT HATS?: without. I dun like hats too much.
36. FAV. FOOD:Kim Bap, white rice, Bul-go-gee, pizza ^.^
37. WORST FEAR: Dying alone or just ending up alone
38. FAVORITE COLOR: Black, white, blue, gray, and green sometimes
39. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Love ^.^
40. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Love...-.-v

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF...
41. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?: More like hearing..
42. ABORTION: Pro choice but not for the reasons everyone thinks...
43. TEENAGE SMOKING: Uh...
44. EATING DISORDERS: For dumb people who think they're fat when they're like sticks...it's so not sexy.
45. RAP: Only if it's in Korean thanks. But Jay-Z is good.
46. MARILYN MANSON: he makes a prettier girl then a guy...
47. GUY BANDS: Unless they're Asian, get away...
48. DEATH: Is Forever
49. TITANIC: I am so sick of that movie...
50. JERRY SPRINGER: Eh...not as fun as it use to be.
51. RAPE: it happens...but depending on how and why, I really couldn't feel for the victim.
52. SUICIDE: The bitch way out.
53. SOUTH PARK: Wooooo TIMMY LOL Respect my author-itay...
54. GOD: If he's there, more power to him, if not then *dusts off hands* lots of well spent Sundays.

WHEN YOU HEAR THIS NAME, WHAT DO YOU THINK OF?
55. MATT: no one
56. FRED: one of my ex's...-.-;;;;;;;;;
57. ZACK: No 1
58. MEGAN: Someone very special *muahz*
59. DREW: Berrymore?
60. STACEY: Unni ^_______^
61. GRETCHEN: The swiss miss chick on the box?
62. DAVID: CHUNG!!! The doll in my English class ^.^
63. JUSTIN:Timberlake. That Nsync loser that's twisting out the Britney Spears hoe. Also, the guy D has a crush on.
64. BRAD: PITT
65. ZANE: Billy
66. HEATHER: This hoe I use to go to HS with.
67. MIKE: Sunnie's "wifey" LOL or his boyfriend, whatever....
68. CHAD:That country in Africa?
69. ASHLEY: Judd. That actress chick
70. JOSHUA:A charcter that Emanuel wrote about
71. DANIEL: The prick that died in 36 Moons MWHAHAHHA XD
72. HOLLY:Linna's roommate
73. CHRISTOPHER: KP's oppa's real name and someone close to my Ji Hoonie dongsang ^.^
74. CHARLOTTE:Church
75. JONNY: The most common name in the world
76. NIKKI: A character I wrote about
77. DO YOU HAVE A JOB?:Nope
78. WHAT COLLEGE DO YOU GO TO OR WANT TO GO TO?: I go to MCC but I wanna go to Rutgers
79. RELIGION: Suppost to be Roman Catholic...I am currently none
80. DO YOU BELIEVE IN HEAVEN AND HELL?: Yup
81. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ANGELS?: Ta's alive.
82. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS?: I'm really hoping. This planet is full or morons
83. DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?: Sometimes
84. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?: Yes. But only to ONE man
85. WHAT DO YOU DO THAT MAKES YOUR FRIENDS MAD?: Talk about Ta endlessly ^^;;;;;;;
86. DO YOU HAVE ANY STUFFED ANIMALS?: Many. ^_^
87. DO YOU HAVE ANY BAD HABITS?: A couple. I talk loudly, I swear a lot, I touch my face a lot, I play with my nails a lot, I touch other people a lot ^^;;;, I snap easily, and when I use tissues (like when I'm sick) I roll them up and wrap them in other tissues and leave them on my night stand.
88. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT?:This one in NY
89. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE HANGOUT?: Emanuel's house
90. PEPSI OR COKE?: Neither
91. LETTERMAN OR LENO:?Neither
92. MTV OR VH1: wutever has videos on
93. SPICE GIRLS OR ALL SAINTS?: neither
94. BEVERLY HILLS 90210 OR DAWSONS CREEK:Neither...
95. ANGEL OR BUFFY: see above
96. DIET PEPSI OR PEPSI ONE: See above
97. APPLES OR ORANGES: Peaches ^____^
98. CHOCOLATE OR FLOWERS: Flowers
99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LOVE SONG?: Silver Shining, A silent letter, Anata, Evergreen, Dearest Love, Anemone by L'arc~en~ciel, A Promise by Shinhwa, Polaris by Kang Ta, 4AM, I for You by Luna Sea, Ta Ta by Sugizo and Vivian Hsu, Daphne's Desend by Smashing Pumpkins, Celebrate, You and I, How Much I Need You by H.O.T
100. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAKUP SONG: Free to Fly by H.O.T
101. IF YOU COULD BE ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE WOULD YOU BE?: In Ahn Chil Hyun's arms....in his bed...nekkid XD...after making sweet love all night XD
102. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING AT THIS VERY MOMENT?: "I love Ta...*sigh* he's so beautiful..."*drool*
103. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE SONG "PRETTY FLY FOR A WHITE GUY"?: I LOVE that song. BC coined it to talk about a pretty hot white guy.
104. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?: Uh...no..
105. FAVORITE KINDS OF CLOTHES: I got lots.
106. THE LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: BC's cell
107. THE LAST TV SHOW YOU WATCHED: I'm watching Spoongebob ^____^

HAVE YOU EVER...
108. BEEN ON A PLANE: A long time ago...
109. WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: Been a while
110. CRIED IN PUBLIC: yeah...
111. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yup
112. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: never
113. FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: Nope...
114. GONE TO CHURCH: Been a while...
115. CLIMBED A TREE: see above
116. WATCHED DAWSON'S CREEK: I subjected myself to that horror ONE TIME........never agian...
117. GONE SKIING: That's movement...
118. GONE SNOWBOARDING: See above
119. FELL ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: No
120. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: many times during the summer
121. BEEN TO CAMP: NEVER X.x
122. PLAYED SOCCER: Movement? uh...I don't think so
123. BEEN TO A MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL GAME: Uh no..
124. SEEN A PRO BASKETBALL GAME: No.
125. KISSED A GUY/GIRL: Both yes ^_^
126. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHOUT ORDERING ANYTHING: Uh...no I always have to eat SOMETHING...a little nosh at least
127. EATEN SUSHI: Can't I'm allergic
128. EATEN FISH: see above
129. WANTED TO DIE: Never. I wanted everyone else to die...-.-
130. MET A CELEBRITY: Not yet...
131. MET THE PRESIDENT: No.
132. DRIVEN A CAR: Yeeeeessssss
133. DIDN'T WASH YOUR HAIR FOR A WEEK: When I was sick yeah...
134. BROKEN SOMETHING VALUABLE: Um...i don't think so..
135. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: When I was little
136. BEEN SCARED TO GET A SHOT: Ugh yeah...-.-
137. GOTTEN A CAVITY: Nope. I wasn't allowed. X.@
138. SHOPPED AT ABERCROMBIE & FITCH: Um...no
139. SHOPPED AT OLD NAVY: A couple of times
140. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: I was in love. I am in love now
141. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: Ahh...one time....
142. WATCHED MTV AT 4 IN THE MORNING: Yuup....it's called insomnia
143. TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: No.
144. MADE PRANK PHONE CALLS: Nah I have better things to do with my time
145. CAUGHT A FISH: No.
146. SNUCK OUT OF YOUR HOUSE: No.
147. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: When I was little
148. WET THE BED: No.
149. ROBBED SOMEONE'S HOUSE: Nope
150. HAD YOUR HOUSE ROBBED: Yeah when I was younger
151. BROKEN THE LAW, WHICH ONES: Yup. Robbery ( I was caught -.-v) Underaged drinking, smoking, playing hookey, vandalizism...thas about it...
152. KILLED SOMEONE IN YOUR THOUGHTS: Many times and in many different ways
153. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT: Not yet thanks God
154. BEEN BEAT UP: Uh...when I was little...
155. BEATEN SOMEONE UP: Yuup....
156. SKIPPED SCHOOL: Pheesh I did today
157. BEEN MAD ENOUGH TO PEE IN YOUR PANTS: No.
158. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND": Yup....damn females...-.-
159. STABBED SOMEONE IN THE BACK: Yeah my own cousin too. But he had it coming the bastard

WHO...
160. HAVE YOU CRIED TO OR WITH?: The Yakuza, SFL
161. IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX: Mah Aoki-chu ^.^ or Sunnie XD
162. IS YOUR FAVORITE PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT LIFE?: The SFL crew, or the Yakuza
163. DO YOU HATE?: THAT BOI OMG I HATE HIIIIIM *stab* KIM MIN HEE...*hoe* Haido's FOOGLY wife, Finkl, SES, PJY...-.- buncha hoes...
164. MAKES YOU ANGRY?: See above. And liars, close minded people, ignorant people, haters and stupid people
165. IS THE LAST PERSON THAT YOU SAID "I LOVE YOU" TO?: Um...Ji Hoonie ^.^ In my last blog anyway...
166. IS THE LAST PERSON TO TELL YOU THAT THE LOVE YOU?: Maki and Helayne last night
167. IS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED AND WHEN?: Emanuel, on the cheek, when I left his house this morning
168. WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET?: Ahn Chil Hyun ^_____^
169. DO YOU MISS?: D. And all of the Yakuza
170. DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: THAT BOI....no wait...I stopped wishing death on him...just painful things on him...Just any cunt rag that touches my Ta
172. IS THE NICEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: D, and Maki, my Ji Hoonie, Helayne
173. IS THE MEANEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: Me. ^.^v
174. IS THE UGLIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: Um...do I know ugly people?
175. IS THE CRAZIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: The YAKUZA BABY!!
176. WAS THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SMILE?: Ji Hoonie ^^

ESSAY QUESTIONS
177. WHAT DO YOU THINK THE MEANING OF LIFE IS?: To find completle and total happiness.
178. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS MEAN TO YOU?: Everything.
179. WHAT DOES GOD MEAN TO YOU?: Too much to start babbling about here....but not in that "holy rightious religious" way.
180. WHO ARE THE TOP TEN PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE?:
1. Ahn Chil Hyun
2.D
3.BC
4. Linna
5. Ghost
6. Maki
7. KP -entire crew included but him 1st ^^-
8. Emanuel
9. Pookie
10. Helayne
181. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: This dude in my English class David Chung ^_^
182. WHATS HIS/HER NAME?: David Chung. He's a crush I.E fleeting moment, fling, temp, situation. Ta is forever <3

DAMN that was long as hell....OMG....never again....X.@ Imma go write now....

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This is You (pronounces Yo long O sound with a accent I'm assuming) I got this from Auwon's Blog and she said no touchies but...*touch touch touch* he looks so sexy there XD I'm actually not into You that much, but he looks sexy there. Besides, Sugizo is the sexiest violin player ever XD *licks Sugizo*

Hung Lo asked for my Sn, Hung Lo asked for my SN *dances around* wooooooooo him and his fine sexy self XD OH YEAH...

I look like shit. It looks like I rolled out of bed. MWhahahahhaa....well I better go pick up my mother...ah fuck I forgot to change the towels in the bathroom. Ah fuck it. My poor Ji Hoonie dongsang couldn't sleep last night. Aw...a stupid cat was in his house (he's allergic) and he didn't sleep well =( His obviously not smart and satanic like sister brought the evil animal in...-.-* *kicks Ji Hoonie's not smart sister* ^_____^ lub you dongsang *^^*

Okay Gotta go ackkk my mom's gonna kill me!! *runs to car*

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But basically I have been upgraded from a Lemon Empress to a Lemon Goddess because of Kara. Since I'm a Goddess and Ta, an Angel, Gijimo and Janie are children of deities. I wonder what that makes them? Hehehe

The famous H.5.T Forum has opened once again. I'll put the link up on the sides soon because I support my Gijimo...even though I don't really like, like 1/2 the people in that dam forum. LOL

Part 92- All I Wanted
Before I forget to post it. Hehehhhee

I know I haven't been posting a lot of Ta pics...though I really should have been. But I've been running on empty. Today I just got graced with lots and lots of caps ^^ So I'll share from my sources.

Ta looking scholarly
And looking so damn sexy doing so. XD

http://members.tripod.lycos.co.kr/lliiliiliill/jkt2.jpg
(Copy and Paste this one) These are caps from the new Yoo Young Jin video. He's lookin rather scruffy here. And though I always said it would be a turn off seeing him with facial hair, it's not that bad. It looks rather sexy XD but as long as he doesn't keep it for a long time! It's just like Haido all over again (only Haido looked like he had dirt on his face)He has no buisness growing facial hair =p

http://members.tripod.lycos.co.kr/lliiliiliill/jkt.jpg
More caps of the video. Here he's a clown (the sexiest clown I've ever seen XD) And he's lookin scruffy still. I have to get this video and see why he's a clown and why this dumb hoe Eugene kisses his cheek..-.- Im not that mad though (even though I still wanna gut her from thigh to neck) but Hee Jun got more play then that...so...yeah..Im not too mad.

Ta in Paris
These are never before seen clips. You can see his fatherhood qualities appear in the bottom of the caps. He's so good with children ^.^

Ta giving blood
He looks like he's in pain X.x Gijimo said she wanted his blood. Me on the other hand, I'm more worried about his other bodily fluids XD

I have more caps of him at some children's party (aww thas so sweet...I hate fuckin kids...) and he's all cute..smiling and having fun. *^.^* -SNEEZE- OW....my rib cage jus cracked OWiiiiiiiiieeeeeee Ji Hooooonnnn....my rib cage jus cracked X.x I hiope nothing broke in there. -SNEEZE- OW...-SNEEZE- OW.....just to let you people know, sneezing for me -SNEEZE- OW, is like the most painful thing. My rib cage and lungs always end up hurting Ow....T.T

OH and today, I drew a pic of Gabriel and Tai for Maki's layout for Sweet Rain, her own page. So whenever she has it up, my srawing will be the layout. ^^ *feels special* Anyway this is the drawing.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/GabrielxTai_SweetRain.jpg
I liked the way Gabriel's eyes came out. ^_^

Anyway, I finally got Tai to blog at the Yakuza Blog so...yeah check it out whenever you people get the chance. ^^ Ow...no my nose feels all stuffie. =P blah I hate sneezing. Weee 2morrow it's off to Emanuel's house for breakfast and napping. ^.^ then Weds I have History, Health and Math..*SIGH* not so bad...I hate History though...blah.

Oh, today, a plane went down in New York, in Queens, where Sunnie and Mikey happen to live. Luckily for me, the plane went down in Rockaway a different part of Queens. Sunnie and Mikey live in Flushings, so they were fine. A little shaken but, okay. Sunnie called me before I even had the chance too. He told me he was fine...which I was grateful for. Sunnie is now considering moving out of NY all together. I'm kinda glad he is. I can't be having my heart jumping up in my throat all the time. It's not enough that I have Pookie living in NY, but Sunnie and Mikey too? Oi...Imma die from all this worry. =P So yeah Linna, we're all fine on the East Coast *muahz*

I'm off...I finished my last pudding snack X.x *sob* I feel fat and pregnate......>.> *looks at Ta*

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OMG...thats the reason I became yakuza.

I'm anti-teeny bopper. I don't hate them, I don't have anything....well okay I'd be lying if I said I didn't have anything against them, but I don't hate them. I just....rather not be called one and I feel insulted if I am called a teeny bopper. To me, my definiation of a teeny bopper is a girl, who will scream and jump up and down at the site of their picture...*I scream but entiely different reasons. And most of the time I'm oogling* one who is at the concerts or shows, screaming and crying uncontrolablly, jumping up and down as they scream whoever's name, singing every freaking song so loud, there's no real point for whoever to be performing. A teeny bopper is one that runs out and makes friends with fellow fans, has fantasies about marrying whoever, and is generally around the age of 16 and under. A teeny bopper is one who joins fan clubs, pledges "undying" loyalty and when the next best fad comes along, they repeat the process.

It's why I wanna punch the shit out of someone when they call me a bopper.

I am the anti-bopper

I live by the knife because I can't conceal a sword

It is because of the prepubesent flocks of little girls, that I turned away from it and started my own crew. The yakuza exisist as the anti-boppers.

We for the most part, do not scream and shout and "faint" and become friends with fellow fans. We scream but for our own pleasure, we shout but at other fans to get the hell out of the way and to shut the hell up, we do not befriend our fellow fans...we despise them and rather shove them into oncoming traffic then become their friends. We're mean, we're violent, and we do not like to share. *GLOMPS Yakuza* I love them. *^^*

Anyway, what else was I gonna say...oh yeah...next layout...I think I'll pay tribute to the fact that I am the anti-bopper. But that's not for a while now ^_^v

I stayed in bed all day today. ^_^ I watched Miss Conginality, and Titan A.E, Rugrats All Growed Up special, and then a marathon of Invador Zim. WEE I love Invador Zim. I watched most of it before I went online. BC called me just as I got on and she asked me if I was going to watch Feast of All Saints, but I never read the book so I didn't want to watch it. I really should read the book though. I love Anne Rice. Anyway, I loved staying in bed..I was like being a lazy sack of shit all day. I only got up to shower and then have a couple of snacks. *yawn* but other then that, I did nothing.

Wah...Kara isn't getting my baby's album! X.x damn you Kara. =P I bought your spooty THAT BOI's album....I know it made you happy and you don't even do this for me!! At least my baby's album was good for more then 3 songs.....-.- And plus Ta is just a big hopeless romantic *sqeeee...like me ^^* so of course he's not gonna have many fast songs. Has one though...and that's good. T.T you're mean Kara. Fine don't get his album =P see if I don't play frisbee with THAT BOI's...well I won't because that would be a waste of money...well it is just sitting in my shelf now anyway...but blah....I have it. Now it's just sitting there after I listened to it. Geez I wanna strangle him hearing some of his songs. =P Blah...anyway I'm gonna go wrire. Laterz.

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Part 91- Back to My Second Home

I dunno, when I was bored I went to the Hyde Photo Gallery (link on the right) and I picked out a couple of pictures. I was jus bored. I'm also mad at myself for not picking these out sooner.

Haido in black leather
You have go to love a man who looks that good in dead cow.

Possibly the cutest pic of Haido in the world
He's soooooooooooooo kaaaaaaaawaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiii in this pic. I jus wanna pinch him.

Haido doing what he does best. Being sexy
You have go to love a man that can look that good doing nothing more then leaning back.

I so seriously need to search that site better. Anyway, I talked to Kara today!!! YAY!! *GLOMPS KARA* She's my sweetness and I lub Kara. *GLOMP again* I missed talking to her. She's my heart. Anyway she too is encouraging me to talk to David...ah....how easier said then done. She said I am the Lemon Goddess (I have moved from royality to deity now) and I should be able to talk to him. Ah but the Lemon Goddess is extremly bashful and shy when it comes to sexy rich guys with nice asses. LOL I need help. I'm so handicapped.

I need to make a Christmas list. For myself and for people. Look God damnit. Imma tell everyone right now who's buying me presents, I do NOT like surprises. They're aren't fun for me. And those of you who think it's real fun to not tell me, man do you piss me off. *coughcoughcoughBCcoughcough* The reason for me making the fucking list is me telling you what I want, and then you telling me what you're getting me, so someone else doesn't it get it for me. X.x geez. And you people better start thinking what you want because I'm not gonna go to the mall all extra late and get something. I'll make the list later. I might as well email it to everyone getting me presents. ^____^ because anyone that gives me presents, I get them presents.

Sunnie is the weirdest person. He IMes me to talk to me for like 20 minutes. And the first thing he says to me whenhe IMes me is "I JUST HAD SEX" like it's his first time or something. LOL He goes on to explain what happened, how it was, and how he's "yogurt" now. Ah...long story. Anyway he says it, then he goes. I'm like he's a werido.

Today, or yesterday since it's now the AM, was Ji Hoon's birthday! YAY *throws confetti in the air* I didn't remember until way later and I felt so bad because he told me before and I forgot. T.T I felt bad. So I decided to talk about him here....again. LOL I know people are scolding me now saying I just started talking about him with no real explantion on who he is. Short and sweet: He IMed me abotu 36 Moons saying he read it, and liked it. ^__^ We started talking, I have a new dongsang who calls me noona and is incrediably cute. *^^* *pinches Ji Hoon*. As a result of his name, I can't nickname him...I refuse to call him "Hoonie" because that's what everyone calls THAT BOI X.x blasphmy I say. I refuse to call my dongsang after THAT BOI...so I need to think of a very cute nickname for him. *^^*

So...yeah...am I done rambling? I'm done rambling...yeah...yeah I'm done. *yawn* time for bed. I must nap...slumber...must rest eyes. OH WAIT...*remembers*

There's a Japanese actor...named...AH FUCK I forgot his name!!! Oh it's Matsuda Ryuhei, he was in this movie (that I am now dying to see) called Gohatto (means Taboo) and he's just very pretty. I'm not saying he's all like Ta/Haido sexy, but he's so pretty. I have clips of his movie, and I'm like bweeeeeeeeeeee he's pretty!!! As soon as I find a decent pic of him I'll post. He's pretty ^^

Okay...now I'm done.

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Anyway, I went to Kara's blog, she got her layout changed. Also she's closing down Purachina...I'm not really surprised because Kara's attention span is like that of a five year olds when it comes to pages. LOL I <3 U Kara. ^^v And, she's been sick. It's like the cold session, I'm terrfied pf being sick next. My sweetie Ji Hoon is sick, Maki is feeling sick, Kara was sick....T.T damn man....I hope no one else gets hit by the sickness.

Anyway, I got a pic of Ji Hoon ^.^ but I can't show anyone. I promised I wouldn't. I'll just go on and on about how cuuuute he is ^.^ *pinches Ji Hoon* he's so cute and smooshy I jus wanna pinch him for real. Hehehehe but speakin of pics, I drew this for Gijimo cuz she has a crush on Tsubasa. XD The don of the Yami in 36 Moons. So I thought no one would appericate it more then her. ^^

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Tsubasacrawl_Yami.jpg

I really have to draw more. I started drawing Jun today, but I got distracted. Emanuel said he would draw some special art for 36 Moons and I was like YAY *bounce bounce* My dad was watching Ghost before, the movie, and I'm like *sob* I hate this movie. It's so sad. I cried. ^^;;; ahhhhh I'm such a girl. =P

*sigh* no one is online...-.-;;;;;; no one I wanna talk to anyway....maybe G, but he seems busy otherwise he'd IM me. I haven't spoken to Mickey in like forever...blah. Anyway...yeah I'm gonna go write up Finale so I can send it out tonight. And then write up 36 Moons. Laterz.

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http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Party.jpg

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Party2.jpg

Mwahahah you can see my gray eyemake up. It's a lot thinner now because I kept rubbing my eyes forgetting it was there ^^;;;; duuuur...

So anyway, I got Yukihiro's (the drummer from L'arc~en~ciel) solo song yesterday called Ring the Noise which is more or less a poem. Yukihiro barely sings, he more like talks to the beat of the song. His voice is NIIIIICE. XD and the beat to the song is phat. Also, I'm not waiting for Haido's 2nd single to drop soon. It's called Angel's Tale and I'm DYING to hear it. LOL I think I listened to Honey like 50 kajillion times today. ^^ Fun...I love this song.

Part 90- Japan: A Night with an Angel

I had to post something up. Espically since I won't be sending out Finale tonight. X.x I won't have time to finish it. BLAH...sorry everyone. My heads a little too. X.x blah...note to self...never go to anymore wack parties. =p Laters.

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*GLOMPS LINNA* I lub mah Linna. Mah AOKI-CHU

AOKI-CHU LOVES TOKI

In her blog, she was talking about maybe even THINKING of transffering to NJ and I'm like OMG!! *screams bouncing up and down* I'm sorry if Linna moved anywhere close to driving distance from me, I would....so not be home. LOL she sed she felt close to me...and I so agree...I feel close to her too. When she calls I feel so special because hey she could call anyone but she calls me. ^.^ aw...I feel loved. I also know she was sad...=( stupid Eh-gi *kicks Eh-gi to Hawaii for Linna* LOL hmm...considering I can hardly move a ball with my foot...imagine a person. Maybe I'll jus spring for the box with holes in it. ANYWAY let me get to my point.

1. Hung Lo wrote me back @.x
As in TOTAL DAZE!! I wrote him a email jus saying he was sexy XD which he is, and he wrote back askin for my AA SN. Which I don't have because I jus do KP's page, it's not mine. So I just told him I had a AOL SN which is my email addy...duh...soooo....let's see what happens from there.

2. Ji Hoon is the biggest cutest sweetie
I was talking to him yesterday. He's so cute. I swear when he calls me noona and I'm like AWWWWWWWW...^______^ hehe okay I wanna pinch him. He's so adorable. I have a feeling he'd blush so easily. He reminds me of KP. ^^

3. I have a party to go to tonight.
This guy from high school I use to wanna just...jump his bones (his name is Simon) he's gonna be there. He was the cutest thing in the world..well not cute, just sexy. And all I wanted was his body. God knows he didn't have anything else to offer. He was a fob, he was an idiot, he was kinda shallow and self centered/absoarded but he was sexy XD so I just wanted him. He never gave me the time of day, even though everyone and they MOMMA told him that I didn't want a reltionship, I didn't want him to b my man, I just wanted ONE NIGHT. I think he's gay....but anyway, he never paid me no nevermind =( but I'm more then likely gonna see him tonight. Annnnnnnd me being the little snobby, stuck up, arrogant bitch I can be, I will stroll on by him and disacknowledge his presence. MWHAHAHAH. I'm not even staying long...just like 1-2 hours at the most.

4. I wanna see David *sob*
My Tuesday class is cancelled for next week. So I don't get to see him until THURSDAY!! *sob* UGH just when I FINALLY started talking to him too. -.- Aoki-chu aren't your PROUD? *^^* *beams* I talked to him...woooo *does 1Tym dance* Thas jus fuckin fabulous.

Bweeeeeeeeeeee........okay well....hm...okay I'm done for now. I have to go pick up my mom from work. Hopefully, I'll be able to send a chap of Finale out tonight before I go to the party...but if anything I'll be back early...so...yeah. Laterz.

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No one that I really wanna talk to is online...-.- how boring is that. I just went through a whole bunch of people's blogs that I really don't know that well nor I could give 2 flying fucks about...but just for the sake of me being completly bored and lonely, I went to check out some blogs. I noticed a pattern. A lot of people who are really, really interesting, I.E: who have GREAT BEAUTIFUL talent in making graphics and also have something interesting/funny to say, don't blog as much as they should. And people who really have no real purpose in having a blog, blog up the ass. I gotta wonder if I'm one of those people. They just read my blog and be like ugh who cares? Well not that I care or anything because obviously if I did, I'd try to blog about something universal. But I could care less because this is my blog, and if you're reading this, and you don't care what I have to say....why are you STILL reading? ^^ You gotta love people's stupidity.

Anyway, yeah....I think esca has the banging blog layout right now. I didn't link her...though I really should ask her about it. She's got the banging layout, her blogs are...well I dunno. I don't know the girl very well. I just know she's nice. Well..actually I don't know that either. She had my jekkie fics posted up when her site was up. That was good enough for me damnit. But yeah...anyway...

T.T I wish Ji Hoon was online. I dunno what he's up to. He was on before...but I guess he got bored of me, left. hahahaa Mike IMed me after a kajillion years just to let me know he was working out. I'm like thinking are you trying to impress me? >.>;;;;;;;; annnnnnnd of course the continuing parade of 15 yr old girls....*rolls eyes* I was telling Ji Hoon how I really really don't like Ta fans. Nothing personal, just the bitch in me that must stand like a rabid pitbull guard dog in front of Ta. I also made a mental note to go out and buy a REAL knife. I need a switch blade or a butterfly knife. I want one like Christine has. I really want a knife. If I'm going to continue to say "I'll cut the bitch..." then I might as well have the blade to back up my shit. I'm tired of just saying when I can start doing. -.-v

I'm writing...well I'm suppost to be, writing 36 Moons and I'm like....X.x stuck. I have NO IDEA what to do right now. I'm like...OMG....and I'm staring at this blank page in front of me with the words Part 93- in front of me. I don't even have a title for the fucking thing. (I'm 3 chaps ahead of everyone on this fic btw) so now I'm like greeeeeeat. I think I should add a guest book to this thing...>.> not a bad idea. A counter would be nice too. I never get around to these things when I say I will. I just have random thoughts in my head sometimes and I never go do them. I get distracted so easily.

*bounce* I LOVE THIS SONG. *bouncing to Desire* I love it because in the perfomance Ryuichi and Sugizo kiss and Sugizo gets that dopey look on his face which is sooo kawaii. In Loveless he does this really werid...like slouched back, on toe kinda thing as he plays the guitar. And Ryuichi is trying to be Haido because he's doing the Haido foot stop as he sings. I'm like ah you're wack. You can't do the Haido foot stomp right. Kinda like the Haido wiggle. During Stay Away Haido does, what I have dubbed the Haido Wiggle. He just...moves his torso and shoulders a lot. And in Spirit Dreams Inside he does the Haido Foot Stomp. In which he holds the mic with both hands and stomps his one foot up and down as he sings. I also noticed, like any sterotype of an Asian man, he has no ass. Which is okay because he's fuckin sexy and he can do that.

*celebrates because Ta does have an ass*

He got a little bubble butt. XD Unlike Junie who's ass is just big. Baggy pants are meant to be baggy all over...he fills the back of them...>.> and of course we all know Tony's MASSIVE lack there of. I swear Junie stole his. *shakes head* anyway, I wander from the point, Haido has ADD. But I think I claimed this a million times already. OMG I saw more pictures of his FOOGLY wife. It only recomfirms my thoughts that she's FOOGLY. Man she hurts my feelings. It's not a good thing...well okay never mind. There's a rumor saying that she's PREGNATE...X.X she's gonna have his puppy...er..baby. I'm like OMG *does Sign of the Cross* PLEASE if the rumor is true, but we're all praying it's not, LET THAT CHILD LOOK LIKE HAIDO. *Blesses child, throws Holy Water over it* Can I get an AMEN? OMG...I really do pray that child looks like him. I was telling my mom, and she's like if it's a girl, it'll look like Haido, if it's a boy, it'll look like the mother. I'm like...well...in a Japanese case, aren't most boys prettier then the girls? NO OFFENSE, but after the stacks and stacks of pictures I've seen of REAL, everyday Japanese girls, and Japanese celebreties....they're all like....trying TOO HARD to be cute...I'm not saying that for everyone (because that would just be stupid)...but then again....Korean female celebrities aren't that pretty either..but the Korean real, everyday girls are...so...hm...okay anyway, it's not cool that Haido's would be puppy..er child, could have a 50-50 chance of looking like him, or not looking like him. *falls and hands and knees* please let that child look like him. I'm sorry...the bitch is ugly. She's just...DAMN...she hurts my feelings. And I'm not just saying this because she married Haido (though it does play in effect) but because SHE REALLY IS UGLY. *shakes head* I'm sorry if I had the money, I would NOT stay lookin like that. Okay...I'm rambling.

I STILL love this song. *dances around* Gravity is the shit. You know I just noticed that I reviewed Hee Jun and Shinhwa's albums but not Ta's? That's easy...because I like everything about Ta's album. I don't listen to it religiously because it's too slow for me to drive with, so I either drive to Hee Jun, Larc or Shinhwa, but I do listen to it when I need to be inspired, or when it's raining and I'm home, or when I'm just feeling smooshy inside. *^.^* So...yeah...hm...wow OH let me say how when I was doing my in class essay today, I was quoting something and I was going off on some jag...and I suddenly lost my train of thought. I was like *write write write...looks up* uhh....*looks back down* What the hell was I saying? I was like oh shit...that's bad....

Okay so I ran off at the mouth for a while. Time to wrap it up. I'll blog laters to post up 36 Moons if I ever write a chapter tonight X.x.

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Part 89- Going Home

Oh and yesterday I took some web cam pics because I was just hella bored. I think they look nice ^^ hehehehe I also look pale in all of them except the 3rd one.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Pale_me.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Pale_me2.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Pale_me3.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Pale_me4.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Pale_me5.jpg
So...yeah...I like my pictures. Bwweeeeeeeeee I have to blog about today!! LINNA....I talked to him!!!!

Okay so my mom stayed home today, I was able to wake up later then usual and take my time getting ready, had a cup of coffee, got in my car, put Larc's Real in and went to classd. I found some parking, went to the building I had class in and then chilled. I met up with this guy named Bishop from my English class and this girl Pam who's also in my class. We go to class and we remember we have an in class essay. When we start it, I look over at David a couple of times, and I felt SO BAD for him! Everyone, including me had already started. I was on my 3rd page of my exam book and he had not even opened his. I guess he had a hard time knowing where to start. I filled the whole exam book and then I looked at my friend Pam and she gave up and closed the book. We got up and so did David and handed everything in. We also got some papers back. Me and Pam were looking at the papers we got back and we got C's. Then Pam turns to David (cuz she knows I like him) and she's like, hey, how did you do on the test thing? He's like I bullshitted through the whole thing. LOL (gaw he even curses really cute ^.^) And then I'm like I filled up the whole book. He's like oh cool. Then he said he said it was hard. (awww..) and then I was like, what did you get on your paper? He shows it to me and our proff. wrote comment on them and me and Pam couldn't reading his hand writing, so I look at David's comment (His full name is David Chung ^.^) and I couldn't read the handwriting I was like, trying to read it and I was like durr...lol and then he read the one word I couldn't, and I was like oh you can read his handwriting. LOL he's so cute. Then we had to leave, (me and Pam) so when we went out the door, I was like omg he's sooooo cute...LOL and Pam laughed at me. She was like I had to start the convo, hoping you'd jump in. ^.^v and I diiiiiiid. Linna b proud. I made a vast leap forward. LOL

So that was my morning. I called Emanuel right afterwards to let him know. He was all happy for me. LOL ah, and so is Ji Hoon. New friend, new friend! Hehehhe he's so sweet. ^.^ anyway, what else happened....um..I dunno I'm kinda swooning in my David morning. *SIGH* He's so cute. (Blue jeans, camel colored coat, white shirt *sigh* such a nice body) anyway...uh OH YEAH, I found a new site yesterday..well 2 new ones. But one of them was this Larc site called e-larc-en-ciel LOVERs which I will link on the side soon. I loved it. It had all these prettiful Haido pics. ^^ I'll post up some of my favorite ones, but you can go to the site yourselves and check it out.

Haido looking wasted
I wanna be the bed...>D but yeah he looks...dead..or high or wasted or something in this pic. I still wanna be the bed though >D

Haido in a tub of roses
My girl Luz said it looks like a CK ad. I lub it though.

Haido's very pretty face
Even though it's not just Haido here, (Ken is on the left, Tetsu on the top) you can tell how old this pic is just by the way Ken looks. On a guy, I love the whole neck/collarbone/throat area and I love that, that's what Haido happens to be showing off. *DROOL* sexy sexy. Plus his eye make is soo pretty.

Haido's BAD outfit
Remember a little while ago, I was talking about how J-rockers can't dress themselves? Well...here's a prime example of Haido's bad taste. X.x this outfit just hurt my feelings. I know he's color blind...but damn....

Haido with...some animal on his head
I don't know what that thing is...but it looks so fuckin sexy on his head. XD

Haido throwing his head back
I LOVE this picture. It looks so freakin sexy. Like he's in the throughs of passion XD *DROOL*

Haido with a ballon on his nose ^.^
I wish I was that ballon...XD but this is such a cute cute pic.

Wide eyed Haido
KAWAII DESU!!! He looks sooo cute. One of the cuuutest pic of Haido ever ^_______^ *pinchy Haido*

L'arc~en~ciel...animated
Lookie all them!! Plus, even Ken looks really good. ^.^ Cute cute.

*sigh* well...okay thas it for now. I'm wallowing in my David-ness now. LOL cuz I'm such a dork. I feel like I'm back in high school sometimes...=P okay Imma go write for a while. Blog laters....if pitas doesn't end up hating me =P

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Anyway, today, I went to History...I fell asleep..X.x I was so tired I jus passed out on my notebook. Then I went to health. Turns out we had a test that was SO bloody easy. I finished in like 10 minutes. So then I went to the building where I have math and took out my CD player and popped Ta's CD and jammed to Polaris as I daydreamed a little. Then something reminded me to check this assignment we were gonna do in math today, and I reach in my bag...nothing. I didn't have the fuckin thing with me! And that's all we were gonna do in class. I figured, wtf is the point of me going to class without the assigment for me to sit on my ass and feel stupid. So I ran out, and ran to my car, and drove off. I went to Emanuel's house. It was 10:20 when I got there. ^_^ He made me breakfast! ^^ Weeeeee I had pankcakes with cinnimon and on the side, some bacon. Weee Emanuel can cook. Shit was GOOD XD I had like 3 pancakes and like 5 pieces of bacon. So then anyway, we chilled in his room and cracked up about my "blag" (I meant to say blog, I said blag) and his "stig" (meant to say stoge) and how I was "trying to be cool" and toss a pillow near the end of the bed so I could lay down but it ended up flying off the bed. And we cracked up for about 5-10 minutes on just that alone. OH and Emanuel's "Not bad word" LOL okay you had to be there...but it was so fuckin funny. It was so nice to chill with him for like almost 4 hours. ^_^

Then I went home. I was suppost to hang with Robbie, but I didn't wanna and plus he didn't call me...so I was like oh darn..*snaps fingers* Blah wutevers.

UGH AOKI-CHU, you have no idea how "certain someone" is have SUCH female moments. STill getting her ego stroked btw...and yeah....I'll have to explain it better later...but..I'm doing this >.> a whole lot now. AND NO WOMAN I love when you call me. ^.^ makes me feel special. Hehehe *^.^*

Yesterday I spent a good long time talkin to my Gijimo I lub her *glomp* and yeah....she asked me when I go to Korea, how do I plan to get Ta's attention. I'm like well...the fact that I'm not even Asian shoould help. That I'm cutting everyone in my way XD plus, thigh highs do not hurt. MWhahahaha >)* Ebil...lol but he's MINE damnit. LOL I was tellin Emanuel, yeah guess what, I love Ta. ^.^ He's like -.-;;;;;;; I've been hearing that for almost 4 years now...I'm like WAIT TILL WE GET MARRIED!! I'll call you at 3 in the morning and be like *whisper* Emanuel, guess what. I luv Ta ^.^ LOL I'm on crack. Today was a good day. Morning..whatever.

Whatelse was I gonna say....oh dude, it seems to be the cheating season...(Ghost your blog..Yakuza biz, what I jus tol you guys *coughcough*) you know what I'm getting at. Anyway, yeah cheating season all over the place. Blah...good thing I don't have a man right now, otherwise I'd castrate him...-.- I had enough of guys cheating on me. Let's just say, (5th door, 9th gate) that Ta cheated on me. PITY HIM first of all. Because I wouldn't leave him. I'd just hold it over his head for the rest of his life. And bring it up evvvvvverrrrrryyy chance I got. And mourn the girl he does it with. I'd cut the bitch. MWHAHAH Gijimo you know your umma is violent. LOL Janie already knew that. But yeah...I'm evil...>)

la la la la

Man I have to go pick up my mom. *SIGH* oh well. I guess my "me time" is up...gaw X.@ I was watching The Red Violin too. I love this movie. I have it on tape...XD but it's on HBO now...maan. =( oh well. Later.

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My daughter made me a new layout. (My other daughter, not Janie but i love her toooo *glomps Janie*) Gijimo made this for me, jus cuz she lubs me *^^* You can now hear MY BABY singing Polaris as you read my bloggy. Fun fun *^^* I luv the layout. Never had I had Ta...there. *^^* He's so pretty and perfect...me an Gijimo already had this convo. *Perma GLOMPS Ta* *sigh* Bwwwwwweeeeeeeeeee hehehe I can finally stop bitchin about a new layout. Mwhahhaha

Part 88- Set my Name in Stone

Okay, I promised Linna I would talk to David. And I did. In English, we had a test today and my proff stepped out. So we all decided to cheat off each other. I asked the few people around me who got number 3. Then I asked him. He laughed and was like, I didn't even get past 2 yet. LOL okay so THERE we talked. LOL. Linna said talk not conversate. Mwaahahaha loophole loophole. Then I left, and I went to Emanuel's house. His mom wasn't there to sodimize our day so we chilled on his bed and talked. Then I went home and cracked open my boring ass German Navy during the WWII book and did my 6 paged bullshited paper. It sucks so much ass....but hey I did everything I was suppost to...except actually read the book but that's neither here nor there.

My boy Robbie called me and let me know about the party that me and Emanuel are going to this Friday. *sigh* Man I know a lot of people I know are gonna be there....so it's okay. Tomorrow I might end up hanging out with him, so hopefully, he'll let me know what's up. I don't really wanna...but eh..it gets me out the house.

Anyway, I guess I'm done wallowing in my ultra Ta-ness *swoon* Blah 2morrow I have History and Health and Math. Blah...crap...I hate History and Math. Hopefully all will go well and I will see David in the morning. ^_^ *sigh* Laterz.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

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