This Weds. I have class. Due to academic restriction I can only take 2 classes...>.>;;;; that's my own fault though. I went through hell and back Friday morning with Steve trying to get my scheduale fixed. After I went through getting my appeal approved, and then signing up for classes, I go to get my new scheduale fixed only to tell me I owe 105$ for registration. That was on Thursday. So on Friday, 9:30 in the morning, I get up and I go with Steve to school again, check in hand to pay off my registeration so I can register and get my scheduale since Friday was the last day to do it. I go to pay when they tell me it's not 105$ it's 1,105$ -.- the idiot woman told me the wrong price. SO I had to pay half or all. My mom not having enough for all, gives me half. But OH, I had to leave school in one town, and cut across it to go to another town so I could go to my mom's job, get ANOTHER check go BACK to school, all the while making Steve speed because it was 11 in the morning now we had got to my school at 10 and it took almost 20 minutes to get back to school. It was 11:30 by now. So I go back to pay, new check in and hand and THEN (because this is how fucking sadistic my school is) they tell me my whole sceduale had been canceled. I was no longer enrolled. I'm staring at this woman who told me this and I'm like ready to pull back and break the plexiglass between us so I can attack her and beat her with my shoe but Steve was like holding my shoulder because he saw the murdering look I was giving this woman. I go off, saying why couldn't you people tell me this the FIRST time I was here? HOW can my shit be cancled if for the past FOUR DAYS I've been running all over getting appeals approved, getting my classes dropped and added for the whole thing to be gone! GIMME ME BACK MY CHECK I'm about to go get this shit fixed. But the woman tells me to relax and says she'll give me something that will reenstate my scheduale and then takes my check, pays off my bill and then gives me my paper. I go to get my scheduale fixed, and now I'm done. Time leaving: ! 12:10PM.

I was pretty much pissed off the whole time, but I was so grateful to Steve who took me across 3 towns, and stood with me to get my scheduale fixed AND even took me to Dunkin Donuts to I could get some coffee and a bagel. *sigh* I owe him a present. I love Steve ^.^ I love Emanuel who called me later that day asking if I needed a ride to school that afternoon. ^.^ He's the one that took me the 1st two times. *sigh* So yeah now everything is fixed. -.-

It snowed today too. A lot of snow. i was home sleeping by then...so I missed the start of the storm. But this is me, caring deeply. >.>
Riiiiiight. *yawn* I slept a lot today...from like...12-5PM and 2 hrs before that from 3-5AM. At 6 this morning, I got a phone call from someone. I was pissed off, thinking I can't get no sleep...so I sat up and picked up my phone and answered. I heard somone go hey. Where you sleeping? In the groggy state I was in, I had no idea who it was, so I was like, No I'm always wide awake at 6 in the morning. Then he goes, sorry I forgot how early it was there. Then I'm like who is this? It was Hye Sung. He called me from Korea. I guess I should explain a little, without using full detail. KP oppa is depressed. His halmunni recently passed away and he also suffered another blow before hand when BC broke it off with im a few weeks earlier. When Hye Sung called, someone who's voice I had not heard in almost 2 yrs since he left for Korea, I thought something bad had happened. He called to let me know that KP was diagonsed as having clinical depression. Due to recent events, Hye Sung had to take him to the hospital (not a suicide threat if that's what ur thinking) it was because he had a wound that was infected. So he got some psychological treatment and he was told he was clinically depressed. Hye Sung has not been able to sleep for two days because he's been watching KP. He has to wake him up and make him eat and keep him up..it's so sad because my oppa use to be such a light happy person. Now he's wasting away and depressed and I feel helpless to do anything but worry. *sigh* And I hate having to keep telling my dongsang some which are his as well, all this bad news about him. =( *sigh* I jus hope he gets better.

Wah...depressing blogs...=p

I love my Ghost ^.^

Speaking of my Ghost....

Part 121- Osaka Verses New York

I don't mean to sound so down...I'm not so please don't everyone ask me if I'm okay because I am I'm fine ^.^v no worries. Weee i got Maki hooked on Spoongebob and Zim. MWHAHAHHAHA 2 of my fav shows. Tee hee. Well anyway...I miss my Aoki-chu...OH and Aoki-chu, Gab I got ur guys presents...but I have to mail them....X.x sorry it's all extremly late...^^;;;;; but you know what they say better late then never.

Okay last night I had my 1-shot fic called The Virgin posted up at TonyHyuk and JunTa forum *click* and I got 31 hits, not ONE comment. I was like...yeah thats so stupid cuz ur tellin me 31 people read it not ONE of them has anything to say? Even if it was "You suck"? All I kept thinking when I saw was "I should have posted at NRG's forum" last time I posted there, I got 7 hits within the hour, and a comment. The next day I had a string of comments and over 40 hits. -.-;;; note to self: Post at NRG's forum next time. The ML is dead...boo -.-;;; *sigh* but at least I'm getting good feedback on my long fic Fallen Bweee!! LOL I dunno I liek that fic a lot. I guess that's why I keep going with anything. And of course 36 Moons

Okay, I'm off to write. ^.^ Laterz.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Sorry about the past entries... Um...I think Maki fell off her chair an hit her head that she temperarly forgot how to blog...>.> but she's trying to fix that...also pitas is trying to revive itself from being wack, which is why it's taking forever and a day for them to be fixed so...yeah. Sorry about that...also any entries of 36 Moons that are all funky....again, I forgot to tell Maki to put in the HTML so they wouldn't be all funky and what have you...so yeah sorry about that. *sigh*

Okay, today I went out with Steve. ^.^ He took me to go see Ocean's 11 FINALLY!!! That movie was good. Plus, Brad is hot. MWHAHAHHA I loved all the suites he was wearing, I loved his tattoo on his hand, and I loved the fact that a lot of times in the movie he was eating something. Hehehehe so cuuuute ^.^ His name was Rusty in the movie. Brad is such a good actor. Mwhahahaha. So yeah, the movie was good. I kept commenting to Steve how hot Brad is. LOL yeah he also is gonna get me the Queen of the Damned movie poster....and today I bought this magazine that cost me 8$ X.x called Fangoria. The whole thing of this mag is like about horror movies and whatever...but I bought it because the Queen was on the cover XD That's right, Aaliyah as the Queen of the Damned. Her eye make up is killer. Anyway, I flipped through the mag and I got some pics of the new Lestat (which I'm STILL upset about btw) being played by Stuart Townsend, and he doesn't look half bad...but the fact that his hair is a light brown with blonde high lights and not BLONDE like Lestat still bothers me. Also the fact that Vincent fucking Perez is playing Marius...-.- another non-blonde that's suppost to be blonde. Sorry, I'm a big stickler for tiny details...anyway, the pics of Lestat and the queen are beautiful and I love them...I also love the fact that Aaliyah makes a beautiful queen...but she must make me hate her like I hated Akasha. Weee I can't wait to see this movie. *claps* Comes out in Feb. MWHAHAHHA

Anyway....tomorrow I have to get up all fucking early to go BACK to school to hammer out the last of my scheduale. I went to fix it FOR THE FINAL TIME today....because I got my appeal approved, and they tell me I can't register until I PAY....-.-v I hate my school. So I have to get up all early and do that tomorrow. *SIGH* wut a big pain in the ass...

Anyway, a day ago or so, I got some lyrics from my Maki-chan ^^v She sed they reminded her of me...why? I dunno...LOL well maybe I can figure it out...but I'm being retarted lately..anyway, the verse that she gave me was:

Go on your hands and knees
And praise the new deity
Serve the ego, serve the ego

So yes...this is me...they say words, espically the well chosen ones can say a lot about the person...>.> what does that say about me? Fun thought ^.^v

So...after bitching and moaning and DEMANDING that everyone I know get Angel's Tale I get the video for myself. Okay that video was the most boring 4 minutes and 35 seconds of my life. But hey, Haido looked good in it so weeee. You spend the 1st 3 minutes of the video getting a nice profile shot of Haido sittin on a building then a forward shot, then he climbs some stairs, then it's back on the building, profile shot, the end. >.> Haido's lucky he looks dope in that video.

Part 120- Bomb Wires

I wrote A LOT of this in advance when my blog was dead for a hot minute so I can afford to put this up almost everyday. *sigh*
So yeah....that's it for today...*yawn* Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

So bored. *sigh* well okay...hm...my unni came over. I was so happy to see her because usually I don't get the chance too. I showed her JTL's new album but because she couldn't stay long, she couldn't hear it...next time though ^.^v Anyway...I got pics...hm...but I can't exactly post them up yet...ah I will in my next blog or rather try too.

Part 119 Retaliation and Death

X.x my school didnt call me to tell me my appeal was approved so I'm gonna go there 2morrow and complain and whine and cry if need be...X.x I HAVE to get in. There's no way in hell I can explain to my mom that I got kicked dropped out because of some stupid policy. -.- I HATE my school....gaw it sucks. I'll be in so much trouble if I get kicked out.

*sigh* anyway...yeah I have nothing else to blog about.. I still have no life. *sob*

One Luv~*

OKAY....so I sorta got my compy fixed...>.> I got Windows Me installed yesterday thankies to BC who I looove. She came over yesterday and did it for me. I thought that would help me greatly. Instead, I got my compy sorta fixed. I'm STILL missing 2 different files from whatever that my retarted compy ate which means that I STILL can't view pics AND I still can't go into any password boxes and ish to type. So I'm still living through my Maki-chan (whom I also looove) who is still doing all this for me. IE posting my blog, uploading 36 Moons and all that good ish. Rather then reset my whole compy, I rather hold out until a few more weeks and just wait till I get majorly upgraded which means CABLE!!!!! FINALLY!! *does 1Tym dance*

Speaking of 1Tym, I got their 3rd album and JTL's. I loved both, but I miss H.O.T as a group more then ever now. I love Make it Last from 1Tym's new album and it's just a funny album in general, Mwhahahaha. Jin Hwannniiiie!! yeah...fun...and finally a chap of 36 Moons sorry this is soooo late...I hope someone is still reading this!! >.<

Part 118- The Faceless New Uprise

Whatelse....oh yeah, I went out with Emanuel today. He took me to my school which is FUCKING ME btw....I have to get my whole schedual changed and only take 2 classes which I plan on doing 4 days out of 5 day week. The rest of the time, I will be at Emanuel's house either sleeping or eating. MWhahahaha then hopefully by next semester I'll do better....it's math that's totally fucking me...so I have to do better this time. I had to put an appeal in for the dean to allow me to take math again....>.> I hate my school. Me and Emanuel are still planning our classes around each other, so that way, I can jus go to his house ever day, and we can chill. People still think we go together. Mwhahah since we plan on seeing each other more often, he decided to give me a key to his house ^___^ awww feel the love. Hehehehehe

So...yeah basically, I have my Maki-chan to do everything for me. I love her so much. ^_^ she's also gonna do my layout. Awwww which I got a preview of DAMN that thing is beautiful ^_______^ *SIGH* so yeah...within time though ^.^v when she finishes it. Heheheh okay....so...thas pretty much it. I'll hopefully blog again soon. I MISS BLOGGING!!! Plus pitas was being retarted a few days ago, so I couldn't blog even if I wanted to...-.-v It's suppost to be fixed now. So hopefully it'll remain fixed.

AH I almost forgot, I saw Snatch. That movie was funny! LOL Who took the jam out of your donut? LOL Man that's a great movie. Tee hee. ^_^v Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

I know I haven't blogged in like forever -.-;;; Maki is posting this up for me *glompies Maki* So let me explain....

See my Windows 98 decided to delete it's own file (don't ask -.-;;) and so it made it next to impossible for me to get on. I can now get online but I cant get into any place that requires me to type in passwords in those little boxes AND I can't view pics....-.- so anything I need to see and get has to be either AIMed to me or emailed to me. But luckliy I have mah Maki chan *glompies again*

I wasn't on the past few days either because of my dad who once again decided to get mad at me and not let me on, saying "I have no life outside my compy" well...>.> not like I can GO anywhere....-.-b so sorry for anyone that hasn't been able to contact me. Also, my new fic Fallen has been slow to be sent out because of the strict punishment I have now thanks to my dad and also, 36 Moons will be on a slight pause until I figure out how Imma do this. I won't be online on the weekends anymore....-.-v until my dad goes away anyway. Blah

And also, because of my stupid punishment I missed my 1yr anniversery of Angel Egg. On Dec. 27th I started this blog ^^ weee man it seems like such a long time ago that I started rambling LOL Happy New Year to everyone and I hope everyone had a good holiday

OH and also this is for my own benifit because I may have to reset my compy and I'l loose everything if I cant save it so thats why I'm reposting yhese pics you're not missing much I posted all these already but it would just be a 100 times easier if they were in the same place. http://user.chollian.net/~dovelet/chukjun18.jpg http://jboard2.superboard.com/users1/A09910/download/A002/S_10.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_08.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_13.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_14.jpg http://m3.easyspace.com/lllllll/best/bestw.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/hyde/251.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_hyde_pictures/hydecave.jpg http://www.e-larc-en-ciel.net/Gallery/doiha01.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/clicked_hyde02.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm12.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_yukkie_pictures/yukkiedashing.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/yuk6.jpg http://www.geocities.com/tetsurokuku/magazine/gallery51/rr990614.jpg http://images.imageevent.com/vampireflipflops/lunasea/websize/sugizo4.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/279.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna26.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna15.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugizo008.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/238.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm40.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/05sugi.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/47sugi.jpg http://members.tripod.lycos.co.kr/lovelunacy/su2.jpg http://www.jpopmall.com/j-music/photo/j-rock/luna/nov/lastlu2.jpg

I know alot of pics but those are all the ones I didn't have a chance to print out -.-;;; and my printer is out of black ink. Which again totally fucks me =p

I got Larc's Heart album, ^.^ it was one of my Xmas gifts I still got others coming to me. Bweeeee I'm also waiting for my J CD and my SMtown 3 that Aoki is gettin me, JTL and 1Tym's 3rd and thas it...for now. I HAVE TO GET LUNA SEA's. I went to NY the other day and I hesiated getting it....I regret it now =P Plus I didnt get Jae Jin's album UGH...-.- I'm just dumb sometimes. Oh man my knee is killing me so much >.< I dunno how if I haven't done jack shit since I went on holiday. >.< ow. Well okay....until my compy is fixed... *AGAIN* I dunno how frequently I'll be able to blog... but hopefully I'll figure it out. Hehehehhee Laterz.

One Luv~*

I know I haven't blogged in like forever -.-;;; Maki is posting this up for me *glompies Maki* So let me explain....

See my Windows 98 decided to delete it's own file (don't ask -.-;;) and so it made it next to impossible for me to get on. I can now get online but I cant get into any place that requires me to type in passwords in those little boxes AND I can't view pics....-.- so anything I need to see and get has to be either AIMed to me or emailed to me. But luckliy I have mah Maki chan *glompies again*

I wasn't on the past few days either because of my dad who once again decided to get mad at me and not let me on, saying "I have no life outside my compy" well...>.> not like I can GO anywhere....-.-b so sorry for anyone that hasn't been able to contact me. Also, my new fic Fallen has been slow to be sent out because of the strict punishment I have now thanks to my dad and also, 36 Moons will be on a slight pause until I figure out how Imma do this. I won't be online on the weekends anymore....-.-v until my dad goes away anyway. Blah

And also, because of my stupid punishment I missed my 1yr anniversery of Angel Egg. On Dec. 27th I started this blog ^^ weee man it seems like such a long time ago that I started rambling LOL Happy New Year to everyone and I hope everyone had a good holiday

OH and also this is for my own benifit because I may have to reset my compy and I'l loose everything if I cant save it so thats why I'm reposting yhese pics you're not missing much I posted all these already but it would just be a 100 times easier if they were in the same place. http://user.chollian.net/~dovelet/chukjun18.jpg http://jboard2.superboard.com/users1/A09910/download/A002/S_10.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_08.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_13.jpg http://user.chollian.net/~toe27/hyunynaraphoto/photo/ktnew12_14.jpg http://m3.easyspace.com/lllllll/best/bestw.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/hyde/251.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_hyde_pictures/hydecave.jpg http://www.e-larc-en-ciel.net/Gallery/doiha01.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/clicked_hyde02.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm12.jpg http://www.geocities.com/my_neo_universe_yukkie_pictures/yukkiedashing.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/laruku/pics/yuk6.jpg http://www.geocities.com/tetsurokuku/magazine/gallery51/rr990614.jpg http://images.imageevent.com/vampireflipflops/lunasea/websize/sugizo4.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/279.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna26.jpg http://www.geocities.com/sh4l_luna1/luna15.jpg http://members.tripod.de/hydeclub/ls/pics/sugizo008.jpg http://www.souqi.com/wan/home/pic/lunaseashoxxfile/238.jpg http://viciousparks.myetang.com/pic/zashi/nm40.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/05sugi.jpg http://lovelunacy.hihome.com/47sugi.jpg http://members.tripod.lycos.co.kr/lovelunacy/su2.jpg http://www.jpopmall.com/j-music/photo/j-rock/luna/nov/lastlu2.jpg

I know alot of pics but those are all the ones I didn't have a chance to print out -.-;;; and my printer is out of black ink. Which again totally fucks me =p

I got Larc's Heart album, ^.^ it was one of my Xmas gifts I still got others coming to me. Bweeeee I'm also waiting for my J CD and my SMtown 3 that Aoki is gettin me, JTL and 1Tym's 3rd and thas it...for now. I HAVE TO GET LUNA SEA's. I went to NY the other day and I hesiated getting it....I regret it now =P Plus I didnt get Jae Jin's album UGH...-.- I'm just dumb sometimes. Oh man my knee is killing me so much >.< I dunno how if I haven't done jack shit since I went on holiday. >.< ow. Well okay....until my compy is fixed... *AGAIN* I dunno how frequently I'll be able to blog... but hopefully I'll figure it out. Hehehehhee Laterz.

One Luv~*

That song is like ten minutes long....I only listen to it if I really wanna kill a lot of time. OKAY so before I go off on the topic that I have named this blog today, I'll post part 117 of 36 Moons because something is wrong with my disk annnnnnd not saving part 117 like I want it to....so it'll be here. Sorry everyone, just skip over the part in between the --- lines okay? Okay...here we go.

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Part 117- Holidays

Within time, Tai and Gabriel left for Tokyo. Akio went to California, Jun, Mikkie, Aoki and Aya all disappeared into the city along with Takuro and Yuki and I was left to baby-sit Toki all by myself. Sure everyone was just a cell phone call away...but I really felt as if everyone had something to do and I was just playing nurse maid to Toki as he went through his illness. I did have small plans with Tsubasa.. though as I sat by Toki's bed side, I wasn't too sure if I should go. First off, he was sick. And he wasn't just sick, Toki was on the verge of falling into something more serious then a cold. I wasn't sure if it was just my imagination, or if it was just Toki's way of dealing with a sickness, but...he just seemed worse off then better. Second, he hated Tsubasa. For him to know I was leaving his side just to go see my ningyo would piss him off. At the last minute, as Toki slept, I called Tsu and told him I couldn't make it.
"You disappoint me Jia."
"I'm sorry. But....I couldn't very just go under these circumstances."
"I understand. You have your priorities checked."
"But what would you do now?"
"I'm not sure."
I checked my watch. Toki would be out for a while...
"Tsu, come here instead."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, Toki's out like a light. He won't know anything."
"All right, but it's all your idea."
"I know."
We hung up.
Within a half hour, Tsubasa appeared at my door. His hair had grown out a little since the last time I saw him, and he left it down now so it was almost to his shoulders. He parted it to the side so a good portion of black hair fell near his pretty eyes. He even wore a hint of make up again. Still in black...a black button down, black dress pants, a black knee length coat and black leather gloves. He pulled them off his slender hands as he shoved them in his pocket and he gently shrugged off his coat. It slid it off his delicate frame as I held it before laying it down on the couch. He turned to me, his slender body turning almost sensually as his hip was accented by his pale hand that held it for a moment and he said,
"So, what are we going to do?"
I had very little of anything else on my mind but one thing....

And I think we all know what that is.

But I remembered that just in the other room, Toki is sound asleep. My eyes regretfully wandered up as I said,
"I'm not sure. I don't cook, so we'll order something to eat."
I swear I heard him laugh. I looked at him as he gracefully sat down, a smile curved on his face.
"What?" I asked.
"Mr. High and mighty, I own all of Japan and well on my of getting New York, cannot even cook."
I crossed my arms as I saw the delight it caused him to know I was helpless in one thing. One thing outside of Toki. "So? Can you cook?"
"When I have to."
I couldn't imagine Tsu cooking. I changed the subject.
"Well, I don't buy anything here to cook with, so, ordering out is the next best thing."
He was still amused.
After I placed an order, he and I sat down to wait. I placed an ash tray between us as we both had a cigarette.
"Where's Ai'iro and Jiki?"
"Ai'iro has a sister. He went to see her and her kids."
"I didn't know he had a sister."
"For obvious reasons."
I nodded in understanding.
"And Jiki went to see his cousins. The last of his family. It's all they have left. His mother doesn't approve of his work since she found out what the Yami do, so...she denies him."
"I know that feeling."
"And you Jia. What of your holidays that were reduced to being here on the couch with me?"
"My mother died when I was in my early teens. Only I didn't know it until I was in my twenties."
"Oh."
"I never knew my father."
Which wasn't an exact lie. Sure I knew who he was, but be damned if I actually knew the man to call him my father. I then exhaled as I said,
"You?"
"Father died, mother died. As far as I know, I don't have any other family around."
I nodded. I then leaned back as I said,
"These are the most boring times in the world. I rather have something to do then sit here in my living room."
He laughed.

Our food arrived later. He and I ate for a moment before I remembered Toki. I went to check on him to see he was still asleep, his fever was still up, but he was sleeping soundly. I pulled the covers over him better as I left him sleeping and closed the door behind me. I returned to the table as I sat down and Tsu said,
"Sleeping?"
I nodded. I took a sip of my drink as he said,
"Jia, what's going on with you two?"
I looked at him for a moment. His dark hair fell near his eyes. I felt almost as if I owed it to him. But at the same time I feel I didn't have to nor did I want too. But I looked at Tsu and felt I owed him something of an explanation, even if it was a half assed one.
"Toki lives here."
"I see."
"We're close. Everyone knows that."
He nodded. He expected nothing else. I was grateful.
"But it's because of him you do nothing that will displease him."
I was a little shocked he said that. But I couldn't believe how true it was. I wouldn't again sleep with Tsu, though the temptation and invitation were always there, because if I did, Toki would get mad. A lot of things I would give no second mind to all came to a halt when it came to Toki's yes or no. A fight with him could break me, and if I easily gained my will, Toki might loose another fingertip. His finger only now was healing, the stitching still keeping the skin closed...his hand forever deformed. Anyway I looked back at Tsu as I said,
"Ne, ningyo, you know too much."
He smiled, that pretty pink mouth in a rather enticing smile. He crossed his legs as he said,
"Always the observant yakuza."
He gave a small toast to me as we sat there and ate.

The actual holiday night, I spent with Tsubasa on the balcony. We watched the snow fall together as I, very cliche and over dramatically turned to him and grasped his face in my hand as I said,
"You have to be the prettiest thing I've ever seen."
He smiled as he started to laugh and said,
"How very melodramatic Jia. Under the dripping moonlight as snow falls around us."
I laughed as I stroked his cheek, watching the slight hint of pink appear as the cold reached him. I then sighed, turning back to the city to watch a light blanket of white snow cover it. Such a beautiful scene. And yes, I did eventually take Tsu in my arm and lock my mouth to his. So yielding...so soft. As we parted, his dark eyes looked up at mine as he said,
"I'm ringing."
I laughed as I said,
"There's a reaction I never got."
He smiled as he said,
"No, I hear my cell phone ringing in my pocket."
I laughed as I stepped back and he went into his phone. He answered it as he looked at me, then the floor as his amused smile faded. He then nodded and then said good bye. He looked up at me as he said,
"They tried to kill Ai'iro."
"Who's they?"
"I don't know. Someone did. At his sister's house. Shit...she's got kids."
He went inside as he started going to the door when I stopped him.
"Tsu, you're alone, you can't go out there now."
"I have to."
"I'll call someone. Give me some time, I can be organized in five minutes."
He nodded as I picked up my phone and called Aoki. I was upset I had to ruin his time off, but he was needed. Since Aya was with him, the two of them would show up at my door within twenty minutes. I called Jun and Mikkie next. Once I made those phone calls, I went to my bed room as I woke Toki up. He turned to me as he said,
"What? What's goin' on?"
"Nothing, I just wanted to let you know something came up and I'm leaving."
"Wha happen?"
"Nothing that can't be handled without you. Sleep. Call me if you need anything okay?"
"Okay."
"I'll be back as soon as I can."
He nodded as I left, closing the door behind me. I went back to Tsu who was pacing slightly. I told him to relax and then Jun and Mikkie arrived. Knowing Tsu was in a rush to go see Ai'iro and his sister, I told Jun and Mikkie to accompany him. I would follow with Aya and Aoki. My ningyo thanked me as he walked out the door. I would catch up in a moment.

Well...at least my holidays didn't end in a complete bore.

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Okay so...yeah that's done. Right, back to the point at hand. Since JTL came out, they're saying that they dissed JunTa and yadda yadda, truth be told (my theory) Lee Soo Man is the root of all evil. I don't think JunTa stayed on their own free will because (as stated) Lee Soo Man is the root of all evil. I think the whole idea of the whole fact that H.O.T fans are divinding themselves has never been anything new. I've heard horror stories about how in Korea, girls will literally cut you for liking who they like. So what's the point if girls here are like not liking each other. So one like JTL the other likes JunTa, all right whatever...

Theory again, I don't like any Ta fan. Nothing personal..I just don't. I'd fit right at home over in Korea cuz I'd be the 1st bitch to pull a blade on someone. Anyway, boppers are the root too. Boppers are the 1st one to hype shit up and make a big "war" out of everything. Don't believe me? Check the H.5.T (link on the side) and see all the JTL is good, JTL did diss, JTL didn't diss....whatever who cares?

Whatever this is just so annoying. I'm like WTF all these SAME fans were popping all that ying yang before talk about H.O.T Forever and now they divided themselves. Goes to show were real loyality lies.

Again, also another reason why I am the Anti-Bopper.

H.O.T Yakuza 012 -.-b

Okay well...I'd go on it but I can't say much about it that won't be repeated. Imma go write. Laters.

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I'm not posting a chap of 36 Moons tonight because my compy is being evil and not saving it like I want to...so hopefully I'll fix it. -.-b

ANYWAY why JTL is being wack. Well...wack is a strong word. I'm just highly upset that they would put JunTa on full blast and basically (my interpitation of the song) called them sell outs. I was like....-.-b yay...way to support your "one time friends"

But at any rate, I still support JTL...and I'll get their CD anyway cuz you know H.O.T 012.

I just got yelled at...I 4got to wake up my mom at 10 and by the time I realized I had to wake her it was 10:40 and I didn't see a point in waking her since I was beyond late. So I was like....err...but jus just woke up and she's pissed. So I got yelled at. -.-

MY BAD.....-.- my mom gets salty with me for the weirdest reasons. Anyway I'm done for tonight. Laters.

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God.....Edic is such a froot. -.-b Dork.

Anyway after putting it off for as long as I felt like it, I finally deiced to upgrade AOL 6.0 to 7.0. I really don't want to but my parents have this insane idea that it'll be better and it won't cut me off as much. -.-;;; they thought that about 6.0 and I got cut off more then when I was in 5.0. But my parents don't know anything when it comes to compies...of course I don't know much EITHER but they think I'm some great guru and my dad gets mad when I say I don't know. -.-b

OH Yesterday I 4got to say who sang Sweetest Coma Again it was Luna Sea (Duh for those that did know)but pitas is being sorta evil and not letting me edit. So anyway...yeah...I slept till 2! WOooo

Okay..I'm gonna go shower...and let AOL 7.0 download by itself as I go do such. -.-b evil....hopefully this won't tell me Im doing an illegal thing everytime I try to save something on disk...-.- (it's what evil 6.0 kept doing)

LOL Christopher oppa, everything is eviiiiil LOL

I miss mah Aoki-chu =(

OH, later on I will also blog about how JTL (Woo Hyuk, Tony, and Jae Won) are being mad wack. I still support them, but I so gotta agree with my daughter Gijimo, mah yakuza now Aya, on this one. They being wack Gijimo...I agree. I'll explain laterz.

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I seriously think it should be "Come Again" but it's "Coma Again"....um...not asking.

Part 116- Winter Fall
This chap is kinda slow....but it'll pick up again I promise.

Okay so...anyway...I'm sitting...bored. La la la la la...I got a new server because Angelfire was being wack and very man like, being difficult and shit and decided to not share art files anymore. So I'm like fine -.- so I take all my little clique tags go to personalpages...sum shit like that, I go there, and everything is fine...until TODAY. They start being wack. AND for some really weird reason I can't get into the H.5.T forum. I'm like oooookay fine. -.- PLUS my Taya Farbe pics don't work anymore but I saved them all so it's not that big a tradegy. MWhahahah

But yeah...that just vexed me for a minute. Now I have those ugly red and white X boxes on the side of my blog because my new server is also decideding to be wack and very man like. -.-b hopefully it'll come back soon and let it work again. =P

*yawn* I don't know what to blog about...I'm so bored. I finished writing for today! WOOOO

I hate when that happenes because then I have nothing to do. LOL

I'll try to see if any 1shots come to mind.

OH speaking of 1, I completly forgot that 1Tym's 3rd album is out. I also want JTL's which is also out...and I'm still waiting for my SM Town 3...which I know mah Aoki-chu got *muahz* and my mom was like I'll buy u a CD if you want. A CD which means ONE CD...and I don't want one I want 2, as ungrateful as that sounds. But if she don't get me 1Tym's 3rd I'll get it from somewhere else. I'm definatly getting JTL's NOW though. WOO H.O.T 012!!!!!

I made my Christopher oppa get Angel's Tale because I'm so pimping that song. I LOVE this song *as everyone now knows* and yeah...it just kicked...he liked it. ^.^b I was happy he did. I made him get the English verison because I wasn't too sure if the Japanese one would bring across the same feeling. I also gave him the lyrics so he liked. Very Jazzy sounding he said. I agree. Maybe I like it because aside from Haido singing it I can SO HEAR TA doing it. *^.^* I think I would die if Ta did a cover of Angel's Tale he should thouhg...again, I'd die. MWHHAHA and I'll pimp that shit to everyone too. XD

Okay...I'm off. I'm all done blogging. Let's see if I can't get writing done. Well more writing...I need a life.-.-v

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I keep ripping off pics from Auwon's blog...^^;;; Sorry Auwon...just um...well damnit Ren is jus so sexy. He's such a cutie. PLUS he plays the cello. There's nothing sexier then a bishie playing a stringed instrument. And I was like bweeeeeeeee.....I love the fact that Ren can play cello, Sugizo can play violin, my Ta can play piano and there's just a whole...plethera (wow I butchered that word) of classical instruments that sexy guys can play. Bweee.

Okay so about this impending doom crap. In 5 days it's Christmas. I'm REALLY NOT looking forward to it. I start getting the holiday blues because like...stuff around my house, you wouldn't know it's Christmas. Not a single decoration, my parents are like....gonna kill each other -.-v my best friend D is gonna be in Texas BC has her own family, Pookie and Emanuel also have their own families, KP is in Seoul, Sunnie is in NY and he's more then likely gonna be with his mom and Mikey anyway. All my other friends across the world...so...it's just me. It's always just me. And I have nothing to celebrate. It's hardly cold (but I'm not saying it's not cold cuz it is) but not cold enough for snow so...yeah...-.-b holidays suck

I only have my dongsangs presents to look forward to. I don't want much from my parents, just the video game Devil May Cry. I want all this random crap from my friends but that's about it. T.T I should like break down and try to convince my parents to buy me Haido's barb wire necklace that's about 180$ XD I REALLY want that. Much like Aoki-chu wants that...necklace that The Pimp and my Ta have, I want the barbwire necklace. ^.^ I'd wear it too. WOOOO

*claps* Go Auwon for reading 36 Moons even though it's well over 100 chapters long. *claps* She's actually reading it. And she's already almost done with the 1st part. I break it into 3 parts...it was pretty easy...I just kept to it cuz I like the idea of it...and jjang people like it too...^.^ but anyway...yeah...

Okay...gonna go write...I want this necklace >.< laterz.

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Ahhhhh I LOVE that song. Got the words from My Neo Universe (link on the right) I think this song is so for my Ta. I believe every word that Haido is saying is like...exactly what I'm thinking for my Ta ^.^b jjang. Again, I push, go d/l that freakin song!!! I wish I had the link but I got it off Winmx!! Errrrr....I'll ask Helayne again for that one dude's site...the MP3 is there cuz U guys HAVE to get this song. It's so good. If you're not a fan of Haido it don't matter, this song kicks so much ass.

Oh...before I 4get...

Part 115- Saved

Okay so let me tell everyone what my fondness has caused me to do. I was on search for more Luna Sea pics...because I can't get enough of my slut XD and I stumbled across a link for Ebay. I was like...oh...okay well let me go pine for the stuff I can't get T.T so I go to Ebay, thinking all this stuff will be hella expensive and completly out of my reach. But I go there and on bid (when I started) was a magazine Newsmaker for 8.95 I was like eeeeeeeee with Luna Sea on the cover, and L'arc in the pages. I was like AH, so on a total whim and total greed, I went and registered, and started bidding. I have 20 minutes left on the bid and the price is now 11$ even. I'll bid another 1$ at the last minute. I REALLY want that mag. I'm so stupid I barely have enough cash for presents and I'm going out of my way to buy a 1998 out of print copy of Newsmaker because my slut is on the cover.....actually I limited myself. I figured if the price goes over 12$ I won't bid anymore I can't afford it. Usually an H.O.T/Kang Ta bid, I'm bidding as high as 40$ sometimes though I'm struggling to pay it off sometimes... -.-v because I don't know how to say no to Ta.

So anyway, yesterday I got the CF Haido was in for Uni...something. He's wearing some clothes of the company and he talks for 5 seconds before he sings part of Evergreen and he does it nicely. *was proud* I was like YAY Go Haido. I also d/led a perfomance clip of Shout at the Devil which I didn't like too much cuz I didn't see Yukkie =P I'm down to 11 minutes on my ebay bid. Mwhahaha okay so back to my slut.

I DID find 2 more pics of him. I found some wallpaper (which I dont use because I have my Ta wallpaper Aoki-chu hooked it up with) and plus it was pink. BUT I kept the link because

*GASP* Sugizo has an ass!!! *click*
Oh YEAH. I knew he was a curvy bitch for a reason. Look at that ass...kinda a bump, and it's not all big and round like Hee Jun's huk huk huk Aya ur man's got a bubble ass XD (Junk in the trunk baby) but er..anyway, Sugizo has an ass XD OH YEAH!! *claps* That's my slut.

Sugizo and Inoran *click*
Look at that smirk XD I LOVE that smirk MWHAHAH its like he's so full of mischief XD

I got those off random searches I did at Google.com so I dunno where they came from, but creidt to whoever. BWeeee....I really have to go put my new cliques up because yes...I joined more...mwhahahaha

Blah I lost my bid...poop...oh well. It's just Luna Sea...not like it's my Ta or nothing =p so it's all good.

Anyway...yeah...I must go...I'm gonna chill now..mwhahaha I sent my fic out. It's called Fallen ^.^v let's see how this one goes.

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I just have to say how I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Angel's Tale by Hyde. I LOVE both versions. The Japanese version is so dark and, romantic sounding...but the English version (where again I only catch a few words of Haido's fobby English) is like a jazz sound. It reminds me of Ta's work ^.^ I love this song. New fav song!! *claps for Haido* It's his second single as a soloist. He sounds really nice ^_^ I just hope I never have the mispleasure of hearing him do it live. ^^;;;

Okay so anyway I once again need help. Maybe from some Anime buffs out there? Since Anipike shut down, at least for me it did I don't know what happened, I got cut out from all my usual X links. I LOVE X I'm a big big big fan of it. And of CLAMP's work, I love X the best. I love thier art work. And one of my favorite pictures is one dubbed "Twisted Romance" where Kamui is licking Fuuma's palm. I got this picture which is from a winap skin from Out of my mind with a SLASH *click* and I want the real pic -.-

I REALLY love this pic. I wish I could get it so if anyone hasit, or knows where I can get it (without the winap thing I mean) then PLEASE help me out. The closest I ever got was a small little dinky thing Babydoll once found. Wow...I miss my Babydoll. I haven't talked to her in like forever. Anyway, I really want that pic =P

I didn't get around to finishing 36 Moons last night, and I'll have to do it now after I finish up and send out the 1st chap of my new fic. ^.^b I also managed to write up and post up my 1 shot fic at Temptation (Link on the side) called Steal Song I just went to see how many people read it, and I already got 35 hits @.o;;; I was like whoa...cool...^.^b So now after I finish up this new chapter of my new fic, I'll write up 36 Moons and then...um...well I'll be done -.- I have nothing else to do. Boo...

I woke up at 1 again. I can't sleep any later now? WTF? Blah =p anyway...yeah I still love this song. OH OH OH I got new pics of Ta from the H.5.T (link on the side) he's a model for Farbe Magazine and he's look SO SO fuckin beautiful this I got from the H.5.T:

Taya in white from Farbe *click*
WHY...omg...so beautiful...he needs to be here now...

Ta laying down in green and yellow *click*
He's so beautiful....I 4give the ewwy colors he's wearing hehehe

Taya in white looking up *click*
He's soooo cute ^.^ awwww *glomps Ta*

I got this pic from the H.5.T too but I just turned it to the side to make it look better ^.^
Taya on the cover of Farbe *click*
Love hiiiiiim *still holding onto Ta* OMG look at that...he's curvy too!! EEEEE XD

*clears throat* so yeah...anyway....Auwon you didn't know that the names of the H.O.T Yakuza came from 36 Moons? Aww my bad I didn't mean to confuse everyone. But okay, those that don't know what I'm talking about:
Toki: Me
Ghost: Chibi
Aoki: Linna
Gabriel/Gab: Maki
Aya: Gijimo
Tai: SR unni
So yeah....that's us. I don't talk much of DG unni who is Jia but she's Jia. Hehehhe ^.^b okay so yeah...Auwon...did you like it? Or was it bad? LOL I dunno what to think of my work. I like it...it's why I keep writing it. ^.^

Blah I have to redo my X-mas List. Bweee...okay I'm off. Must write and send new fic. Laters.

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I'm on holiday ^_^ How grand it is to wake up today at 1 in the afternoon and realize I have nothing to do ^_^ (which will eventually piss me off cuz I have nothing to do -.-v) Anyway....yeah....okay we're gonna bounce back to the yakuza thing because Aoki-chu has started to really hate on boppers...well more then usual.

What does being a Yakuza mean? Well it's not a clique. Because if it was a clique then everyone could join...and we don't want everyone to join. There will be a clique called the Anti-Bopper sooner or later. Once my Aoki-chu and Gab have vacation time, we'll discuss it. Also Tai will be on vacation soon...I hope I MISS TAI!! *glomp* Anyway, back to the Yakuza...so yeah, you gotta love those people that write up shit like what Aoki-chu posted in her blog. That shit sucks. When I go to the H.5.T I glance around and see some shit like "KangTasluver" or I remember I saw "KangTa is Mine" one time....-.-v always fun. I ignore those people. I have nothing better to do. The anti-bopper more or less look at people like that and shake their heads. Why waste time? Sure we hate them because...um...well they sound sorta stupid...but hey, are we better then boppers?

Um, yeah...

Mostly for the simple reason then we could argue a way to explain why we have a better shot at whoever then them. ^.^b I know I can. Be damned if I met a bopper that could say something better that "No way, Kang Ta is mine! He's so cute!" well duh...but what the hell does that have to do with anything. I don't want a worthy opponet. I want everyone to leave me alone. Respect him for his music, but don't try to stake a claim. Cuz u'll never win. Espically with someone like me. I try to give my fellow Yakuza support. Like my daughter, Aoki-chu, Ghost, Gab....I believe in all them. If they really want to and they believe, shrug everything else off...they can do it. Otherwise I wouldn't believe they were really yakuza huh ^.^b

I remember reading Auwon's blog and she was explaining her whole Gackt thing...and she's like...wait Imma quote her: "in a way, the way i feel about gackt is kind of the way lez feels about kangta" ^_^ only she sed she can't hate other people for liking him since she has the same reasons Well that's cool. I don't hate everyone who likes Ta because oh, they like Ta. Because Ta is more then a pretty face. He's got talent too, and he's definatly worth more then ah squeal because he smiled. He's worth more then people give him credit for. I give him all that credit. Which reminds me how Helayne said if Ta pulled a Haido live (I.E sang just as horrible live X.x) would I forgive him. Okay, let's just push aside the fact that Ta can sing live...very well. But let's pretend, 5th door, 9th gate, all the planets alined and Ta had a bad "Haido show" and he just couldn't sing. I would be mad at him because 1. If he was sick, then he should be in bed. WTF is he doing risking his health like that? What is he Hee Jun? ^^;;; (I love Junie for that though, so dedicated but he should b resting too!!) 2. If he wasn't sick then WTF happened? Did he just get nervous or something? I dunno either way I would be mad at him because he should know better. But I would forgive him cuz duh I love him ^.^ But still...that would upset me. It upsets me when Haido does that too X.x tnhat just hurts my feelings though...okay I wandered off track.

So anyway, case in point, bopper suck. -.-b Yeah...whatelse...oh yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUWON! I think I'm late...am I late? LOL sorry better late then never. Wow she's 20 O.o OLD! LOL Let me stop. I'm almost 20. Anyway, so I have free time...I'm about to write, and get some more of my KFC popcorn chicken in my fridge and see what I can create today. Just one more chap before I send out the new fic. And I really wanna get started on my 1 shot. I think Ghost is home Aoki-chu. But I'm not sure. She hasn't been online in like 4ever. I'll ask Christine. I was invited to a Korean party XD jjang. I really wanna go. I mean COME ON, sexy hot Korean guys all over the place? At a party? I'm so there. Weee I hope I can get BC to go with me. I don't wanna end up alone if Christine wanders off. *bounce* okay, time to go...do something. LOL laters.

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Part 114- Far From Done

So mother lovin tired...but I will talk about the unspeakable horror I subjected myself to. I watched Haido singingNijii, Love Flies, Heaven's Drive 2 TIMES and Shi no Hai LIVE. Okay Nijii was just hurtful. He was like SCREAMING the chrous out...I was like OMG I was literally crindging when I was watching it. A pretty face does not make up for a lousy perfomance. In my second perfomance of Love Flies Haido was STRAINING to sing the chrous to hold it out as long as he's suppost to. I was like >.< OMG...my song. He totally killed it. In Heaven's Drive man....I don't know....it was just terrible.

My mom suggested that maybe he gets stage fright....and I was like....well...I guess...but that was just awful stage fright because he sings so well on the CD's and stuff...and SOMETIMES he can sing. Like when he did Spirit Dreams Inside that was good...not too bad though he was kinda straining there too. Oi....well....at any rate, Haido hurt my feelings today. Nuff said.

Okay...I'm going to bed. My lower back hurts. And I had cramps all day T.T Sorry I left you Aoki-chu my compy was evil...so was my AOL I got booted 5 times. I'm 2 chaps short of starting to send out my new fic AND I have a short fic in process for NRG. Since she extened a personal invite to her forum, I decided to post a short 1 shot HyukTa fic there. I'll let everyone know when it's up. Right now...I'm going to bed. *yawn* Ta is keepin it warm for me. ^.^v

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I also joined more cliques...LOL I need to stop...

I can't help it. *yawn*

I'm still in pain X.x wah....

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Ohhh my God...T.T I have the makings of horrible cramps right now X.x they started earlier and thank God I ate something so I then popped some major pain killers before they got any worse. >.<

Yes I know all of you needed to know that. You all my calm down and relax now. I'll live.

Okay so...*yawn* I woke up today at 6 in the morning. I got ready in my black sweats and my black Shinigami T-shirt, my wool peacoat, my boots that say Death and Silence on them, and I went to go take my final. We had to answer 15 questions without a calculator...I was able to do most of them, then from 16-50 were all calculator problems. I was blessing my lucky stars I got one. So I did it all pretty easily and I PRAY I get a good, or at least decent passing grade. I then left with Luz and we talked a little...thas about it. It was pretty easy. I went home and laid down for a while, watching TV then I got up and started drawing after Maury came on. Maury happens to be one of my fav talks. I think that's the one thing I'll hate about not having school anymore, I won't wake up at 8 or 10 in the morning to watch Maury anymore =P Boo.

So anyway, I drew. I started drawing up a storm mostly because I know I had to get some pics for Maki's layout done. I managed to do one. My Gabriel got all jacked, and I'm not too sure if I'm still feeling Tai *click* but that's for Maki to decide. If she likes it, then she can keep it, if not I'll go back to do another one.

Anyway, now that Gijimo has taken on the flesh of being Aya (I know Aoki-chu is cheering and frankly so is Toki XD) she got her tag up:

And Aya got a crush on Tsu...XD but hey, Aya, you realize that Tsu don't look like he use to right? Tsubasa cut his hair off a while back after he handed over the rights of the Yami to the 36 Moons. So...Tsubasa looks like this *click*. He's still a ningyo though ^.^v Speaking of the Yami, I finally drew another one outside of Tsubasa. Ai'iro *click* Tsubasa's right hand, body guard and close friend. ^.~* I'll get around to drawing Jiki soon too. I just need more time and pain killers X.x owie....

Anyway, last night I didn't get to post the pics of Sugizo, my slut. Well I posted one of him being a sexy slut in red and black lace *drools* CURVES BABY!!! Anyway here's another one of Sugizo leering *click* it's kinda sexy to see him holding his guitar XD knowing what he can do with it. OMG I got Gijimo to listen to him playing Hurt and she agreed. He's good. WOOO *cheers* Also she sed Sugizo was pretty. I don't think he's as pretty as he is sexy XD But he looks really nice here in b&w *click* I like B&W pics of him. I like B&W pics period. And then his:

Web cam pic! LOL I love this pic. I wish it was a web cam pic...he took here...XD he'd never leave XD WOOOOO but he looks so so so cute there. ^_^ eeeeeeee Sugizo and cute are not 2 words I usually put together. But here they are. Mwahahaha. Then we have my slut in that "skanky" (quoting my Gijimo here)outfit, the imfamous thigh highs, garters and short shorts *click* I love this outfit. Though I dunno why he's like that in the pic. Is he wearing sneakers? O.o;;; oh God...anyway, I started to notice just how curvy he is. In the Gravity video, he's so fuckin curvy I couldn't believe I missed it before. (Is taking more pain killers) and he's like...a sexy bitch. Anyway in this pic *click* he's in silver pants. You can see how curvy he is, his thick thighs and tensed arms XD sexy bitch....and finally, a pic of Sugizo with his daughter Luna *click*. At first I thought it was some random chick that I was about to start hatin on cuz I WANNA HOLD SUGIZO WHILE HE'S WEARING JUST A SHEET, but it was his daughter. The arm is all small hehehehe...but it doesn't look right...but..you know...whatever. Sugizo is sexy XD I also found out he was born in 1969 (which means he's 32 for those that don't feel like thinking now) and I was like WOW looking THAT sexy and slutty at 32...WAH! Go him *claps for Sugizo* I give that to any J-rocker who looks that good..*claps for Haido, Yukkie, Tetsu, Gackt, and any other J-rocker over 30 looking that good* Wait...I think Yukkie is over 30...O.o I can't remember. I just know Toshiya is 24! *claps*

OMG no one is online...T.T well at least I have the chance to go join the cliques I wanted to, and then watch the rest of my clips. ^.^ OH I got to see the Thanks God video. -.- I HATE THAT GIRL...what's her face...not Eugene, that hoe who was in the video..*stab* touching MY MAN WITH HER YOUNG ASS...*she's 14!!!!* Anyway I'm not TOO mad because after all...she's 14...she's hardly developed. MWHAHAHHA. I'm so bad....anyway it made me cry. He needs to hold me in the snow. *sigh* Laterz.

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FINALLY I wrote another chapter. Everyone was saying how I left it cliff hanging...-.- well my bad..

Part 113- Sweet Revenge

Yeah man I have more pics of Sugizo I was sharing with my daughter, who I am coruppting now and my slut is just SO SEXY...I can share one now because I don't really have any time since I have to go to bed...(have a final at 8AM)

Sugizo-Heaven *click*
Sexy bitch XD Look at those curves....he's so fuckin curvy...mwhahahaha damn sexy. Damn, damn sexy. ^_^

I'll post tomorrow when I'm on holiday. Wooo *does 1Tym dance*

I'm also past the 1/2 way point in my fic AND there's a new post at the Yakuza blog *click*. Aya will start to post soon. ^.^ (she tried to today but her compy was being evil)

I FINALLY got to talk to mah Aoki-chu *GLOMPS AOKI* I looove yooou. I miss you. I can't wait to talk to her more often. *wishes she could now* well anyway I gotta go. =P must go to bed and have to take my final 2morrow wish me luck everyone!! *muah* ^.~*

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I'm listening to Eve more often now because I have their CD LOL I still want this CD myself...I just borrowed it from BC. *sigh* Anyway...I did nothing today. I slept till 12 surprisingly enough. I have my last final this Monday and I got a calculator so I'm happy ^_^

I haven't posted 36 Moons in a little while, mostly because I don't know what to write. ^^;;; I'm a bit stuck. I HATE THAT. But as soon as I get an idea I'll write it. I really need to be inspired. Speaking of which, Gijimo, the Yakuza are down with having ya in with us if you want *muah* mah daughter is gangsta XD So let ur umma know if you wanna be in ^_^v

On the fic side, I'm FINALLY past at the 1/2 way mark of my new fic. I can hopefully start sending it out by....Weds. the 19th. If I keep my pattern up. Hopefully, I will start up 36 Moons again.

Okay...vanity. I was thinking all day about the clique I joined. And I have to put a pic of myself up somewhere. And I did before....so I have to put one up again. I don't know why sometimes....I'm really not all THAT vain but in a way I am. ^.^v I have a bit of an ego...but not that much...just sometimes. I dunno it was just a random thought that came into my head. I'm weird when I have nothing else to do. LOL

*yawn* I'm gonna try to work on 36 Moons, see if an idea strikes me.

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Stupid angelfire....I hope the images work now.

I hope that some of the people reviewing my page for the clique banners didn't think I didn't put them up before joining.

I DID!! I'm sorry!! Angelfire is wack as hell right now!! Hopefully my new server is okay...>.< *prays*

Kara says I should archive...okay...I soon will. It's okay that I have to wait another week hun ^.~* I know you're busy sawl good.

Gonna go write...oi...

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Anyway....so today...well actualy yesterday I was DYING for some Pizza Hut Ultimate meat Lovers pizza. 6 kinds of toppings, 6 kinds of cheese. So I'm dying for it and I get it ^_^ SO now I have left over pizza which has to be the best for me. So I'm happy.

2day I had math class, but since we were reviewing for a final, I skipped it and went to the cafietria with Changa and Luz instead. We chilled there until I had to leave. Then I went home. Almost an hour later, BC asks me to chill with her like I've been wanting to, so I get up and go. We go to her dorm, which I think is pretty cool but...I dunno if I could handle living with 3 other people mostly because I love my room and I need A LOT of space, both physical and wall. So anyway, we chilled there and I got to see the Shinhwa MV for Hey Come On and Wild Eyes. Both BC and I were saying how Dong Wan is such a centerfold. During the Hey Come On MV I saw him and I was like WHY is he wearing clothes?? LOL And Min Woo is such a pimp. That's why he had all the special effects. Then we watched Hey Come On a live perfomance and BC was like Jin is SUCH a cheerleader LOL *falls off chair* She showed me when we we watching how jerky and sharp and over dramtic he is during the performance. LOL It was classic. Jin IS a cheerleader. He also does the perfect Jazz turns LOL. Ghost ur man is a manwhoring, perfect jazz turns having, cheerleader. LOL I'd worry...or enjoy it. XD I liked Wild Eyes more except that I did not need to see Hye Sung the Slut without a shirt X.x *is tramatized* SPEAKING OF WHICH....X.X *dies again* BC had some old L'arc Video on her compy an we decided to watch it. It was in B&W and it was kinda slow, but then we saw someone from the back sitting on a bed. And I was like wow...someone is really naked sitting on that bed. Then BC was like it's Ken. I'm like ew...AS IF seeing him without his shirt isn't BAD ENOUGH, HE STANDS UP ASS NAKED X.x *is scarred for life* UGH EW GROSS GROSS. Then I got to see a perfomance of Shi no Hai/Love Flies. 1st off, needless to say Tetsu hurt my feelings with that outfit...we're not even gonna talk about it. And HAIDO OMG he just looked SO SLOPPY. His hair wasn't gelled back all the way so just the top of his head was gelled and the ends were...all over the place. His eyebrows weren't done, and when he sang the note in the chrous for Love Flies OH GOD X.x it was AWFUL. *shakes head* he so can not sing live. But yeah...Yukkie looked good *glomps Yukkie* I also saw the video for Pieces which was SO SAD X.x *sob* Tetsu dies! I won't say how cuz I don't wanna ruin the ending, but it SUCKED cuz he DIED! *sob* and I saw the video for Loose Control which was freaky XD I loved Haido's make up.

Anyway, then BC took me home and I cleaned up a little, and then went to pick up my mom. And I just got home. It was raining all day today and yesterday too...it's just a lot of rain...it's bad for me because rain usually makes me tired, but today I'm wide awake. I usually love the rain but not when it soaks through my boots and up to my ankle on my jeans -.-v I looked so ghetto when I went with BC to her dorm, because I was jus in sweatpants since I changed, a windbreaker and a black shirt. I didn't feel like getting dressed again.

Today I had one of those conversations that made me appericate how much I really love BC. When we were leaving her dorm, we started talking about...I dunno something and we started talking about cigarettes. OH WAIT I remember now. She gave me these little tabs of Listorine which dissolve on your tonuge and are way better then mints. And she goes, if you smoke or when you do, these are better. If you smoke menthols, those burn your sinus. I absentmindedly open my bag and say, I do have menthols, Newports. Once before when I smoked in front of BC with my unni, she looked at me kinda disgusted/disappointed. So I kinda crindged inside when I said that because yes I went out and bought a pack of cigarettes today. So THEN much to my surprise BC says, oh ew, I have Marbolro Lights. In my head I go O.o;;;;;; wut with the when?? So, as we walk to her car, we both light up. BC has sorta changed since she started dorming, and it's not for the worse. Now I know, more then ever why we're friends, and why we're so close to each other. Recently, she and KP broke up, and she was distraught and depressed for a few days having her girl moments, but she's okay now. And now, she's smoking. We both smoke and I didn't worry at all. It was weird seeing her smoke...it didn't look bad, it was just OOC. But...I just realized how much more I love her when we talked on the way home. We were talking about some stuff...-kinda a personal matter- and we were like agreeing so much...and sure we most of the time agree when it comes to serious shit, but...I dunno...it was like a good moment for me. I just click so much with her. I just really love her lots. And sure she's mean to me and she's stinky sometimes and she abuses me -.-v and I make fun of her saying shes my abusive man and whatever, but in the end, as always, we're close and I know she won't say it cuz shes not like that but I know she loves me, cuz I love her too ^^

It's a good feeling to know that one day, I'll be 40 years old, and BC will be 39 and still be my friend. ^_^

Anyway, she also let me borrow Eve 4 which I LOVE and still have yet to check of my X-mas List...*nudge nudge HINT HINT* so I'm jamming to that in my car, all getting down and celebrating all by my damnself. LOL ALSO without my asking, she burned me 2 disks full of videos and stuff. She's great. I lub mah BC. I also got my stuff back like my tapes and Memnoch because she just started Armand. I buy books for the both of us. LOL ^_^

That's the WHOLE SONG. Just the same verse repeated again and again. But the beat is so kick ass. *glomps Kim Gun and Park Woong* *sigh* I liked today, though it was rainy. It was still good. You know, what kind of person tells you how much money they spent on your X-mas gift? This girl just did. I'm like....yeah...cuz she's getting me one of the vampire Princess Miyu DVDs and she's like you know how expensive Japanese stuff is? I'm like -.- I know...but it's not like I ASKED her to get me that! GEEZ. WTF...which reminds me I have to revise that X-mas list.

UGH WHY is angelfire being WACK all the sudden!! *sob* It USE to allow art files to be shown NOW they dont! WTF!! I need a new server...

Okay...I also have to go write...later.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

Okay so I'm a freak.

I have reached a new level of freakiness.

I wanna tie Ta up XD

Okay, let me explain. I was talking to Maki about the X tarot cards,and I explained how I drew some of my own *cuz I have no life* and I started scanning some of my better ones, and as I did, I realized a lot of them had some kind of bondage. I was like whoa...where did that come from? Does that mean I subconciously wanna be tied up?

O.o;;;;;;;;;;;;

Then I came to an even better conclusion because I am not the one to be tied up.

I wanna tie Ta up XD

But that doesn't mean I wanna don a leather corset and some thigh high boots as I chain Ta to anything. O.o it's nothing THAT serious. I jus wanna tie his wrists with silk. And not tightly. I'm kinna liking that idea...

ANYWAY *cough* Wow I really posted that...^^;;;

I went to a new site...link on the right a X page. I'm still looking for this X pic of Kamui where someone is cupping his face and he's licking their palm. It's so HOT XD But this pic Kamui Angel/Devil *click* is so prety but it came from a diff site...so pretty ^_^

Anyway, tomorrow I have Math...last day...oi...so looking forward to it. But I have to do my math project. Blah...okay I gotta wrap this. I'm on the phone with BC XP LOL brat.

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Why? Because I'm tired damnit.

Part 112- Commit

And I've been meaning to post this up too, but I kept forgetting.

A Letter to my Unborn Child

No spoilers but that fic is related to 36 Moons

so tired...am going to bed...*yawn*

BC screwed up my whole day. I have a English final 2morrow. *snap* piece of cake. Must talk to David...must make move or regret it forever....-.-zzZzZzZzz

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I LOVE this song. Mostly when the chorus...well not the chrous just some parts of the song, when she goes "I want your baby" Dude.....for reals...*looks at Ta* ^_^

Ah...let's see...well I got to campus mad early when I sped...I really have to stop doing that...anyway I got there at 7:30 my class is at 8. I had to take a history final. I started skimming back all the chaps I didn't read when I suddenly started panicking. I realized the words might as well have been in Greek because I didn't understand a word I was reading. I kept trying and I kept panicking more when I read the words, and when I asked myself what I remembered, I didn't remember anything. I rolled down my window and turned off the heater in my car even though it was 39 degrees this morning. I kept trying to make myself recall SOMETHING I just read but to no avail. I finally rolled down my other window and looked at the guy next to me and said, hey you got another cigarette? So yes I smoked. I had a Newport 100 and by then I started to relax and I read over a few paragraphs. I kept forgetting stuff anyway, but I remembered a lot more then before. When I looked up to think, I saw David! ^_^ And he saw me! And he waved to me!! *big ^_^* Does anyone know how good that made me feel? Even though it was just a wave, the fact that he saw me and waved hi to me was enough to calm me down so much I could have gone into a coma.
Then I got out of my car and started walking to my class and then took my history final. I didn't know a lot of the stuff, I guessed on most and I knew like a handful of questions. I had 56 questions!! THAT'S IT. What kind of wacked out HISTORY proff gives out 56 questions? Why not a even 50? Or 60? That pissed me off. Just cuz it was all off. Anyway, after my final, I headed to the building where I have to register and made my scheduale out. I have 2 required classes I have to take Math -.-;;; and English 122. AGAIN...-.- geez. Anyway, I also decided on History of East Asia *JJANG!* Also with my fav proff I had for History my 1st semester, and Psychology. Though what the hell am I doing taking Psychology I don't know. Then I left to go to my advisor to get my paper signed so I could offically register, and I saw Changa! ^_^ he and I walked, I told him how I saw David and David waved hi to me *because I'm a dork like that, that I was STILL swooning on this* and then I offically registered and then went to sit for my math class. I borrowed Changa's calculator and then took a test (which I'm praying I did fairly well in) and then went home. And here I am. My hands have not been warm all day. Anytime they were, it's because I washed them under hot water. But anytime the slightest bit of cold touches them, I freeze again. Stupid circulation. =P my fingers turned purple again -.- evil.

*yawn* so I don't know what to do as I wait for it to be 4:30 because I have to pick up my mom by 5:30 and YES with traffic it will probably take me that long to get there. I think I'll go join more cliques...um...well..at least find any with any kind of appeal. I just found 2 yesterday. I'll go seek more. ^_^ though I really shouldn't. Aoki-chu keeps saying there's too many ^^;;;; my bad....

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I decided last minute to stuff myself full of fresh, steamy, hot, white rice. I love rice. It's like one of my staple foods.*yummy* I don't get fresh rice very often, so when I do, I love it. Plus, it's non fattening. ^_^v so I can eat before I go to bed. ^_^ Jjang

I barely ate all day anyway. I had a piece of panettion which is just a fancy name for Italian fruitcake, and a snapple. That's not counting the 2 cups of coffee I had this morning, and then the snapple I got when I dropped my car off to my mom. I had more liquid then anything today. So to get real food in me is good ^^

Okay so I finally saw the Angel Eyes video. Endi, the innocent one, is mad cute, Jin the man whore, needs to shave an his hair bothers me, Eric, the froot, is a froot (redundant) Sungie, the slut had a good short enough part in the beginning, *SUCH A CLONE*, Junie was TOO CUTE *pinches Junie* that Santa thing was soo so cute. Dong Wan, the centerfold, was okay, he looks weird dressed LOL, Ta my BABY *glomps* ultra sexy as a cop and of course the regular clothes was cute too and his singing was kick ass XD I saw Hwan Hee....but...what happened with Brian? O.o I thought there were 2 in Fly to the Sky. Buuut thas jus me. I could be wrong, that's what I get for not following the group. Min Woo, the pimp, was SO CUTE!! *pinches Minu* I was like AW!! Go Aoki-chu ur man is big pimpin'. And you're right, Junie shimmied alot....thas jus his thing though ^^ And then there were a bunch of annoying girls but no one cares.

MOVING ALONG

I saw some so so so so cute pictures of Hee Jun today in the H.5.T forum (link on the side.) What was really weird is that I had somewhat pictured Hee Jun in my head for my new fic so I could describe him better, and my thoughts looked like this Junie from my thoughts *click*
Swear to God he looks like a china doll. So pretty. But that's what he looks like in my fic. There's a reason for that too. But everyone will see what I mean when they read it. Junie looking like a real bishie *click* he also looks like a doll here *still going with the thoughts I had* but this pic bugs me because he needs to do his roots!! *pet peeve*

*yawn* I have a history final tomorrow. I decided to skim over the last couple of chaps I skipped out on reading today, and read them tomorrow as I wait for David.
So tired...*yawn* I can't wait till school is over!!! GOD...I soo need to be on holiday. *yawn* Okay going to bed *even though it's early for me.* Laters.

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UGH UGH UGH I hate myself soooo much sometimes. -.- today was my last day of English class. And I think...ever since I started digging David, I've been looking for a way to talk to him. Okay, so I have FINALLY accomplished that. And now, after ALL THAT WASTED TIME, I was like OKAY last day of class, Imma talk to him about...other issues. Make a move, see if I have a CHANCE IN HELL. So what do I do?

Nothing -.-;;;;;;;;;;

Yes that's right NOTHING. Absoultly, postivily, jack shit, diddly squat NOTHING -.- I hate myself. *kicks self* HOW can I just let that happen. Well...it's not completly over. Tomorrow I have the off chance of seeing him in the morning and then Thursday I have my final with him. *SIGH* I'm so freaking dumb. On the upside he looked so so so so so so so so cute today because he wore one of those black knitted hats with a rim like a baseball hat rim? Only not as long a rim. They're coming in style nowadays. I myself really want one. Anyway, he wore one of those which means he didn't have his hair done *^^* kawaii. And little strands of blonde spikes stuck out near the front, like on his forehead. He kept trying to tuck it in but it didn't work ^.^ huk huk huk so cuuuuute. He also wore a white shirt and blue jeans and a black peacoat. ^_^

After class and I brooded over my stupidity, I went to pay my tuition so I can register for next semester. I was all late >.>;;;; my tutition was due Nov 16. *nervous laugh* ^^;;; well, at least I paid it. So now tomorrow after my History final, I'll go do my scheduale and then go to math. *sigh* I'm so not gonna do well in my History final. I tried studying...but I found it so incrediably boring. I like Europian History...but not like....1700's stuff. A whole bunch of wars and famines accored. A bunch of take overs and political shit happened and I'm like *yawn*
-.-zZzzzZZz. It's not fun. I like ANCIENT history, like Greeks and Romans, the Fall of the Roman Empire, the Greek scholars, the building of Rome, the Renicanssance (wow I butched that) the great Art Period....not this...political propaganda that took place in France and why they beheaded the Queen Antionette. Who cares? Okay so she was a bitch *waves finger in the air* welcome to ancient diva. -.-b

Anyway, I'm FINALLY downloading the Angel Eyes MV so everyone can leave me alone about it. My slow modem is going to take about 1hr and 4 minutes to download a 5 minute or less video. But it's got Ta in it so it's worth it ^^ huk huk huk. Aoki-chu did you order the CD for me? Gomen, I don't mean to keep bugging about it but you know...it'll get sold out all extra fast if it hasn't already. I didn't wanna bring it up yesterday when you were venting.

My poor Aoki-chu is going through 1st year college stress. It happens to us all. Although I'm one of those people that barely stresses over much. I stress, sure who doesn't, but not like in school stuff. If you stress it adds excess damage to your body and mind. I'm already fucked up both mentally and physically I don't need MORE shit fucking me up. But I'm so looking forward to 2morrow just because I'll have knocked another final away and my holiday time is all the closer.

AUWON yes the picture IS real. I think it's just an angle shot though, it's why JunTa looks like they kissin XD huk huk huk JunTa jjang!!! Speaking of which, I started work on my new fic. ^^ no title, 2 chaps down, no couple revealed yet. But with any luck I'll have it out sometime next week. Also, I wanna type up the short story I wrote yesterday. It's called A Letter to my Unborn Child. It's connected to 36 Moons because it's a letter Jia's father wrote to him before he was even born. It's only about 3 pages long. It's not too bad. But I hope someone reads it. It doesn't say anything about the story so no spoilers within.

So tired. >.<;;;;;;;;

I woke up this morning and I was walking to the bathroom to go brush my teeth so I could take my mom to work and my body felt so heavy and tired that when I left my room and turned to go down the hall to go to the bathroom, I hit the wall with my shoulder and I just used the wall as a support method to walk to the bathroom because I was about to tip over. ^^;;;; I was a little tired yes. WAH I'm also hungry now. I'll eat soon though.

Joolez, you're not the only one who wants to go to Korea so bad. I'd sell my...well my soul is damned so I'm not sure who'd want it...besides it's already an IOU for Ta XD so I can't sell that....hmm...I like all my appendages oh I know, I'd sell my...okay I don't know. I'd just give SOMETHING up if I could go to Korea. =( *wants to see Ta so badly* I would give up my soul in a second if it guranteed me Ta. HA....how many of so called "fans" would do that? XD I'm good damnit. And I'm just hating how I keep stumbling across more of his fans. God I hate them all. Nothing personal...just...you sweat my man. I love how people say, let's share him. -.-;;; look at it this way, say you had a boyfriend you went to school with. And some girl likes him too. Would you be so quick to say "Let's share him" to her? No? then that's how I FEEL damnit. I don't like to share. Besides you don't SHARE SOMEONE. He's not a thing to be shared. Not like some fuckin baseball card or something. GOD WHAT is wrong with teeny boppers? *glomps Cyndii who is also an anti-bopper*

Okay, so...um....I think that's it. I'm gonna go write while this video d/ls. *bounce* Laters.

One Luv~* Ahn Chil Hyun

*stretch* I'm coming in for the count down. Tomorrow is my last day in English class. Which also means my last chance at David. I'm scared he'll reject me, but I know if I don't say or do anything, I'll regret like I have so many times before. But I'm not really sure what to say, plus I'm scared. On Weds, I have my History final and then math which I'm actually going to because I need as much review as I can get for my final. On Thursday I have my English final. On Friday my last math class, and then Monday my math final. X.x finals suck. =P BLAH.

I was bored earlier today so I finally took the idea I was toying with and while listening to Hurt I started writing. I have 2 chapters done of my new H.O.T fic. ^^ I have yet to give up writing those....LOL I haven't touched 36 Moons YET...I did write a new chap for today but I haven't written the one for 2morrow yet.

Part 111- Do Not Tempt Me

I'm going BROKE. I decided to pay off my long overdue debt to Amy once and for all in one shot. THEN I found this other girl...and...well I already blew 23$ so I have the money to pay both of them off, AND this Friday still go out with BC this Friday. Problem is, I won't have enough money to buy Xmas presents. But like I said, they'll all prolly be late anyway. I think I can have Aoki-chu's and Gab's on time, and BC's and D's. I have to call D and talk to her. So...yeah...other then that, I'm pretty much set.

AOKI-CHU don't forget to order SM Town 3 for meeeee X.x

Anyway, AH I LOVE Vicious Sparks *click*. I went there today and I found MORE pics of my slut. My Slut, is just too sexy.

Sugizo looking down*click*
He's so damn sexy. But if you notice he still can't dress himself X.x that belt is awful. So is that shirt...>.>

Sugizo in 3 pics same shoot *click*
He's just sexy...*licks Sugizo*

Sugizo showing A LOT of skin *click*
DAMN this shouldn't be as sexy as it is to me. But it is. He's got weird funky metal stuff on him but...he's still freakin sexy XD *continues licking Sugizo*

Sugizo in a suite *click*
*DROOL* YEAH BABY XD

And yeah baby...a pic small of enough to post here XD *pokes*

target=_blank>Sugizo lookin to the side *click*

And now for Toshiya. XD YEAH BABY He too is a sexy bitch but not as slutty LOL

Toshiya in full make up *click*
He's still so pretty ^_^ I like his eye make up. I keep forgetting to post up that full body pic of him when he's not wearing make up and those jeans are all torn up XD WOOOOO *touches Toshiya's thighs*

Toshiya in pieces *click*
I looove this pic. I seperated it from other pics of the rest of DEG, but I like just Toshiya's pics. ^^ pretty.

Toshiya in pieces II *click*
Same as before. Just different posses and angles.

And and Auwon and other Gackt fans...
Gackt and his dog *click*
Auwon wishes that she was where Gackt's dog is LOL

Gackt and his dog II *click*
Look at hs doggy. That is such a cuuuute doggy. ^^ I wish I had a cute doggy like that hehehehehe

Sophia *click*
I don't know who this is, but the picture is beautiful ^_^

Okay thats it for pics. Man....what was I gonna say...oh yeah...joined more cliques. I need to stop. I'm getting carried away LOL but I love the cliques. They're pretty hehehehe okay....I'm gonna go write some more. ^_^b

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Part 110- Sell Out

I'm so bored. It's almost 11 now. I'm going crazy having to figure out what I have to get D and BC for Xmas. And for Aoki-chu. And then of course Amy. And then Steve and Emanuel and Pookie...I think everyones presents but BC's and D's will be late...faboo...*sigh* I still have to decided what to get my Aoki-chu. I think I have an idea, but money is ridicually tight now. I already know what to get Maki but that will prolly be late too. DAMNIT. I hate being late =P

Anyway....whatelse....OH YEAH, I have my Health final tomorrow. Incrediably easy. *snap* then I have to buckle down and then read chapters 23-30 in History for my Final on Weds. Then Thursday I have my English final, also a snap. Then Friday, I have to sit at my compy and study math with Christopher oppa. He's gonna give me some quick tutoring. I hope he's not too tired from work that day. *sigh* I HATE finals. I'm not too stressed because Math is the only thing I have to worry about and that's not till the the 17th and then I'm FREE!!! MWHAHAHAH a lot of time to think and blog and sleep and....sleep...^^ I have to try and go out man. I can't be home 24/7/365. *yawn*

Pretty Yuki ^^ from Aucifer ^______^ hehehe I like him. Guitarist. Go fig...of course no guitarist is better then my slut!!! LOL Well Sashi is good...but I still like Sugizo and his slutty ways better. *yawn* let's see what else I can do as I sit up till 12. Later.

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Okay....tell me why last night, I had this really weird dream about Tetsu from Larc. Well it wasn't weird, just pretty cool. Me and BC were in this...car. In a parking lot somewhere. There was a van beside us that had like 2 guys in there. I didn't know who it was. BC was in the driver seat and me in the back seat. I was laying on my tummy, looking at a magazine (don't remember what) when BC goes, hey that guy next to us looks like Yukihiro from L'arc. I look over my shoulder and see this guy that sorta looked like Yukkie sitting in the back of the van window, having a cigarette. I was like oh...*shrugs* yeah he sorta looks like him. I turn back to my magazine. A little while later, the guys in the van next to us start arguing and one of them got out. I noticed one guy, walking, and he tied a bandanna around his head as he went soemwhere. Once he did that, I realized it WAS Yukkie from Larc! I sit up and I'm like BC that was Yukkie!! So we both press to the window next to us to look to see who was left in the van and we see Tetsu sitting at the window. I take out my "calander" (which I had no idea where it came from but it was a Larc calander)and I look at a picture of Tetsu and compare it to the guy sitting at the van. I see it is Tetsu.

Me and BC get out of the car and we approach Tetsu. I can't speak Japanese so I show him his picture and I make a noise that went like "Tsu?" LOL he looked at me and gave me a weird look and it seemed like he was gonna turn me away. But I clasp my hands and say "Onegai?" which is please in Japanese. He smiled and then takes out a brown magic marker and flips open the calander to a date and month and starts signing his name. Then he gives it back to me and BC gets him to sign it. I bow and say thank you (in english because it slipped my mind on how to say it in Japanese) and then I run off towards where Yukihiro walked XD

I don't remember anything else that happened. Other then I was skipping, thinking I met Tetsu! I met Tetsu! I'm gonna go see Yukkie! LOL I'm weird.

Ohh for my Gijimo even though he may be passing over ya now

I caught him today for yooooou. Though you may let him go now. LOL ANyway, I finally did some major work on my FAQ. I didn't finish completly but I did do a lot of work on it X.x I needed too. Man it was way over due. I added 3 new parts to it...hope people go check it out and sign the Guest book! I should have the guest book here too...I always forget. I didn't blog yesterday because I did't do anything. I didn't do anything today either but my dream was cool LOL. I got to see Tetsu ^^ *yawn*

Okay I'm off to write. Speaking of which, I need opinons. Everyone is requesting..well I got 3 requests for TonHyuk, 1 for JunTa and 1 for HyukTa as the couples of my next fic. Any other thoughts? I don't know about TonHyuk...because I'm not a big fan of it...but...I could prolly work them in there somwhere...Oi...>.< anyway later.

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I'm so tired....

I stayed up a little longer to finish up a new chap of 36 Moons

Part 109- Desire: The Price of Flesh

*yawn* BTW AOKI-CHU thanks for leaving me today!! Without saying a word!! It's totally ditch me day today. -.-
Anyway besides that, since Gijimo will not be doing my next layout, because you know...she was just a guest layout ^^ *muahz* I asked Kara to hook it up if she had time. She agreed and she will *glomps Kara* God I'm tired...

I should go to bed. After Eve is done singing...I'll go to bed. ^____^ *yawn* I need to stop yawning....I'm so freakin tired...=.= okay in a minute...man I have to start this new fic...I really do...the epilouge for Finale will be sent tomorrow. I think I over did it on the sugary happiness. X.x Blah...back to angst for me. I think I have a pretty good idea of what to do...this time. Just still choosing couples...

What is THAT GUY doing in politics?? He's a politician...Aya anyone? LOL he's not as pretty but the concept is still there. WOW I wish politicans looked that good here! This dude is from Japan. Cyndii told me his name but I forgot. LOL

Okay...going to bed...tired...

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I was asked 6 times, YES SIX FREAKING TIMES if I had seen/heared the Angel Eyes MV/MP3 yet. So before anyone else asks me again...

NO I DIDN'T WATCH/HEAR THE FUCKING MP3/MV YET

Anyway now that that's out of the way, I was suppost to go see Ocean's 11 today with BC. But we didn't make a set time, we never do. So I figured I'd call her on my way to pick up my mom or if anything she would call me. So I call her cell phone, and the number doesn't work I call her dorm, she's not there and I figured she wasn't home....so...here I am. *sigh* I got stood up.

But on the up side, I hung out with Steve today. I also broke plans and I could have gone seen Ocean's 11 ANYWAY because me and Steve were suppost to hang out. But I broke plans with him so I could chill with BC because as I said before, she was having some problems and needed to talk to me. But she ditched me....so....as I said, here I am. But me and Steve hung out this morning. I took him to class with me and he had me dying the whole way. He's such a trip. He's like Sunnie, just not as perverted. Hehehehe but that was probably the only good part of my day. I'm just upset that I didn't get to go see Ocean's 11 or get to see BC. *sigh*

If I were a work of art, I would be Edvard Munch's The Scream. I express the subconscious troubles and anxieties of the world. I hold my head and let loose the primal terror of my innermost fears, surrounded by a lurid landscape which reflects my feeble grasp on reality. Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

^____^ I like these. I'm The Scream. LOL jjang. But it also shows more of myself cuz it's kinda true. I also joined more cliques. I have problems. I'm going clique happy. But I'm having trouble finding more I like now...mostly because you know...some of them are really stupid, and some are waaaaaay too happy or some require you to be judged like THEIR clique is the shit which I so hate. And then of course there is the "waiting" period. I'm waiting for Hardcore to answer me back and Better then You too. >.> but hey...I wanna be down with Better the You because....yes, my arrogance makes me believe I am better then some people. Not everyone, just some people.

I AM THE ANTI-TEENY BOPPER
People don't grasp this. I don't like...boppers. I was talking with Gijimo yesterday about that. She said she and Janie are boppers. I told her, Gijimo is too hardcore and Janie is too too cute. So I don't mind. Also, I found out that my Gijimo has total Yakuza tendancies. *She gets that from her umma XD* She doesn't like Hee Jun fans except one. Just like me....I only like 1 Ta fan. Mwhahahaha my Gijimo is so cute *pinchy Gijimo* She can totally be a Yakuza. So...guys...what you all think? Aoki-chu? Ghost? Gab? Tai Tai? Let me know. ^_________^ Cuz damnit, my daughter is so gangsta.

So anyway...I am the anti bopper. All Yakuza are. XD
Okay...I'm off to write...I should have done this 1st. ^^;;;; BUT AH AERIS....X.X she's trying to kill me. She sent me these YUMMY Toshiya pics...he's on a bed in one XD and someone was kissin his tummy/chest WAH!! *wishes that was me* and then he's at a sink in the other, washing his face as he looks into the mirror. *DROOL* Sexy bitch. Also, yesterday I was linked the TonHyuk page in Korean. The girl who ran it, she said that she was surprised to know a non-Korean girl was into H.O.T I was like there's tons of us! She was surprised. But nonetheless, she submitted my blog and my FAQ to the page so other fans can come check it out. I dunno....I so have to go fix that now. LOL ^^;;; I haven't touched it in a little while plus, since Virtue.nu is a bastard and killed my account, I have to reupload everything to Angelfire and do it again. ^^v faboo.

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Part 108- By Force

Sorry for the delay on that. I kept getting interuppted yesterday. OKAY so...anyway....I went clique joining happy. As you can see...*points to the right* I like all of those though. ^^ I even joined a Chibi lovers clique! WEEE jjang. LOL I do love SD's and my own personal Chibi, GHOST!! Besides, Kara said she can imagine me going nuts talking to David and me turning into a SD running around. Changa said the same thing LOL. AND YES KARA I adopted a Draco ^^ I just had to. ^_____^

I found out the most interesting thing yesterday.
FACT: The Japanese have the highest smoking rate in the world, but the lowest lung cancer rate. Why? Because of, *get this* TEA! That's kinda jjang. I thought that was cool. I learned that in health the other day. I jus thought I'd share. So maybe thas why J-rockers can smoke like that and be fine. ^_^v jjang.

MORE TA PICS!!!!!! Got these from the K-pop Forum so credit to them but glompies to Aoki-chu who sent me the link ^^.

My baby is wearing FENDI *click*
YES FENDI *claps* Thas why he's my man see. Gucci, Fendi...*sigh* baby can dress himself so well. See for those that don't know what Fendi is...then...that's why he's not YOUR MAN XD and those that do know...so what? You're not special. He's STILL not YOUR man. XD

Ta's evil glare *click*
*melts into a pile of Lemon Goddess goo* *shiver* Don't look at me like that! It gives me hentai ideas XD

Ugh...his lip is chapped *click* but it's still sexy XD *GLOMPS TA* I loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
ooooooooooooooooooveee
yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooou

*yawn* so anyway I'm in dire need of holiday. I can't take no more school. -.- I have Math 2morrow...and I don't feel like going. But I have to because it's gonna be one of the final few days of class left. Next week I have finals all next week and most if not all are back to back. My health final is next Weds I believe...or Monday. English final is Thursday, History final next Weds. My math one isn't until AFTER school is over. I still have to register for next semester which I can't do until I pay tutition which I already told my mother about. Then I have to register for class. Blah. What a pain in the ass.

2morrow I'm going to go see Ocean's Eleven with BC ^___^ because Brad Pitt is jjang XD And we're gonna have a nice long talk before hand. She's got some stuff she's dealing with and she needs to talk to me. Which I so throughly am down for. She sed I might get mad at her...>.> now I'm worried. *yawn*

I realized I can't start my new fic until I have a TITLE for it. A title is my jumping off point. Without a title, I might as well not have a plot. -.-;;; and I'm still a little torn for couples....waah. T.T *loves both HyukTa and JunTa* so I won't do that for a little bit yet. So sorry everyone. But you know I'll do it! Kara? *click* a pedophile??? LOL NOOOOOOOOOOOO *note extreme sarcasm* LOL No I'm playing. Nah....more like...okay u have pedophiliatic tendancies. Just like Sunnie. LOL SUNNIE!! LOL

Speaking of which, for sometime Sunnie has mentioned he has this "friend he goes and do stuff with". Never had a name. He never told me his name. Yesterday I got to talk to him. His name is Woo, short for Min Woo which he hates being called so everyone calls him Woo. He's 21. He's a Business Tech major in Queens College, has 6 tattoos ( 3 on the lower back 1 on the forearm, neck and waist) and his tongue pierced. I basically played 20 questions with him yesterday because I wanted to know about him. He's got a sexy voice. XD And Sunnie abuses him. Sunnie makes fun of him all the time and calls him Woo Woo just to piss him off. LOL. He also calls Woo a fag and Woo takes it because he has no comeback for that! What's he suppost to say, No you are? Well duh. LOL Poor Woo. He takes it in stride though. He's also a bit of a commititment phob and doesn't like girlfriends but one night stands LOL. Woo is a trip. I like him though, nice guy. He also is a big anti-pop american or Korean...he's against it. Sunnie warned him not to say nutthin bad about Ta...LOL and he listened! He hates his name because of Shinhwa...which is so bad...LOL that's why he tells people his name is Woo. And thas it. LOL

*sigh* okay....better get a drink and a quick nosh before it gets too late. ^_________^ *glutton* LOL AND OH...I found out I don't have fan girls, I have Female Enthusists of the Literary Arts. LOL oh of my F.E.L.A's told me that. LOL okay so forget fangirls...LOL

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I didn't get the chance to blog again yesterday because after my "situation" from before, everyone and they momma started IMing me. I was over runned by IM windows and I didn't even get the chance to finish up the chap of 36 Moons that I was working on, let alone start my new fic. Also NRG (who IMed me last night, and I was actually pleased to talk to) requested/suggested a HyukTa ^______^

HYUKTA JJANG

I'm a BIG HyukTa fan. I love JunTa 1st, then HyukTa then TonHyuk. Mostly because Tony bothers me sometimes. But that's another story. Anyway I didn't get a chance to do anything else. Also Mako emailed me 3 times to apologize. She knows I got them. I haven't replied. I do read the email though. I'm easy to hurt, hard to forgive. It's like pulling apart a rose petal and then trying to put it back together again. So...I don't know. We'll leave that alone for now.

OKAY so, today was probably my most successful day with David ever. 1st off, we had an in class essay to write today on biotechonology -.-;;;; whoopie. Anyway, I write mine up and then I waited for my friend Pam. Well...friend is a strong word. Girl I know in class Pam. I asked her like one time if she was like gonna be done soon because I was waiting for her so we could talk afterwards. She said no. I wait like 20 minutes, almost 1/2 hour later, then I was just gonna turn around and tell her I was gonna wait outside for her but before I even open my mouth she's like I'm not finished DAMN! She whispered it. I was like...geez allllll righty. I didn't leave anyway, mostly because I was also waiting for David but using Pam as a cover. When she finishes, she gets up and hands in her paper and then leaves. -.- gee thanks for waiting. Anyway I hand in my own paper and then I get back a previous essay I wrote in class. I got an A!! Wooooo *does 1Tym dance*
Anyway I walk down the hall reading my essay when I pass Changa's class I make a gesture that I'm gonna wait for him. So I stood outside Changa's class as I waited for him. And then David comes out! He walks towards me and then says hi and then he's like what did you get on that essay? I'm like an A! You? He's like I failed T.T I didn't have the worksheet. I was like awww....=( I felt kinda bad that I was sitting there with my A paper and he failed X.x I was like that's so weird cuz I bullshitted. He's like you did? I'm like yeah. Then I ask him where he was going, and he's like right here *points to class I'm standing next too* I'm like oh..(it was his accounting class X.x) then he goes in and goes back out to get a drink. Then Changa's class is dissmissed and we both go walking down the hall an I take his arm out of habit, and I sorta take his hand and then David comes back up the hall! I didn't wanna make it obvious that I was letting go of Changa completly so I shake my hand of his but I'm still holding onto his arm. He gives me this weird look (David) and then goes to his class. UGH....Changa laughed at me. He was like I think dude (because he calls him dude as if he didn't know David's name) likes you, because that look was classic. -.- I also talked to David BEFORE class. His ears stick out. LOL I jus noticed that. His braces still sorta bother me...but he's still cute. I had a whole convo with him before class and then after. ^^ I have until next Thursday to make something happen. -.-;;; *sigh*

Anyway, yeah....MY BABY IS SO FINE. But he smokes *click*. And that use to bother me so much, but it's like....whatever. To each his own. Plus, it's not like I don't smoke every now and then, so...hey if he wants to smoke....he can. To each his own. Plus he's really fuckin sexy so he can do whatever he damn well pleases. When you look this *click* good, then hey, whatever. Do what you want around or to me baby XD *sigh* Look at this face *click* *SIGH* I fell in love all over again. My Stacy unni gave the links to me ^^ So thanks to her *glomps unni* I also thought of a new layout...but I dunno who's gonna hook it up for me. ^^;;; But he's so beautiful I was like....gonna cry last night. So beautiful *SIGH* WHY is he so beautiful? Wah...

Anway, I got the full body pic of Toshiya yesterday XD JJANG. Those jeans are ripped all the way man. Near his thighs XD and he's got black I think...boxer briefs underneath. And he's bare foot XD His second toe is long but...other then that his feet are cute. LOL Aoki-chu knows my deal with feet. Anyway, he's ONLY 24!!! OMG!! A J-rocker UNDER 30!!!! LOL I know so few of them. I jump for joy knowing those under 30. I'll upload the pic laters. Right now Imma go try and write again before I get overwhelmed. Plus I have to eat soon....but I'm the only one having dinner at my desk LOL. I'm such a weirdo. *GLOMPS TOSHIYA* the pics that Aeris gave me, he looks sooooooooo beautiful ^^ I showed them to Aoki-chu and she said that he looks like Aya, if Aya was real. Pretty Aya as Toshiya? I'm down. LOL

Okay, Imma go write. ^_^v laters.

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Am I really that much of a person to hate that people have to bitch at me?

Seriously?

And how come whenever I try to be nice, people wanna fuck me anyway? How is that? Why is that?

It's happened on more then one occassion when I've been nothing but nice to someone, and they turn around and say some shit to me that totally pisses me off and make me wonder:

Now....why am I being nice again?

In high school, it happened with this guy named Irving. I was like so nice to him, I lent him money during lunch, I gave him whatever girl group pictures I had, I was nothing but nice. And all he ever did was bitch at me and treat me like shit, talk about me behind my back, and ignore me unless he needed something. So, I stopped talking to him. For a year. I still don't like him. Even though he apologized and hugged me for my graduation. Whatever, him. Handbasket. Hell.

Even online. This girl Lai. She was nice. She liked my work, she complimented me. We exchanged letters and stuff. I thought, oh cool, possible new friend. Then she goes and pops some whore shit to me. Again why am I bothering? Her. Handbasket. Hell.

And TODAY, I was talking with Mako. Someone who I said was nice to me. We weren't all super close and whatever, but today, she laces some shit with some sarcasm I just didn't appericate. WHY? I don't know. Whatever I said, I didn't mean it with offense and she goes off on this whole "I'm not as nice and innocent as I seem" shit. I'm like hey, to each his own, whatever you may be. I don't know you like that. Then she's like you assume people are biters. (Bringing back some OLD OLD DEAD, BURIED and ROTTED SHIT about NRG like a zillion years ago -.-;;;;) I'm like aiite whatever. She's like in ur FAQ, you say you steal peoples ideas for writing. I'm like, I don't steal ideas, I take similar or same concepts. Because duh if you think about it, what really really original idea is out there that hasn't been done in some shape or form? Then, she's like and make them better right? Because you're so good like that. Sarcasm anyone? I was like aite whatever, how bout you not talk to me no more. BLOCK. Again, Hell. Handbasket.

WHAT THE FUCK amd I doing that make people WHO I'M NICE TO, wanna fuckin beat on me? WHAT? WHAT THE FUCK IS IT? This makes me hate everyone. I don't know what kind of person you are and you may be as sweet as my best friend, but you know what, because of past experiances, I may not wanna get to know you. I've taken risks and gotten to know some people but WHY do I come across those occasional people that just wanna fuckin get at me for NO REASON? If you wanna hate me, I'll give you a list of reasons. Take a ticket, stand in line, wait your turn because 9 out of 10 times, I'll probably hate you too. Don't hate me for NO FUCKIN REASON. Hate me, I'll give you a reason to. <